i know i don't say i love you enough but i love you.

and the only reason i don't say it so much is because well, like i told you saying it is embarrassing. not in anyway that i am embarrassed of you but in a way that when i say it i'm just filled with so much emotional and it makes me flustered to feel so much for you.  because i did not see for us to come this far and seeing it for myself surprises me, there are days where i'm scared to show affection and so i try to hold back or just show a little bit of it. not that this is all new to me but the way that /you/ make me feel is very new. but after our little misunderstanding i learned how important it is to show you that i love you and how much i am thankful to just have you with me right now. 

i may be a brat and hard-headed and maybe just a bit too much at times but you deal with and take everything i give to you, nothing is more attractive than that. i genuinely love you and care for you, i don't take anything you've done for me for granted because i don't think i could have found anyone better even if there was someone who was better (which i'm pretty sure there's not) i would still want only you. just you.

So, it doesn't matter to me if we're together officialy or not. because i have you right now and i'll always be yours, everyone knows i'm crazy for you and how you much you affect me. i don't need to be called anything different because i'm already yours and that's all that matters. and i'll always be yours, just for you kim jongin. my wonderful, amazing, caring, sweet, and, loving man. who i would never ever trade for anyone else.

i love you ♥