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#1 | a little tangled | 19112019 -

Bated breathes filled the room, among other noises that made up their spontaneous love making session. Skin on skin, the rustle of sheets and slight creaking of the bed frame helped make up the orchestra that played the melody of their ministrations. Pinned on his back, the older between his thighs, Wooyoung knew it was entirely his doing that the two of them were in this position, their once neatly made bed now a mess of strewn pillows and most of the blankets had bunched at the end of the bed; their under sheet all that remained as a cover, if it could even be called that.
Limbs were tangled among the cotton material, Mingyu's breathes airy and light as he snapped his hips firmly into the younger's eager frame beneath him, his boyfriend a dishevelled mess against the pale fitted sheet. The bliss of their was reaching its peak, Wooyoung's cries and moans getting more and more wanton, the pitch creeping up in octave and it wasn't long before Mingyu's name started to falls from the younger's plush lips, feeling as his kept growing closer, almost at his peak before startling as the older rolled to tug Wooyoung atop. He couldn't help but flounder a little, the sheets that already tangled the two together somehow growing even worse at the supposedly simple maneuver.
Their pace broken, Wooyoung tried to resettle his hips and knees, hands fumbling to try and tug the sheet loose from under the older's body, brown eyes blinking and narrowing in on Mingyu when the older started to chuckle with amusement. It wasn't much of a punishment, and even then Wooyoung was more sure it was more pleasing, but still the younger purposely clenched his walls around Mingyu's buried length, eliciting a moan from the older; husky and light, the sound going straight to Wooyoung's own leaking standing proud unaided betwen their bodies.
"You think this is funny!? I was about to , you ." The remark only brought more laughter from the older, Wooyoung's cheeks breaking into a scarlet hue as he blushed, meeting the darker gaze of his boyfriend.
"I know," came the reply, Wooyoung close throwing another insult at him before falling silent under the press of lips as Mingyu sat up, drawing the younger closer and caressing his sides gently, neatly lifting his hips up enough to pull the offending sheet out from underneath before shifting them both so that Mingyu could lean among the pillows with the younger sat a top him.
"Now try babe."
"You're still an ." Wooyoung muttered, sliding hands along the toned form of his boyfriend before resettling in their position and beginning to build up a pace for bouncing on his lover; entirely aware that Mingyu was making him start all over again to make him work for his .
Knew, and loved it.

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#2 | chocolate chips and flour | 20112019 -

Wooyoung had wanted it to be a surprise; had planned it all out in his mind how the day would go, but he didn't plan on taking a nap that had set him back a few hours and now instead of already having perfectly baked cookies on a plate cooling down before Mingyu got home, the young idol had all the ingredients strewn out on the countertop and a mixing bowl before him. He also had a boyfriend at his back, arms wrapped around him with his hands getting dangerously lower with every passing moment that Wooyoung was trying to mix up the dough. Delicate fingertips played with the waistband of his sweat pants, Wooyoung trying his best not to squirm while the older slipped those sinful fingers lower and lower, grazing the patch of hair growing before going even lower to tease over his .
"You're hard already," the older pressed his lips behind Wooyoung's ear, the younger feeling the soft brush of lips on his skin that brought a shiver down his spine, Mingyu using that bedroom voice Wooyoung both loved and hated with a passion. "Why are you so hard?"
Wooyoung couldn't help but choke out a little laugh in disbelief, his hips rocking against the fingers that wrap around his length, the insult that was about to be slung nothing more than a moan as Mingyu purposely , the younger taking a moment to try and compose himself enough to remember words. "Gee, I wonder why? Couldn't at all be because of the man pressed against me with his obvious against my and a hand down my pants."
The older merely hummed out, as if innocent in this while calmly stroking Wooyoung's shaft, the pad of his thumb caressing over the leaking crown to smear the building precum all over while his own hips moved to grind against the younger's covered rear.
"Mingyu-" Wooyoung whined out, the hand around him giving a squeeze that silenced anymore words, the older of the two guiding Wooyoung closer to the counter, the baking entirely forgotten while the younger found himself bent over the floury counter, the scent of sugar and chocolate chips filling his nose as the older chose to fill him.
"Do you think you could make muffins soon?" Mingyu asked later, after they had finished their little session in the kitchen, both of them curled up on the couch while they ate the cookies that came out rather well despite the delay, Wooyoung blinking a little as he glanced at his boyfriend, reaching up to brush a few stray crumbs off the soft lips before kissing Mingyu lightly.
"Only if you help me."
"You know I will."

