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Full Name: Jung Hoseok
Age: 21
Real Personality: friendly, easy to get along with
Background: Brought up from a conservative background, Hoseok enjoyed dancing since middle school but it was always just meant to be a past-time. Still, since he was a rebellious child, he had gone against his father’s wishes on a number of occasions and did it again to pursue his dream and join an agency. For him, it took two auditions for two agencies until cjamm entertainment finally accepted him in and made him a trainee. He mainly dances but if the group needs something else, he's willing to work on it (just like he did in rl with rapping) just so he can achieve his dream.
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You probably noticed but the "do not open" marking isn't there just because. DO NOT READ! I will find you and kill you-just like that meme guy. You have been warned...
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Journal Entries
August 17th
I was ruffling around for my old sneakers since I tore my old ones when I found this. No, it's not a diary. It's annoying when people call it that. It's my journal from high school. I thought I left it at home but here, I'm sitting, enjoying reading through my past. I had a long life heh. Of course, I still haven't gotten over her but with time, I will. But anyways, that's not what I wanted to say. Looking through my journal, I was shocked at how far I've come. Today, Cjamm pd-nim finally assigned me to my band group and I'm so excited! After some years- I finally have one! 4Kisses! Even the name sounds sweet! Well, my position's a bit weird tho ahem Sunshine, but that's not too bad. I have to try my best! I'm supposed to meet them soon~ I'm so excited! Oh wait, I said that already. Oh! My phone alarm rang! Gtg, trainees don't get to rest for too long after all~
August 19th
The weirdest thing happened to me today. Or wait, more like the weirdest person. After that notice, I changed my schedule maybe too fast. All the stress I had to do to be able to show Cjamm pd-nim that I'm worth the money and worth being in 4kisses caught up to me. To have to do so much, it scared me a lot. That day that kid walked in- but that part was normal. It was after that, that it got weird. I tried to brush off the fact I was crying and made some story about how I was listening for a ghost and get this. He believed it! And my friends said I was gullible! Yeahp, that's all that really happened. g'night, you can probably tell by my writing but I'm exhausted.
August 20th
It's been a day and I'm slowly starting to get used to my new schedule. Luckily, 4kisses isn't rap centered, so I don't think I need to go full out, yet. But me being me, I at least added more rap music to my dance playlists- just to get a sense of what I might be doing when my rapping lessons start. Also, I bumped into that weird guy again. His name's Taehyung from a band called YourKitty. A visual and vocal. Apparently, they're about to debut. I don't know about you but I've been here longer than he has, so all of that definitely, rubbed me the wrong way. I was about to disregard him as one of those handsome jerk idols who'd walk over anyone to get to their goal but he's actually, a lot more than I gave him credit for. (maybe it was the looks that threw me off, dammit Hoseok! What did Omma say to not judge books by their covers!) Anyways, we started talking and he, too hadn't been able to actually talk to his bandmates-well except his leader. We kinda bonded over that and I guess I made a new friend.
August 29th
It's been about a week since I wrote in here but not much's changed. I've met people other than Taehyung, but still haven't gotten to talk to the really important people in my future, yet: my bandmates. But it'll be okay. They're probably just busy and never read my kkt, yet- you know, idol stuff. I mean, a lot of idols are like that, right? I am, too but I'd still make time to get to know my colleagues, you know? Anyways, practice and homework are getting hectic. It's tiresome but if I push through, I'll get my dream to come true. Omma, I love you and I miss you...a lot. Okay, enough. I got lessons to attend.
September 8th
I'm starting to worry again. Is this a sign? How come I've still not seen my bandmates' faces? I mean, I've been here for over a month now and I still haven't see them in the dorm. What else could I guess it could be? What if our group never makes it to debut? What if Cjamm pd-nim kicks some of us out? My heart is beating super hard. The tears are dripping down this page. I'm sorry I couldn't save you, journal. I'm really sorry.
September 12th
I was right. 4Kisses has officially disbanded. The good news is that I'm still in the company-just moved around, but after 4kisses, I can't help but feel I lost a part of myself. I don't know but I guess it was a really strong experience, coming to the empty dorm and all. I'm not that "Sunshine image" that can always see the bright side. I just hope a lot. So much that it hurts and I know I shouldn't keep hoping but still I naively do. So in this case, all I hope for is one of them to talk to me. That's it.
