I'm so pissed... at myself.

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Okay, so it's been 24 hours or so after the issue with Kris.

And I've been hell since then. Really. I'm stinking dehydrated, I don't have any appetite, Starbucks is the only thing running in my system, and seriously, I can't cry anymore. I know this is like, over the top, overreaction-ess but I'm just sad, and I don't mean to do all these things to myself. If it wasn't for my friends here and at school, I wouldn't know what to do. Okay, I don't think I should put what really happened to me the whole day, but you can ask me if you want...

So the reason why I'm pissed at myself is because idk anymore. My head is split into two. One of them is, "Kris I love you comeback don't go" stuff that involves buckets of tears.

The other is the one I'm pissed at. It's bad because it doesn't like Kris. I feel annoyed at him, now that I think about it. I don't want to judge him, and I don't want to admit this to myself either, but I think he's being selfish here.

He does this without saying anything to s, right before their first solo concert and they just came back! I just can't help but think about this.

What if the ig and weibo posts are true? I'm now starting to think twice about it now. Remember Tao's post? I feel that now. Not exactly betrayed, more like disappointed. The two of them are close, and if I were Tao, I'd feel the same way. They said Suho called him irresponsible? I feel like believing that now.

Now, do not and I mean do not, get me wrong. I still love Kris with all my heart and I want him to stay, I don't want EXO to separate. I just... maybe he could've done something better than this. At least tell the members first? Or give us hints. That would be helpful. Because now I'm more than scared. Terrified actually. If he decides to leave, i'll support him. I'll support him no matter what. It's just that I don't know what to do and what to believe. Actually, I believe in Kris. I believe that he could solve this mess because he's just awesome like that.

AND REMEMBER OVERDOSE? THEY CAN'T LEAVE RIGHT? EXACTLY. YOU ARE TRAPPED IN MY HEART, KRIS WU YI FAN.

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JolendaEXO-Overdosed 10 years ago
SM staff took their phones away though Baekhyun said he lost his... And the shout that was heard was not because Baekhyun would have been slapped, I am pretty sure they were just continuously trying to get his phone too, probably telling him to find it and all that ... That's why Baekhyun could have shouted for them to leave him alone. And Lee Sooman should come back too. Kim Youngmin is doing everything wrong ans SM entertainment is a mess. All the rumors and going around won't stop by taking away EXO members phones... Things like these make SM look really bad, especially the fact they are going against human rights... Their contracts are like permanent for 13 years before the artist can leave or sign a new contract... It's as if they are their slaves to make money for the company. And if they want to leave the company and they have a permission for it to terminate the contract they have to pay more than they would ever earn in a few years of being in SM... SM has always lost the lawsuits and in many cases they have been found out to have changed or added more into the contracts without the permission from the artists. SM does things in a pretty much illegal way... And the fact they had to take their phones away and upload to weibo, instagram etc. is about going as low as possible to make it seem like the members aren't as close as thought... Even if Kris didn't tell them about the lawsuit before making it...
Calliope 10 years ago
I think this has been coming for a while. I don't think he's planned to do it now, I think it just became to much for him.
Also, I fully believe that SM took their phones and updated that . There's too much wtong with those posts to be from them.
Also, I think there is a possibility that he might have actually talked to the members before this. I don't believe anything SM spews out and I don't want yo let them make me doubt the members' relationship. That is what they want and I'm not going to let them win.
That bring said, I understand uou disappointment. However, I don't think think Krid is thr kind of person to do something like this "just because:. There's a reason and with SM's history I am not surprised that it has come to this, unfortunately.
--doreimee 10 years ago
Why should someone give up their happiness
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