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#3 | study period | 30112019 -

"This is boring," Wooyoung whined, his boyfriend lifting his gaze from the book on the table to bring eyes on the younger, noting how his eyes were bright but clearly bored, Wooyoung's cheeks looking more chubby while he had his hands cupping them. Mingyu sighed quietly, turning the page on his book to look over the content revealed, rather purposely ignoring Wooyoung who grew more unsettled with every passing moment. "Min~gyu!"
Another sigh, Mingyu really trying to ignore the younger but when small hands covered the pages he finally turned his attention fully to Wooyoung. "This is why you're in the bottom of your class." Mingyu remarked quietly, the library quiet and empty but for the two of them and a member of staff manning the reception desk. "You asked me for help to cram, but you won't focus on the segments I gave you to practice. What do you want?" He almost regretted asking the moment the words fell from his lips, watching the way his boyfriend's face coyly lit up. The older jolted a little, knee hitting the underside of the desk when a hand squeezed his thigh suddenly, Mingyu hissing out quietly and glaring at Wooyoung who only smiled more. "Wooyoung!"
"I want this." Wooyoung merely remarked, his hand inching up to palm over the young man who squirmed about. The younger took great pleasure in watching Mingyu looking around, watching how the older seemed to assess things swiftly before feeling a hand on his wrist as Wooyoung was dragged out of his seat and around to a series of book shelves that seemed rather secluded. "Hyung," the younger couldn't help but breath out as he found his pants being yanked down, Mingyu pressing against him and giving a small grind. "Mingyu, please?"
"Please, what?" Mingyu asked, his awakened free of his pants and a coming out the pocket, the older tearing into the packet and rolling it on, the well lubed latex brushing against Wooyoung's waiting entrance. When Wooyoung didn't answer, Mingyu pulled back for a moment, a small smirk on his lips when the younger protested it. "What do you want, baby boy?" He tired again, seeing the way Wooyoung swallowed visibly at the endearing name, the older knowing how it affected the boy.
" me, daddy."
Wooyoung cried out when his boyfriend pushed into him without warning or stretching, Mingyu having to wrap his pianist fingers over the younger's mouth to stifle anymore loud noises, not wanting them to be caught but the idea of it spurring him a little as his hips slowly began to into Wooyoung's tight body. It was hard to make the younger stay quiet, especially with Mingyu purposely ing against his prostate, fingers of his free hand easing to come clasp around the younger's throat periodically which made Wooyoung's head swim with endless euphoria. Their pace building, Mingyu  knowing how to work his younger lover after nearly a year with him, Wooyoung sounding a choked sob when he spilled against the brick walls before him, his thighs a trembling mess that made him want to collapse as the older kept seeking a released. It wasn't much longer before Mingyu filled the with his release, the older panting out quietly as he ground his high out gently, remaining inside the younger for a few minutes longer before drawing out and helping to clean up best they could; Wooyoung's jacket acting as a mop and Mingyu didn't hesitate to cram it into the school bag the moment he could, pushing Wooyoung's work back toward him as they sat down.
"Now, finish this and we can go home for round two."

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#4 | corrective lenses | 16012020 -

