"Baby, I became a person because of you If it wasn’t for you I don’t even wanna think about it my baby You make me great baby; Even if God doesn’t allow us to be together I will love you till the end I’d rather die than not have you Everything becomes meaningless"
When I listen to these words being sung, my mind automatically pictures you. It feels like an empty cold spot next to me when you aren't here and I try to distract myself with images of you on tumblr- Though it doesn't work much; I'm still at least satisfied that at the end of the day whenever we do catch each other, we're able to embrace each other as if we haven't seen each other in years. I can't imagine a day of my existence without you without feeling like a part of me is missing. I can say countless of times how much I love you. I know those words make you happy just hearing them and I'm more than happy to be generous with them. I love you jIN. Even if for some reason we were in a crisis where there was an apocalypse and you somehow turned into a zombie, I would rather die by your hands than having to kill the one I love or even being killed by someone else. You're what makes me eternally happy and I can't help but thank you for showing me the love I never thought I could recieve. Without you I could be awful by saying it would be meaningless to live since I have others who care for me but when I think about it- in the depth of my heart, in reality, it is true. Why I haven't seen this, maybe I was too blinded by my surroundings that I couldn't realize that the love of my life was standing before me the whole time. I hope that you do feel just how much I truly am in love with you...
@kim seokjin My days used to be nothing more than just another 24hr day. All the things I did and all the things I've said had always been repeated the whole week. I was lost although my knowledge was pretty high on life. But of course when I started talking to you was when I became more aware that I had to reach out and capture you in my embrace. It wasn't an intimate embrace but of a embrace for a one sided love- Or so I had thought. I had never thought that having been able to talk to you had made my heart skip multiple beats at different times of my life and I was too dense to notice that you we're the cause of my heart palpitations. It was all too clear yet I was blind. Some genius I was yet I did not see that I clearly had fallen in love with you. Not hesitating to embrace you, holding you closer than the normal embrace you would give to someone else. I couldn't help but stop to think, what it was that I was feeling. What it was that made me think of you so much. Why so. Why you. My heart ached when you weren't around, but it beats just as fast when you are. I was never able to understand until it was obvious enough.
I can't say just how much I love you. I mean- I could but I'd just be spamming it over a million times. Unless there was a character limit then gDI. But you know, I am infatuated by you. My eyes can never leave your existence and my body always tells itself to cling onto you and never let go. It wants to be possessive, it wants to mark you, it wants to love you in many ways nobody can.
Oh the things I'm thinking, my heart is already thumping rather wildly at them. Covering your face in kisses that could take a lifetime, I could never grow tired of providing them. I want you, us, to be able to keep loving each other as we do now.
@kim seokjin I may not be the strongest, skilled at dancing, cooking and maybe not much of a looker to you but ...I'm glad that you chose to be with me despite that and my unintentional destructive ways.
I can't be the perfect dream guy you probably want but I can always try. I love you kitten.
@kim seokjin When you're down, you should know I'm always here although ...I would never let that happen. I'll prevent the sad days...even though it's normal. I'll kiss your tears away if you shed tears, I'll hold your clenched fists when your angry... I'll take a mental picture when you're smiling from happiness.
@kim seokjin I want us to be comfortable. Dorky even. Us laughing and smiling, joking around and mocking things that'll make each other snort. I'll just look at you with the same admiring expression I always have when I look at you. My eyes will follow the curve of your smile, the way your cheeks raise up from them with your lips I always can't help but press my own against. I'll just sigh in content.
@kim seokjin I'm already thinking far, even if I am this young I am old at heart. I want my hands to stay laced with yours through the hardships in life. The words we may exchange when things are a mess, know I never mean them. I may be an idiot and say the stupidest things but deep down inside my heart is screaming to stop. In the future know that if I ever become reckless that I'm a person, a lover, a man who in his heart doesn't know how to put things in proper sentences when it comes to speaking to you.
You've done dated a goof. But this goof knows how to make you swoon I bet. Let me grow old and share our stories of the past to our kids- Grandkids even. I want them to know how we've grown to love, grown to make mistakes and how we've held hands and got through them together.
I'll even take this to just moments before the scanner to my beating heart stops. I'll love you even to the afterlife.
It's the 21st of November and I just want to tell you that I'm still finding it hard to not spoil you with my love. Being with you is like being able to open my eyes for the first time; having a meaning to live, having reason to smile and to be kind to others. I want to give you more than just love and affection, I want to give you my existence forever and always. I want to be the person who you look forward to wake up to each morning, the person who races you to bed and cuddle in warmth..
I want to be the person to smile at you when you're focusing on work and paying no mind to me. Taking a step back and seeing how we are, we have a lot of wonderful kids...who love you and me and who look to us for tender love and affection. Our hugs are like home to them, our kisses are their comfort. Me as their father and you as their mother it just...makes me happy to have the thought of us just being one big family. Let us be old and watch our kids grow. Let us be the ones who help them up when they've fallen. Let us be together officially..
Kim Seokjin, I love you. And there's not a day that I'm not excited to see you, I just see nothing but you at times and I feel like holding you tight and escaping to our own little world. I'm spewing so many words because I'm getting ready to just ask you these very important words that can bring us together to a whole other level..
♡
