as a child, seo soojin always had the most creative imagination. it started the moment she picked up her pencil and started drawing things that had eccentric designs that a mere five year old can create. it was evident that she was built to enhance her power in arts. of course, the creative mind often mistakes some visions for the reality. inside the cells of her reverie, she was the princess of the household. to be complimented for her round cheeks, her cute smile, her plump lips, and her timid persona that made her appear as delicate as a gem, soojin dreamed to own the spotlight on stage where everyone truly adored her and made her feel loved. however, life was far too cruel to satisfy her imagination.

in reality, princesses weren't supposed to be neglected by their parents. they weren't caged in large mansions, left alone in playrooms and was only tended to by the caretakers when necessary. the girl never knew what exactly is love. how do you love and how does it feel to be loved? is it love when you're given money to spend in replacement of their absence? if that's the case, then her parents' love must be reaching beyond the heavens. soojin's parents were never home. there wasn't a time where they sat together in a dinner table, having a decent conversation to catch up on each other. the only times when the three of them were together were during gala nights with her father's associates, possibly to make it seem like they were a functional family living in contentment, basking into the fame, power, and wealth that many people could only wish to have.

she made multiple attempts to at least catch her parents attention. the first trials were pointless. she signed up for dance classes, excelling to be the center in every choreography, hoping that her parents would find time to at least attend one of her recitals where she shone the most. they never did, not even a text of an apology or a statement saying that they were proud for owning the stage. she was slowly growing desperate. soojin spent every single dollar that her parents would give as the house's budget, allotted for the expenses, for the salary of the staffs, and for her. she wasted an entire month's finance buying clothes, shoes, bags, and all things that she didn't even want. she didn't care if she was going to be scolded and grounded for an entire year. she just wanted to be noticed. just like her previous attempts, her efforts still drowned into negligence and that time, her parents just wired another month's budget in advance.

soojin felt agitated. when she got into trouble with another girl in her class during high school, neither her mother or her father came to the meeting. instead, they paid the girl's family to shut up about the spiteful act that was brought upon by their daughter, hoping that it was enough to prevent the family's name to be dragged into the bad light. the lass was fed up. she grew reckless, surrounded herself with bad peers, spent money on things that she clearly didn't need. she exposed herself to vices, alcohol, , and such, and still, her parents never showed a sign of concern when she was out there ruining her life to the fullest.

she became nothing but an empty vase, surface lined with delicate cracks, as if it was threatening to finally shatter into pieces. even with all the guys that warmed her bed, the drunken strangers that she'd kiss under the throbbing lights, the people whom she manipulated, she barely survived the waves of isolation that would constantly drown her, flooding her lungs until she could no longer breathe. the girl realized how pathetic she must've been, going far and wide to reach for the people whom she thought would hold her hand before she trips over the edge of complete self-destruction, but no one ever pulled her back. she dove further into insanity, still falling deeper as she let herself crumble into the adversary that she let herself become.

it was when everything was falling into place that she finally realized the reason of her family's negligence. her father was a possible inheritor of the top position in the seo's corporate group. his marriage with her mother was only for the sake of their business. funny how she complained about not feeling loved when she herself wasn't birthed out of passion in the first place. to her parents, she was useless, and seeing her only reminded them of their irremediable mistake. being part of a group that concerned technology and computer sciences, the seo's never wanted a princess in the household. soojin also didn't have supreme intelligence, so what was her purpose when she was a woman who relied on her creativity to be praised?

she thought it wouldn't bother her anymore if she just fully accepted that she was a failure the moment she discovered to be a girl. however, on one peculiar day, her father had taken her to an urgent meeting. the following events came by far too confusing. first, she finally had a decent encounter with her father for the first time in her entire life. second, she discovered that their company was going bankrupt. third, she's...engaged?

soojin remembered the feeling of her nails tracing convexes on her palms, hiding the way her knuckles turned white as she stared at the two businessmen settle their agreement, without even consulting her side, nor the boy who came in as clueless as she was. the lass was a master of her own games and alteration of outcomes, but to be played by her father, whom she thought was finally appreciating her presence, it was a defeat that made all her previous victories futile.

she made no argument that day, even when her tongue bathe in bitterness, wanting to burst out before they sealed the deal. she considered her family her greatest foe, but she truly hated the fact that she was a pushover when it comes to them. indeed, soojin may have lived her life carelessly, thinking that she was of no use to the company, but at the end of the day, she learned that she wasn't fully free. she was still leashed into a loose collar and she can be yanked back whenever they desire.

now, she attends the heart of gale academe, majoring in fine arts, fully funded by her fiance's family. even after that day, she went back to her bull. so what if she was tied to an undoubtedly handsome lad, whom she probably wouldn't ever learn to love? only in the eyes of the important audience did she act decent. off stage, she was an actress ripping off her pretty costume that made her feel nothing but a hypocrite. soojin accepted the fact the she was never a princess with a dazzling tiara on top. after all, she figured that she looked better with the devil's horns anyway.

if you're looking for someone who could be your friend in your y/n life, seo soojin is definitely not for you. you would rarely see her be expressive whenever she's in a public place. she upholds a cold demeanor that makes her unapproachable, especially because she doesn't want anyone initiating a conversation unless they spark her interest. she hates being reprimanded and being told what to do. if anything, she fancies it more if people follow her orders or make them her own pets. she still spends her money on things that satisfy her materialistic satisfaction even with the state of their business. she does not like the idea of commitment and would fool around with just about anyone. she can be an all bark and no bite type of person that's why she often speaks with sarcasm and has the tendency to compulsively lie, enough to mask her weakness.