"You wear glasses!?" Wooyoung had to stare a little at his boyfriend, blinking slowly from the other side of his corrective lenses before slowly dipping his head into a nod as answer. "Since when?"
"Since always," the younger responded, rubbing at his slightly swollen face with a little groan. Why had they eaten ramen so late? He knew it was going to haunt him but still, the moment Mingyu had said he wanted to eat, Wooyoung had just gone ahead and said yes.
"I've never seen you wear them before."
"Well, yeah. Because you've never stayed the night before. And you always give me enough time before we go out to put contacts in my eyes,"
Wooyoung explained calmly, rolling onto his side to look at the older male calmly. "When I brushed my teeth last night, I took them out so I could sleep." It was a little bemusing, to see how the older reacted to such a simple discovery.
"But what about when we had , were you blind? How many fingers am I holding up? Wait, you have your glasses on, take them off then tell me how many." The younger was patient as he pushed his boyfriend's hand down, stifling a laugh that threatened before gazing at the older playfully.
"Oh? Was I blind, in a completely dark room where I couldn't see a hand before my face even if I tried? Oh, no I had no problem seeing without the contacts in." He couldn't stop himself from snorting out, propping up on one elbow and reaching out to brush fingers along the older's cheek. "It's not that big a deal. I wear glasses on my lazy days, and when I pop by the grocer to get some chocolate. Otherwise I tend to wear my contacts more. The motion of pushing my glasses up is so annoying. I prefer contacts." Wooyoung was a little surprised by his boyfriend rolling to come lay atop him, soft brown eyes mirroring his own as Mingyu looked down at him, still looking at the corrective lenses the younger sported. "What?"
"You look really cute."
"You're being gross-"
"And you love it." Well, he wasn't wrong, Wooyoung catching the playful glint in the older's eye, parting his lips to ask what was on his mind this time. "Let me you while you wear them?"
"Mingyu!"

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#5 | lay your hands on me | 03052021 -

Wooyoung wasn't sure at which point of the night they had agreed to this, but he wasn't against it either. There was something so nice about having the older's hands roaming under his shirt. The darkness of drawn curtains made it easy to hide the flush of his skin, worry striking him everytime Mingyu's face got close to his own just in case the younger radiated warmth. Goosebumps were forming on his skin, Wooyoung biting down a little on his bottom lip to keep from making a sound as delicate fingertips trailed along his spine, almost flinching when the quiet silence was broken by Mingyu's husky voice.
“Can you take your shirt off?”
The question definitely made Wooyoung's skin much hotter, the younger's nose gently bumping Mingyu's cheek as he went to sit up carefully. Instead of answering Mingyu's question, Wooyoung simply eased the fabric off compliantly before easing back down onto his side facing the older, hearing as the other male hummed out in appreciation at the exposed flesh now available to his touch. “Perfect,” he murmured gently, palms skimming over soft skin more confidently.
“You won't take yours off?” Wooyoung couldn't help but ask when the older didn't seem to do the same, the warm chuckle filling the air eliciting a smile to the younger's lips. He could make out the silhouette of Mingyu shifting, toned arms stretching to tug off the fabric and letting it drop carelessly to the floor.
“Is that better?”
“Much,” the younger promised, at first a little shy and hesitant but having Mingyu's hands against his skin made Wooyoung want to do the same. He started small, light and careful; allowing the pads of his fingertips skim along the older's bare collarbone, moving along to the shoulder and bicep before working down the long limb to Mingyu's elbow where he stopped and shifted to instead have his hands against the older's hip and tracing patterns on his skin.
“That almost tickles,” Mingyu broke the silence again after a few minutes of Wooyoung exploring, the younger about to murmur an apology but Mingyu continued to speak. “A little more pressure. So it takes away the tickling sensation.” Wooyoung did that, the older moving his legs after a moment to come tangle with the other male's own, both dancers now relativly close and skin to skin.
“Mingyu hyung?” It came out barely a whisper, Wooyoung growing shy as can be being so close to the other man. When the other didn't reply, Wooyoung parted his lips to speak again but in that instant before his brims could part too much, Mingyu's lips had brushed against them in a soft, sweet kiss.
Despite it being dark Wooyoung blinked a little astonished, not quite sure just what to say. It wasn't the first kiss they shared, and he doubted it would be the last. But it had been a long while, and there was that spark at the plush feeling, Wooyoung letting out the pent up breath he hadn't realised was caught before smiling fondly.
“Can I have another, please?” The younger whispered, hearing once more that warm chuckle as Mingyu came back in to give an other, and another, and another after that, leaving Wooyoung feeling giddy with delight and contentment; laying tangled in bed with the man of his dreams, hands on one another caressing lovingly.

