Personal Message
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@im jaebum i'm not very eloquent or concise with my words and i'm not a master at self expression but i hope this comes across well. you've asked me time and time again why i'm so charmed by you, why i'm so smitten by you and why i'm so persistent on staying by your side. well, i hope this is more than enough, for a while, i pray you'll be able to perceive yourself through my eyes. jae-kun, in reality, i'm a cautious person just as much as i'm enticed by the idea of leaping head first into trouble, rebelling, creating mischief and wreaking havoc. it may not seem that way, but i've drawn certain boundaries between myself and those who surround me, a sort of defense mechanism in me, cause i'm human too and i don't want to get hurt. i wasn't interested in love nor was i looking for it, but little did i know everything i was looking for had been beside me the whole time. you, waltzed into my life so spontaneously, without as much as a warning -- just like how we are.
i never imagined you'd have such a place in my life, such a place in my heart after our unorthodox meeting. there was something about the way you carried yourself, you were such a tempter, an enigma, even from the very beginning and there were so many things i wanted to decipher about you. my fascination towards your entire being blossomed into something far more intimate than something so fickle as curiosity the more we interacted. i could go on for hours really, about the countless things that made you the center of my world. i love how you hold me, your whispers of sweet nothings, sinful promises, brazen advances and unexpected confessions. you've been hurt before, i'm no rocket scientist but it's not something you can disguise and i can see it in your eyes. i've met a lot of people and i've gone through my own trials and tribulations, trust me. guess what though? that's what made me fall for you in the first place, everything about you that set you apart from the rest. you're perfect to me all your own, with all your jagged edges and flaws. i know words are just that, words, and that there's no other way to prove my affection for you by staying and loving, loving you so wholly without any inhibitions.
we started off like a spark, we're flickering brightly and i know you're worried -- that the spark is going to die out some day, but as the days pass by it'll only grow brighter. it must have been strange, for someone like me to come along when you've had past love interests slip through your fingers or leave altogether. it must still be strange, to have me seem so passionate about my love for you and that's okay. you can tell me you don't want to lose me and that you don't want me to leave, as many times as you want. i'll hear you, i'll listen to you, not because of any reason other than the fact i know it's because you love me as much as i do. you asked me if i'm sure i'm up to love you, asked me if i won't regret it and i won't, not now not ever. you call yourself boring, and put yourself down wondering why i'm so into you -- if you were boring why would i miss you even when your presence is lacking? why would i feel so impossibly empty i feel inside when i can't hear your voice or when i'm not in your arms? it's almost embarrassing really, admitting all this, but i can't deny it, because i do. i love you for you, all your charms, antics and sides.
i'll be with you today, i'll be with you tomorrow, and i'll be with you forever. i'm yours til the end of time, there's absolutely nothing that can tear me apart from you. i'm your angel and that i'll be til my last breath. i'll live on my promise of filling the void in your heart with the love you've been lacking, only because i'm committed to you heart, body and soul. i've been beating about the bush saying "i like you" and "suki" for quite some time but truly, there's nothing to be abashed about with me admitting it, to you or to anyone else--
"i love you im jaebum, i love you so goddamn much that you can't even fathom how badly i've got it for you. i love you, i love you, so much ai. i can't say it enough, to make you understand how much i mean it."