September 20th
Guess what! I met them! Well...not literally, but hey. At least two of my group members answered my kkt. So that's definitely improvement from 4kisses. I don't know, maybe things could get better! At least, I was noticed you know? That's a step in the right direction. The leader asked me to meet up, so I'm just really excited to get to know one of my colleagues. Of course, I played it cool in the texts though (you know, the whole "dont't act too desperate" thing). Now I'm just waiting for his text to confirm the date and time. Aghhh! I'm so excited!
September 21st
It's been a whole day since my text and he still hasn't replied. I'm really not the type to ask people again. If he forgot, he forgot. If he had other priorities to take care of, then I guess I wasn't important enough to actually be remembered. Even if I am one of his bandmates...I don't know. My social life's been okay but I came here for a good team, not a social life. I have plenty of high school friends who could fit that category. On the upside, another bandmate had posted in kkt, but as much as I want to meet him, I can't scare him off. I'll just play it safe and hopefully, one of us can bring up the subject of actually meeting. Hopefully.
September 25th
The days pass by and I'm growing worried again. The other bandmate Taehyun (I think) and I haven't actually progressed on that meeting up thing and I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever meet any of my bandmates. It's scary to think what happened with 4kisses might happen again. And this time I might actually be removed altogether from the only agency who decided to take me in. I'm not handsome like Taehyung, a good rapper like my colleagues nor as talented as Hansol so it's really possible. Actually, now that I think of it, I have no clue why they even gave me a chance. All I have is dancing, so why...?
October 3rd
Reading through my entries again, I realized that all I've been writing is bad news so! You'll be happy to hear, today will be something better! Hip hip hooray! I mean, my workload has increased and now that I've been assigned to rap in an actual rap oriented band group (there's ing 4 rappers including me! That's half the line!), I've had an even more stressful schedule. But my social life is getting better-at least. I know I said I don't care about it as much but it's still nice to escape the stresses of life with friendships, especially, since you can't call home all the time. Obviously, I still want my work relationships to grow, but for this time, I'll be okay with it. Anyways, I fell in love with dancing all over again. It started when I bumped into Taehyung, aka that weird kid (yeah, I still think he's weird even if we're friends). I was stressed a whole lot about how to work the vocal studio that instead, I decided to take a mental break and heard music from the dance room. It was Taehyung. That's the first time I saw the kid in the dance studio. I guess we both made the same schedule but instead of practicing our strengths, we were practicing our weaknesses now. Anyways, as a dancer Hyung, I gave him pointers on how to improve and even showed him how to express emotion in dancing. Five minutes in, though, I couldn't think about anything lesson-related but the beats pulsing under my feet. It was literally like floating on air except for the squeaks from my worn shoes. But that didn't matter. I was in love. In love with all of the imperfections in that cold studio. I realized afterwards that yeah, dancing is my life. Even if I might not make it in this agency, I'll find out how to make it altogether. I'd prefer to make it here still, though...
October 11th
You might not know this about me, but I'm an avid follower of allkpop- their CJAMM Ent section at least. Even between practices, I'll scan the articles and have a good laugh at all the weird couple names the writers come up with (Young Kwang really likes guy pairings, too so that's interesting...). I even laughed at the article about me meeting Taehyung. It really wasn't that big of a deal, but they made it out to be one. (Still, don't get why they got my group name wrong, but looking back, it definitely foreshadowed who my band group would be). The fans' are so funny, too. It makes me that much more eager to debut, so I would have stuff written about me, too. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. This week's article affirmed my fears. Kcid's leader might already be dating someone let alone, my friend Taehyung. Hell, I don't even have spare time unless I force myself to the point of exhaustion! That means that this guy had time to look at his phone and didn't. That means that I could've easily met someone from my band but couldn't. That today, just put into perspective how meaningless I might be to the band. IF the leader doesn't, the group doesn't value me either.
October 13th
Today was an exhausting day like usual but the fact that my past realization might be true made it even harder. I could barely get up to go to my lessons and even when I did, I felt like I didn't retain anything at all, only continuing to worry myself about the possibility of a removal. In that time, my thoughts even grew darker to wondering if I should just quit altogether. Luckily, after lessons was dance practice so I used that time to let my stress go. Another article came in today, clarifying leader and Taehyung's relationship. Maybe it made me feel better to hear the leader wasn't dating anyone but it was still sad to think that he still talked to the kid despite all his own sadness. I know, it might've just been a right time right place thing and leader might've not been expecting it, but can you blame me? I've been ignored countless times from my own bandmates, any feeling of understanding's slowly disappearing. Still, I'm sorry Leader's dealing with a one sided love. I've had my share, too. Part of the reason I pushed myself earlier in 4kisses was because I had to forget about my girlfriend. Of course, my story's different from his but one sided love's can really hurt. Even now, I'm still hesitant to have another relationship because of her.