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dec 28-2018

have you ever looked at someone and just felt an instant connection? without even knowing much about them, if anything at all? how does such a thing exist? How can there be a force strong enough to link two completely different people? it makes no sense to me. yet here we are, you and me. i can't say fire and ice because we aren't fire and ice. we're more like air and earth, but i wouldn't know who was which. Not with our personalities. you ground me, anchor me to the earth, yet at the same time you cause my mind to drift, to think of the possibilities and the potential that lies within our relationship. being with you is like going shark cage diving. you know it's safe, you know the odds of anything going wrong is next to none - - yet still it's exhilirating. Still it takes the breath from our lungs, like sharing a deep kiss where neither of us wants to let up, not even when our bdoies grow desperate for air and it isn't until we're light headed and panting that we stop. Just everything about you completely destroys my mind and trying to for words is a task and a half which is why when we first met I just straight out said I'd give you a . Was I thinking straight? No. Not even a little. Because you were ing talking to me. you, you, you, you, y o u. i swear you have a charm that wrecks me. you build me up with your beautiful words and sweeter actions then your break me down entirely, stripped apart bit by bit for you to look at and observe. making me blush all the time, and shiver and tremble and so damn nervous. would you laugh if I admitted I've been scared a lot too? Scared that at any moment, everything we have could be shattered? I'm extremely awkward but... You give me confidence. Every day that passes I feel a step closer to... Well, i'm still not ready to say it yet. but all i know is it's five in the morning. and i should be sleeping. i have our room open in a tab and you've replied so i should see to that and get to sleep.i've probably rambled on enough about all this but does it make sense? Does it accurately explain the way you make me feel like utter mush when we're together? I know this is no where as nice as your diary and i'm not trying to make it like your diary. I've been wanted to do this a while and for some reason, I though 4am on a friday morning was the best time to do it all. i will most likely regret this in the morning but that doesn't mean i'll get rid of it. Not if you actually like it.



dec 31-2018

have i ever told you how much of an idiot you are? well, you are. because i read your new addition to your letters for me, and it left me feeling a mix of different emotions. i was happy, because you made another entry, then i was concerned as i read more until finally i was a blend of annoyed and sad. why? because despite telling you that you can talk to me every moment of the day, you chose to be silent to me. i even tagged you, and it went unanswered yet I saw traces of you lurking. Well, i can't be mad at you for very long. you make me an incredibly soft person and i admire you a lot. please, don't be scared to talk to me, to tag me a million times even --I'd be happy to have that, because everytime I see your name my chest swells and i know i just have to be somewhere near you or against your or on you -- you get the point. it's nearly 3am now. Time for me to go to sleep. I wonder if you'll notice it but if not, i still don't mind.



jan 11-2019

i'm going to be bold. i'm going to be brave. the last few days - or has it been over a week? - have made me feel so chaotic. i've missed you, more than what i can manage to put into words. but the semi-time apart has helped me realise something, clearly. i mean, i already knew this, but i've had a lot of time to think and i'm always thinking about you, and me, and us and what the future holds for us. i suppose, this will be a test, to see if you've noticed that i post these here sometimes. like i said, i'm going to be bold, and brave. after all, those two traits is what got me the chance to be your boyfriend after all. so here i go - -

i love you


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kim mingyu Jan 13, 2019 0:37:55 Reply History 
I just woke up to say I love you
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kim mingyu 13 seconds ago Reply
I'm the confused white guy gif every time Wooyoung does what he does
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kim mingyu 1 hour ago Reply
wooyoung is mi boyf
luv him
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Y'all
Wooyoung's really like "wow you're poetic *heart eyes*" each time I say something remotely ... sweet
Got me out here actually writing him poetry and
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kim mingyu12:45:13 AMReply
Throws a blanket over Minhyuk's head
Don't look at him, he's beautiful and he's mine
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kim mingyu 3 minutes ago Reply
smooches Wooyoung's cheek and runs away
 
kim mingyu 2 minutes ago Reply
Looking @ Wooyoung and wondering wtf he's so good looking for
 
kim mingyu 2 minutes ago Reply
Lordddd. I could eat him up.
 
He's got the cutest voice and he's so charismatic and pwns the stage???? Gbye world
 
You're a bit cute, aren't you Gyupup?
 
