If I left would I be happier... I've been wondering more and more if I left would I be happier not if anyone else would be happier or more upset. I'm starting to worry about myself more than others, which really isn't like me I always worry about more people than myself.
This is basically me thinking about leaving rpr, I just feel insignificant now and I feel like it has changed so much and my experience is ruined because of a group of others on this site. I'm just maybe better off leaving everything behind. And I really don't wanna go because I have friends on here that I care a lot about. I'm a co admin in rps that I wouldn't feel right if I just abandon them. But everyday I log on I get this uncomfortable feeling in my head and my stomach because of sometning that happened 4 years ago on here and I can't even explain anything to what happened. Then I had the scare a little while ago where I disappeared because of my mental health. I was in a seriously bad place and it was because of this site.
now I can walk away from here and be free for myself, but what about others, my friends, who need me or want me here. I don't wanna leave them behind, like how others have left me over the years. I'm just really tired of wondering and being paranoid about something so insignificant and letting it ruin my job at work even. My whole life I've wanted to help people and now I'm trying to help myself? I dunno anymore, I don't know how to ask for help the right way I guess..
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