October 22nd
Something really shocking happened today. CEO Cjamm, the one who's in charge of Cjamm Ent and the one who gave me a chance, left the company. Rumour has it he's been dealt with some hard personal stuff but I don't know the details. Like any company, though, just because the CEO leaves, doesn't mean the company shuts down. (That's only in bankruptcy...I think..?) so now we have a new CEO and manager. I'm on edge though. What If the new boss changes things? I mean, it was cjamm who saw something in me. The new boss could easily not and make it that much easier to let me go. Damn...sometimes I just wish I was born handsome so I could meet the basic criteria...
October 29th
Guess what! The new pd nim spared me! Not only that but I'm now 6with9's visual and wow~ noona attracter, too. Gotta work on my flirting now. Do I wink then grin or should I grin then wink? Not sure but I'll get the hang of it. It sure beats rapping. Man, was that hard...but I wonder who got my rapping part in kcid... oh! And another thing I forgot to mention what band I'm moving to (sorry, I'm so exhausted that it's kinda hard to concentrate). The name's 6with9 but I can't help thinking it's supposed to be 69 heh. Sorry, I guess I do have a ed mind. But can you blame me? 6 with 9? 69? But yeah! That'll be fun or should I say "fun"~
October 31st
Happy Halloween journal! Yep! Halloween was a great day~ and for more reasons than just a day to get free candy and dress up. Actually, it was a great day cause guess? Dun worry, I'll wait~ du du du du du du du~ you got it? Or should I sing more? Er I guess it's write more but you get the idea keke. I met my bandmates! in person! Well, two of them but Yep! I physically gotta touch em. Sadly, jisung-sshi had to go to lessons so I couldn't get his position in our group but I think it's fine~ I'm still sooo happy I got to meet my bandmates : D I learned more about youngjae-sshi at least. Apparently he's a vocal hyung. I can't wait to learn even more about them! Sometimes I wonder if I gave the right first impression. I don't know. My palms were sweaty and youngjae Hyung backed away when I was touching them. I'm worried but I hope everything's okay @_@
November 16th
It's been so long since I wrote a journal but the reason I haven't may surprise you. Or it may not...welp, things haven't changed. I didn't get to meet any of my other bandmates and unfortunately, I couldn't go eat lunch with jisung-sshi or youngjae hyung. I get it. My active timings and theirs are different and I guess that's the same with the other members but I just hope and pray things'll get better. Please God. Please let this not be another disappointment....
November 22nd
Something weird happened today. I don't get why but the PD nim texted me during practice. You wouldn't believe how nervous I was tho. I mean, he's the ing guy who controls if I live or die in this company! (Or one of them, I still don't know how it works...) Course I'd be nervous! In the end, he was pretty cool. I thanked him for putting me as a visual though I'm still not confident in that position myself and he complimented my picture I used of a filter of myself for the check. I guess he's a good guy but heh... I guess it's still engraved in me to worry when the PD nim decides to contact a trainee like me. Heh it just doesn't seem straightforward...there's gotta be something else... But anyways, the same day when I was lazying around (I finished everything early since it's thanksgiving break), I got another text from him and guess what? I got a gig! Yusss! You heard right, journal! I'm not gonna disappear like those other trainees! I'll survive here! The only thing is it's a photoshoot, not dancing. That means somehow I gotta look like some boy I guess but without doing nothing but posing. Aghhh! I'm nervous and excited! Junhong-sshi's supposed to be a famous photographer, too! But that's all gonna happen later. Sadly, with all my friends and bandmates gone for thanksgiving, tomorrow will be another thanksgiving by myself....ah, it's okay Hoseok. A lot of good things are already happening to you. But I can't help but miss everyone. Maybe I should've gone home and risked the homesickness... The path to success seems to be covered with sacrifices. I don't know if I'm ready to lose those people dear to me, though...
