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yes it's really over now, you're so good at letting me down。
sam comes from quite the close knit family, and to him, being the baby of the family had become quite the strain. while he considered his family members his closest of friends, he found himself struggling raised beneath helicopter parents whilst being influenced by two older brothers.
sam was a good guy in high school, a good kid, but was also simultaneously in love. happy-- the happiest he'd ever been. the five year relationship had begun the first year of highschool and bled into his first year of university, but also was cut short within that year.
it all felt perfect to him, a perfect relationship with no issues, but maybe he read everything wrong. maybe he didn't read between the lines. maybe everything was... wrong. made believe to shield himself for the pain awaiting him. his girlfriend's body was found bled out in a bathtub, his name carved within the flesh he used to caress.
he blames himself for it completely, regardless of his family telling him different. perhaps it was the unanswered questions that never allowed the wounds to heal, or perhaps it was the lack of support from the brother he'd looked up to the most.
samuel is known as quite the player around campus, and although there is quite the handful of them in surrounding areas, he'd always seemed to stand out.
although he'd never admit it, he was completely scarred, terrified of the idea of allowing someone in. even if it meant building a wall between him and his family. trembling hands are normally gripping a half filled bottle of alcohol, or a thin cigarette. he'd rather slowly kill himself than face his reality.
there's no part of him that's loyal, but even though it seems he doesn't care, perhaps he does too much. he cares, he feels, he hurts.
but he hides.
暗アク河千メケ入使仏一ス長続ノ青同ぞ外覧交一易オ済25緑ーで指田ごずいぜ構越どきず長語ほつクび共浦ろ。能サラハ得祭びれーぶ採7城ょず部菓づょ冬夫球るり瀬文割ムソタヘ患給リ推新ちッぞ人悲で。科セミ予連びトラい並交っほ部強ヨメソ切釈ト曜唯ラニユ横演訪ずき組著ひイ対伝ソセオハ新条るど個重株きへゆ第山ホエツセ談実イ洗り。
移ミナオロ去抽イ。航開ラカノ行報3無ぎとこル真徒たぞそ入学ど和人イ内割び速打を索一州セヱヨ設伐唄ぞ。転ム支回ヤイ食露フほ減試ちえゆ広真モサ複指もげの氏佐ては公長ヱヲロネ写断セホヤサ自維芸政新テニ監行ヲレムネ塾問でよと始打のひ。 震応和タチ広証マ意触著ごーへけ第者目算る主感域んル勲表ウヘ病就サヤスナ線門優冷。
COOKING, SNUGGLING, PUPPIES (PIT BULL PUPPIES IN PARTICULAR), THE EARTH, MUSIC, PARTYING, DRINKING, SMOKING, RUNNING AWAY, BASEBALL.
PAIN, HURTING, ABANDONMENT, COFFEE, SODA, HURTING PEOPLE, GETTING TOO CLOSE, EXERCISING, STUDYING.
PARTYING, SLEEPING AROUND, READING, COLLECTING VINYLS, GROWING PLANTS, PLAYING WITH HIS DOG, VOLUNTEERING
SPOTS THAT CLIMB UP HIS RIGHT ARM AND TICKLE HIS SHOULDERS AND UP THE LEFT SIDE OF HIS NECK, SHARPENED CANINES, ONE TEAR DROPPED SHAPED EAR (LEFT) (RIGHT EAR IS HUMAN SHAPED)
IF YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES WITH ME, PLEASE DO LET ME KNOW IN PMS AND DON'T ACT PASSIVE TOWARDS ME. I WILL TREAT YOU HOW YOU TREAT ME, AND IT WILL BE BROUGHT TO THE ADMINS.
PLEASE PM ME TO PLOT & DO NOT POST ON MY WALL. I KNOW IT'S CLICHE, BUT I ENJOY MY CLEAN SURFACE. ALSO PLEASE READ ABOUT SAM & BE READY TO BRAINSTORM WITH ME IF YOU'RE INTERESTED. IF YOU PULL "I'M OKAY WITH ANYTHING!" AND DON'T CONTRIBUTE AT ALL, I PROBABLY WON'T RESPOND.
I AM LOCATED ON THE EAST COAST SO I'M GMT - 5. I PREFER PLOTTING OVER WINGING. PARA TO NOVELLA, SOMETIMES I MIGHT MIRROR AND OTHERS NOT SO MUCH, IT DEPENDS ON HOW I'M FELING.