Apparently, my dad wants me to think of him and my mother as dead

Apparently a fifteen year old homebound girl is supposed to "do something" and realize the face of reality. Ugh, I really want to die. I literally have no friends or anybody to lean onto. And apparently since kids in third world countries have to work for their food, I have to too. What kind of ing logic is this. I just want to die, really. What kind of father does this to his ing child? I just really want to die. Someone kill me already.