November 23rd
Thanksgiving was okay. I decided to make something more special than the food I normally eat (which is mostly just cereal, ramen, and fruits and veggies). Of course, sticking to my diet was important so I made a healthy meal. I was trying to make kimchi and beef but it came out bad; I almost threw up by the smell so I threw it in the trash and decided to just eat ramen again. Maybe when I go home, I'll ask my mom how she cooks so I'll be more prepared. Other than that, today was not that eventful. Before I started dinner, I got bored halfway through the day and decided to stroll out of those cramped quarters. Not a lot of people were outside so I just tried to appreciate the nature. It's been so long since I've done that. Ah, I miss everyone.... But it's okay, Hoseok. They're still in my heart...
December 15
Sorry journal! I got so busy, met a lot of people then got even more busier because guess what....Evaluations...yeah...Not fun but! It's finished and somehow I passed them (that or they're not as strict as I thought they were. Makes sense since why else could I get into here, you know?) But another....guess what? I finally had the nerve to text Youngjae Hyung if we could practice and maybe even eat lunch together. Ahh! I'm so excited and happy~ I can't wait to really be a team with him! I consider him my friend, too~ The downside is Taehyung still hasn't responded to my text hoping he's okay. I hope he's fine or at least, not purposely ignoring me... (Did I lose a friend and gain someone else? What kind of irony... ) I don't get it...they both are important to me, so all I hope is the kid isn't avoiding me or anything like that. Well, if he leaves, at least I saw it coming. But that's just my doubts; I know the guy's pretty busy with finals and probably even could be going home for winter break, so I'll give him the benefit of the doubt until this month's done...Now it's Christmas shopping time!!! \@_@/
It's been about a week since I wrote in here but not much's changed. I've met people other than Taehyung, but still haven't gotten to talk to the really important people in my future, yet: my bandmates. But it'll be okay. They're probably just busy and never read my kkt, yet- you know, idol stuff. I mean, a lot of idols are like that, right? I am, too but I'd still make time to get to know my colleagues, you know? Anyways, practice and homework are getting hectic. It's tiresome but if I push through, I'll get my dream to come true. Omma, I love you and I miss you...a lot. Okay, enough. I got lessons to attend.
September 8th
I'm starting to worry again. Is this a sign? How come I've still not seen my bandmates' faces? I mean, I've been here for over a month now and I still haven't see them in the dorm. What else could I guess it could be? What if our group never makes it to debut? What if Cjamm pd-nim kicks some of us out? My heart is beating super hard. The tears are dripping down this page. I'm sorry I couldn't save you, journal. I'm really sorry.
September 12th
I was right. 4Kisses has officially disbanded. The good news is that I'm still in the company-just moved around, but after 4kisses, I can't help but feel I lost a part of myself. I don't know but I guess it was a really strong experience, coming to the empty dorm and all. I'm not that "Sunshine image" that can always see the bright side. I just hope a lot. So much that it hurts and I know I shouldn't keep hoping but still I naively do. So in this case, all I hope for is one of them to talk to me. That's it.
September 20th
Guess what! I met them! Well...not literally, but hey. At least two of my group members answered my kkt. So that's definitely improvement from 4kisses. I don't know, maybe things could get better! At least, I was noticed you know? That's a step in the right direction. The leader asked me to meet up, so I'm just really excited to get to know one of my colleagues. Of course, I played it cool in the texts though (you know, the whole "dont't act too desperate" thing). Now I'm just waiting for his text to confirm the date and time. Aghhh! I'm so excited!
September 21st
It's been a whole day since my text and he still hasn't replied. I'm really not the type to ask people again. If he forgot, he forgot. If he had other priorities to take care of, then I guess I wasn't important enough to actually be remembered. Even if I am one of his bandmates...I don't know. My social life's been okay but I came here for a good team, not a social life. I have plenty of high school friends who could fit that category. On the upside, another bandmate had posted in kkt, but as much as I want to meet him, I can't scare him off. I'll just play it safe and hopefully, one of us can bring up the subject of actually meeting. Hopefully.
September 25th
The days pass by and I'm growing worried again. The other bandmate Taehyun (I think) and I haven't actually progressed on that meeting up thing and I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever meet any of my bandmates. It's scary to think what happened with 4kisses might happen again. And this time I might actually be removed altogether from the only agency who decided to take me in. I'm not handsome like Taehyung, a good rapper like my colleagues nor as talented as Hansol so it's really possible. Actually, now that I think of it, I have no clue why they even gave me a chance. All I have is dancing, so why...?
