I Have No Clue...

I'm sure all of you know about the devestation that took place in the Philippines; where about 10,000 individuals lost their lives in the Typhoon that struck. I feel so bad about it and my heart goes out to all of the survivors who lost loved ones and who cannot relocate the ones that may still be alive.

The thing that bothers me is that; I have a friend who lives in the Philippines - his name is Karlo. We used to talk every single day starting with Asianfanfics, Roleplay Republic, Skype, Kakao, and Kik - I was sure he was annoyed with me.

We lost contact about two months ago because he's been busy with work ( he's a 20 year old high school teacher in the Philippines ). After the news going out about what happened recently - Friday, I believe - I just lost it. I don't know whether or not he's okay; it isn't like I can message him and ask him whether or not he'll be okay because I know I won't get a response.

The worst part is not knowing whether or not he survived during the storm. With us losing contact a while back, there is just no way of me knowing. We didn't talk for months and I know it'll continue being like that - but now, instead of me thinking that he has a busy, hectic schedule with teaching on a daily basis and getting his lesson plans ready ; I'll now think something has happened to him and will make our communication end forever...

I don't even know how to feel right now.

Of course I'm sad - I haven't been able to stop crying ( especially reading about all of the devestation, about the many people killed, the loved ones who told the stories about how they watched their families, friends, and partners die ).

My heart goes out to all of them!

And I hope and PRAY that Karlo is okay and that he'll come back and at least message me on the countless places we message just to say "He's okay"

I don't even care if we break contact again - I just want to know that he's okay...I just have no clue...

Not knowing is the worst part...