So... Yeah... I feel kind of broken and kind of numb...

I'm sure most of you already know about...I don't even want to say it but what's headlining in Kpop news...

I just...I may or may not be able to get replies or anything of the sort out today but, please, I wouldn't bank on me getting any done.

Part of me is sadly amused because, yesterday, I had like...this sudden urge to just...stab myself and I wasn't even sure where it came from. The only reason I find it a bit amusing is because part of me is just like wondering if I felt a shift like that in the universe.

It also makes me think of this fic that I was working on where I looked up Hansol and just... 

I don't even know what to say but yeah.

I feel so empty and it hurts. It just really hurts and I'm trying not to cry again or anything. Like I cried on the way to work but then I like broke down for a bit at my desk once I got to work. How to make it through the whole work day pretending I'm okay? Lol

I just... It hurts so much...