October 3rd
Reading through my entries again, I realized that all I've been writing is bad news so! You'll be happy to hear, today will be something better! Hip hip hooray! I mean, my workload has increased and now that I've been assigned to rap in an actual rap oriented band group (there's ing 4 rappers including me! That's half the line!), I've had an even more stressful schedule. But my social life is getting better-at least. I know I said I don't care about it as much but it's still nice to escape the stresses of life with friendships, especially, since you can't call home all the time. Obviously, I still want my work relationships to grow, but for this time, I'll be okay with it. Anyways, I fell in love with dancing all over again. It started when I bumped into Taehyung, aka that weird kid (yeah, I still think he's weird even if we're friends). I was stressed a whole lot about how to work the vocal studio that instead, I decided to take a mental break and heard music from the dance room. It was Taehyung. That's the first time I saw the kid in the dance studio. I guess we both made the same schedule but instead of practicing our strengths, we were practicing our weaknesses now. Anyways, as a dancer Hyung, I gave him pointers on how to improve and even showed him how to express emotion in dancing. Five minutes in, though, I couldn't think about anything lesson-related but the beats pulsing under my feet. It was literally like floating on air except for the squeaks from my worn shoes. But that didn't matter. I was in love. In love with all of the imperfections in that cold studio. I realized afterwards that yeah, dancing is my life. Even if I might not make it in this agency, I'll find out how to make it altogether. I'd prefer to make it here still, though...
October 11th
You might not know this about me, but I'm an avid follower of allkpop- their CJAMM Ent section at least. Even between practices, I'll scan the articles and have a good laugh at all the weird couple names the writers come up with (Young Kwang really likes guy pairings, too so that's interesting...). I even laughed at the article about me meeting Taehyung. It really wasn't that big of a deal, but they made it out to be one. (Still, don't get why they got my group name wrong, but looking back, it definitely foreshadowed who my band group would be). The fans' are so funny, too. It makes me that much more eager to debut, so I would have stuff written about me, too. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. This week's article affirmed my fears. Kcid's leader might already be dating someone let alone, my friend Taehyung. Hell, I don't even have spare time unless I force myself to the point of exhaustion! That means that this guy had time to look at his phone and didn't. That means that I could've easily met someone from my band but couldn't. That today, just put into perspective how meaningless I might be to the band. IF the leader doesn't, the group doesn't value me either.
October 13th
Today was an exhausting day like usual but the fact that my past realization might be true made it even harder. I could barely get up to go to my lessons and even when I did, I felt like I didn't retain anything at all, only continuing to worry myself about the possibility of a removal. In that time, my thoughts even grew darker to wondering if I should just quit altogether. Luckily, after lessons was dance practice so I used that time to let my stress go. Another article came in today, clarifying leader and Taehyung's relationship. Maybe it made me feel better to hear the leader wasn't dating anyone but it was still sad to think that he still talked to the kid despite all his own sadness. I know, it might've just been a right time right place thing and leader might've not been expecting it, but can you blame me? I've been ignored countless times from my own bandmates, any feeling of understanding's slowly disappearing. Still, I'm sorry Leader's dealing with a one sided love. I've had my share, too. Part of the reason I pushed myself earlier in 4kisses was because I had to forget about my girlfriend. Of course, my story's different from his but one sided love's can really hurt. Even now, I'm still hesitant to have another relationship because of her.
October 22nd
Something really shocking happened today. CEO Cjamm, the one who's in charge of Cjamm Ent and the one who gave me a chance, left the company. Rumour has it he's been dealt with some hard personal stuff but I don't know the details. Like any company, though, just because the CEO leaves, doesn't mean the company shuts down. (That's only in bankruptcy...I think..?) so now we have a new CEO and manager. I'm on edge though. What If the new boss changes things? I mean, it was cjamm who saw something in me. The new boss could easily not and make it that much easier to let me go. Damn...sometimes I just wish I was born handsome so I could meet the basic criteria...
