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lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *pots faintly*
I-- o-okay..Goodnight..
I..I love you
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /blinks from your actions, making me smile a bit
I'm gonna go.. talk to you tomorrow. Good night.
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *lets out a small yawn and shifts, ending up lowering my head onto your shoulder, nuzzling into the covered skin tiredly*
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /a light smile appears on my face when you've agreed and I just nod, keeping silent as I try to enjoy this peaceful silence, afraid that if I speak, I might break it
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *nods slowly, my fingers lightly twirling your strands through my fingers as I whispered*
Of course I promise..
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /blinks at your request and smiles lightly, nodding
I promise..
/whispers softly and close my eyes
Can you promise me the same too?..
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon Promise me..
*whispers softly, furrowing my brows*
Promise me you'll still tell me things when something is bothering you..
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /blinks from your words and nods slowly
A-Alright..
/whispers softly to you
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon I still want you to come talk to me if you get upset..
*whispers softly*
Our promises haven't changed. But..instead, we'll start taking time to sit down and actually talk things out.
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /picking my head up to look at you, i let you brush my bangs out of the way
A-Are you sure?... W-What if you get sad again.. I-I don't want you to push everything aside..
/whispers quietly and ducks my head, ashamed that my selfishness came first again
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *listening to you quietly, I slowly nod my head before reaching up, gingerly moving your bangs out of your face before I muttered*
Then..let's stop..
*whispers softly*
We can work on this..
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk I-I don't know..
/murmurs a bit and leans in, resting my head on your shoulder
I want us to stop.. Fighting.. I can't breathe every time this happen.. i don't think my heart can take it anymore if this continues.. We do this every other day and it hurts so much.. It's like my heart is getting stamped on..
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *watches as you move down to your knees, frowning faintly at the question*
Why would I lie to you..?
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /slowly sink down on my knees, wrapping my arms around your neck
... Are you lying?..
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *blinks a bit, glancing up at you before frowning faintly*
Jihoon..
You do make me happy
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /shakes my head at your question, wiping away the tears on my own cheek quickly
No.. It's what can /I/ do to make you happy...
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *lets out a small sigh, my fingers curling into the back of your shirt*
What can I do to make things better..?
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /as you tighten your arms around me, it was only until then that I was snapped back out of everything, blinking away the pain and tears once more
I love you too.. More than you will ever know..
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *tightens my arms around you at your lack of response, keeping my face hidden within the fabric of your shirt*
I love you..
*repeats softly*
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /when you dropped to your knees, my own tears slide down my cheek but I stay completely still, frozen in my spot, not being able to hear a single word you've said as I stare blankly in front of me, still drowning in the hate
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *taking small, shakey breaths, I try to calm down before I dropped to my knees in front of you, my arms slipping around your waist as I bury my face into your stomach, muttering*
I..I love you..I-I'm sorry..I'll try harder...I promise..
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /seeing the tears in your eyes, I fall completely silent, my hands dropping to my sides weakly as I step back, knowing damn well that I was the one that always made you cry, the hatred for myself grows again
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon *bites into my lower lip gently before averting my eyes once more, my shoulders shaking a bit as I tried to hold back a silent cry, my hands moving to wipe at my tears a bit quickly, wanting them to stop, yet the more I think, the quicker they fall*
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /smiles softly at you as I nod
You're doing a lot better... I just need a little bit more time to get used to it..
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon But..but it's not enough..i-is it..?
*whispers quietly, my nose scrunching up slightly as I tried to hold back the tears, my chest rising and falling in a shakey manner*
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk /falls silent from your words, still brushing the tears away from your cheeks as I think, tears brimming my own eyes but I keep blinking them back and ignoring the throbbing pain in my chest, the dizziness I feel, and the numbness of my feet, feeling as if I might collapse any second
You're doing a lot better than before after I've told you what's wrong...
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon I..why do you say things like that..?
*mutters softly, glancing back up at you, the tears slowly running down my cheeks and past the pads of your fingers*
It's like you don't listen to any of the stuff I've already told you..like I've said privately was never talked about..o-or none of the stuff I do or say to show I love you gets through...am..am I really not doing that much..?
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk Then don't shut me out like a stranger.. Let me in.. It's so lonely out here... It's like I'm the only one that's doing all the loving..
/noticing the tears sliding down your cheek, I blink back my own, not daring to cry and reaches up, brushing away the tears
Please.. I beg of you...
lee minhyuk 2 months ago
@lee jihoon I don't mean to!
*feels myself tremble slightly at your words, the tears beginning to blurr my vision before I shook my head quickly, glancing up at you*
I do love you..what have I done that shows that I don't?
*bites into my lower lip a bit rougher and glances back down, a few tears breaking free and falling down my cheeks*
D-don't do that..please...
lee jihoon 2 months ago
@lee minhyuk .. Did I not say that I don't care?.. Did I not say that I want to know everything?
/whispers softly to you as I clench my fist
And yet, you still shut me out, put up walls around you, and let me watch you, the one I love, suffer without doing anything..
It's at times like this that I really start to wonder if you've ever loved me.. If I was ever good enough for you...
If you're afraid of me leaving you because of that, then maybe, I should start shutting myself off too. Maybe I should stop trusting you and start pushing you away. It's only fair that way...

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AngelMegMaslow 1 week ago
Can you please reserve TOPPDOGG's Hansol for me? ^^
kkamjongie- 1 month ago
Sorry but Jongsuk will be leaving.
epsilon 1 month ago
ksoo has left
Thank you for the stay
Not-My-Style 1 month ago
hey there Hyunwoo will be leaving. had fun till it last:)
blueashes 1 month ago
Hello admin, please let Taemin be on hiatus until 10th?
-Mino- 1 month ago
I am sorry but top is out nothing really going on and such good luck guys ..
vkookslittle 1 month ago
Minki will be leaving, It was nice here but I will be deactivating this account for personal reasons.
cowchop 1 month ago
s. minho is out
omgeeKpop 1 month ago
I'm sorry but Hyungwon will be leaving. I enjoyed my time here
cynphael 1 month ago
yoongs dipped
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