I'm shocked as hell that Lee Michelle actually debuted.

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Created Mar 24, 2014 02:30:18

The white face definitely hit a chord with me. I think I told this story to a friend once before but when I was around 5 or 6 one of my cousin was born and her mom brought her into town. She looked over at the baby and said "She's light and bright and pretty just like us" both her and her daughter was light skin. Once she made a comment to my grandma when her health was down and said "I'm getting dark just like you."

I don't know how I overheard that comment, but it just made me look at my own skin and think 'Am I dark and ugly?' I think that started me down a very long road of self hate, I'm mostly over being not light enough since most people don't comment on my skin color which made that memory even odder. I've been bullied about everything except skin color but that was one of the ones that hit the harder. It's probably why I have a harsh reaction when people complain about their skin getting darker. I know there's a myriad of other problems she addressed in her video, something everyone can relate it. Then again, I enjoy following half-black musians in Asian (I've been an extremely big fan of Crystal Kay for almost a decade and she can do no wrong other than she can stop getting her nails done so much and hit the studio more often.)

That and I'll forever think I'm not pretty enough, which confuses me when people post pictures of themselves and call themselves ugly. Hell, my own facebook don't have my picture on it.

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kiriyama 10 years ago

asdfghjkl That song was beautiful. T^T
I think I remember her from K-POP Star (?). OwO
I often believe I'm not pretty enough or thin enough. I've always had a personal affinity for light skin. And I avoided the sun like crazy due to it. I always think I'm too dark, especially after one summer of going to the river too much and I got a tan. I'm half Mexican and the other half is a varied mix of European ethnicities. And my dad's side of the family tend to have darker skin so I tried hard to not allow myself to become so dark. I don't understand why I try to keep my skin light, or why I allow myself to care how light or dark my own skin tone is. OTL.
Which speaking about it, it seems almost humorous because if you've seen some of my facebook pictures that I'm actually about a medium light. OTL. I know it probably doesn't make sense that I find myself so terribly ugly yet have pictures up. I delete most of the photos I take. I actually would have battle about having my photo taken before I got into kpop. It was after that that I allowed my photo to be taken and then started putting a lot of my photos up OwO;

lindir 10 years ago

I like my darkish (it isn't that dark, it's kinda like dark olive) skin because I don't look pasty in the winter and red in the summer like all the pale white people. In other words, if I could change one thing about my appearance, it wouldn't be my skin colour.