October 29th
Guess what! The new pd nim spared me! Not only that but I'm now 6with9's visual and wow~ noona attracter, too. Gotta work on my flirting now. Do I wink then grin or should I grin then wink? Not sure but I'll get the hang of it. It sure beats rapping. Man, was that hard...but I wonder who got my rapping part in kcid... oh! And another thing I forgot to mention what band I'm moving to (sorry, I'm so exhausted that it's kinda hard to concentrate). The name's 6with9 but I can't help thinking it's supposed to be 69 heh. Sorry, I guess I do have a ed mind. But can you blame me? 6 with 9? 69? But yeah! That'll be fun or should I say "fun"~
October 31st
Happy Halloween journal! Yep! Halloween was a great day~ and for more reasons than just a day to get free candy and dress up. Actually, it was a great day cause guess? Dun worry, I'll wait~ du du du du du du du~ you got it? Or should I sing more? Er I guess it's write more but you get the idea keke. I met my bandmates! in person! Well, two of them but Yep! I physically gotta touch em. Sadly, jisung-sshi had to go to lessons so I couldn't get his position in our group but I think it's fine~ I'm still sooo happy I got to meet my bandmates : D I learned more about youngjae-sshi at least. Apparently he's a vocal hyung. I can't wait to learn even more about them! Sometimes I wonder if I gave the right first impression. I don't know. My palms were sweaty and youngjae Hyung backed away when I was touching them. I'm worried but I hope everything's okay @_@
November 16th
It's been so long since I wrote a journal but the reason I haven't may surprise you. Or it may not...welp, things haven't changed. I didn't get to meet any of my other bandmates and unfortunately, I couldn't go eat lunch with jisung-sshi or youngjae hyung. I get it. My active timings and theirs are different and I guess that's the same with the other members but I just hope and pray things'll get better. Please God. Please let this not be another disappointment....
November 22nd
Something weird happened today. I don't get why but the PD nim texted me during practice. You wouldn't believe how nervous I was tho. I mean, he's the ing guy who controls if I live or die in this company! (Or one of them, I still don't know how it works...) Course I'd be nervous! In the end, he was pretty cool. I thanked him for putting me as a visual though I'm still not confident in that position myself and he complimented my picture I used of a filter of myself for the check. I guess he's a good guy but heh... I guess it's still engraved in me to worry when the PD nim decides to contact a trainee like me. Heh it just doesn't seem straightforward...there's gotta be something else... But anyways, the same day when I was lazying around (I finished everything early since it's thanksgiving break), I got another text from him and guess what? I got a gig! Yusss! You heard right, journal! I'm not gonna disappear like those other trainees! I'll survive here! The only thing is it's a photoshoot, not dancing. That means somehow I gotta look like some boy I guess but without doing nothing but posing. Aghhh! I'm nervous and excited! Junhong-sshi's supposed to be a famous photographer, too! But that's all gonna happen later. Sadly, with all my friends and bandmates gone for thanksgiving, tomorrow will be another thanksgiving by myself....ah, it's okay Hoseok. A lot of good things are already happening to you. But I can't help but miss everyone. Maybe I should've gone home and risked the homesickness... The path to success seems to be covered with sacrifices. I don't know if I'm ready to lose those people dear to me, though...
November 23rd
Thanksgiving was okay. I decided to make something more special than the food I normally eat (which is mostly just cereal, ramen, and fruits and veggies). Of course, sticking to my diet was important so I made a healthy meal. I was trying to make kimchi and beef but it came out bad; I almost threw up by the smell so I threw it in the trash and decided to just eat ramen again. Maybe when I go home, I'll ask my mom how she cooks so I'll be more prepared. Other than that, today was not that eventful. Before I started dinner, I got bored halfway through the day and decided to stroll out of those cramped quarters. Not a lot of people were outside so I just tried to appreciate the nature. It's been so long since I've done that. Ah, I miss everyone.... But it's okay, Hoseok. They're still in my heart...
December 15
Sorry journal! I got so busy, met a lot of people then got even more busier because guess what....Evaluations...yeah...Not fun but! It's finished and somehow I passed them (that or they're not as strict as I thought they were. Makes sense since why else could I get into here, you know?) But another....guess what? I finally had the nerve to text Youngjae Hyung if we could practice and maybe even eat lunch together. Ahh! I'm so excited and happy~ I can't wait to really be a team with him! I consider him my friend, too~ The downside is Taehyung still hasn't responded to my text hoping he's okay. I hope he's fine or at least, not purposely ignoring me... (Did I lose a friend and gain someone else? What kind of irony... ) I don't get it...they both are important to me, so all I hope is the kid isn't avoiding me or anything like that. Well, if he leaves, at least I saw it coming. But that's just my doubts; I know the guy's pretty busy with finals and probably even could be going home for winter break, so I'll give him the benefit of the doubt until this month's done...Now it's Christmas shopping time!!! \@_@/
Jung Hoseok
Gwangju Dancer
Contact info:
CJAMM Ent.
Mood:
want friends
Single,
Focused on career
Hoseok