Tackles you down and smooches your whole face
u 3u you leave me no choice but to be cute
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kim mingyu Mar 6, 2019 10:52:49
Sends gajillions of hearts your way
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feb 14-2019

i wonder how long it will take you to find this message, even if i shade it a different colour in an attempt to catch your attention. i think until you notice it, i'll keep silent and just wait for you to realise it's here, out in the open.
if someone had of told me, two months ago, that i actually had a chance to be your boyfriend, i would have cried liar to their faces before swaggering off sassily because let's be real here - you're perfect. you may not think so, in fact i happen to know you think rather little of yourself, but whether or not you agree with me; you are perfect. you know already that i was promised to someone else. we had it planned out and everything, how we were going to go about it. but then i noticed you.
tall, elegant, a master with words yet still rather reserved - yes, you caught my eyes and despite my best attempts, i couldn't stop watching you. more times than i care to admit, i would simply lurk on the couches of the rooms and just observe how you interacted with others around you. you didn't seem to have an interest in anyone, and despite me supposedly having an interest with another man, i felt drawn to you. i swindled out of my soon-to-be relationship because i wanted you, and i wasn't going to let anyone take that chance away from me.
when we first interacted, in the rated room, i never realised just how deep into the rabbit hole we were going to fall. i only intended to catch your attention and maybe get you to notice me more in the other rooms when i was active. yet one thing led to another - we went from having me on my knees to having you between my thighs as my nails dug into your taller form. i'd heard those kind of stories, where one gets attached to the person they lose their ity to but i didn't think it would happen to me. turns out i was wrong. i was hooked on you, and not because you were extremely satisfying in the bedroom. but because you knew how to hold my attention without knowing you were doing so. if we wanted to, we could easily talk for hours and it would feel like seconds. every moment i am with you, i feel like i'm home. you make me laugh, sometimes in the past you brought me to tears - both good and bad, but most importantly you make me feel like i'm worth something; you make me feel like i'm important, that i'm needed, and that's a sensation i've never had a chance to experience before.
you bring out the best in me, i only hope i bring out the best in you. i know we had a rough period, where i was nothing but insecure and terrified that you had lost interest in me. i berate you for having low self respect yet i'm no better. and that's part of why we need one another - because we see the value in one another and can help the other to see it for ourselves too. we don't spend as much time together like we used to, but that's okay. i know you'll be there for me when i need you the most and you know if you want me, you can reach me in other ways. i will never leave you on read, mingyu. you are a part of my soul, a part of my heart and a part of my body.
sometimes, it isn't how much you interact with people that determines how close you are, but how much you care. we don't need to talk every day, all day, for me to know you love me. and so i'm always willing to wait for you; my buppy; because i know that eventually you'll desire me and when those times come, i will always be here.
i love you, kim mingyu. through the light and the dark times, through thick and thin, good and bad, the ups and downs, the happy and sad, the beautiful and the ugly; every day and every night that we are alive - i will never stop what i feel for you.
happy valentine's day, my handsome buppy, kim mingyu
-- wooyoung x



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We wake up earlier than usual
Legs tangled, hair tousled
Bed a safe haven
Eyes bleary, a chill that runs down your spine

Step out for the sunrise,
Messy hair flowing with the howl of a breeze
Pretty for the night, you were wrecked by dawn

The promise of airbrushed art, hues unaccountable for are what calls our name
The canvas of a thousand beauties rendered over skyline as the sun flourishes ahead

Slowly

They say don’t ever look at it, not for a second
And instead eyes capture wavelengths of shades that paint a newfound memory
And you press yourself against me
Nothing but thin clothing, waiting for the hug that envelops you

Silence, sunrise

The breath of a wicked smoke in between to calm the chill as daytime’s in the limelight
The way you mirror my actions even when you urged me to stop, thinking you could fix me

And maybe it’s breaking you, maybe lingering will break you

But the sense of belonging when it’s your body that keeps me warm, your body that stayed even when you said you wouldn’t washes all moral
And it’s begging for the question:

Are you mine?
Come sunrise, are you mine



October 22, 2019 | 11:20PM -

I warned you. Or, now that I think about it, I flat out out told you I would be doing this after all and I meant it. In a way, this was always our little thing. I mean, you started it, with your late night ramblings, and the messaging yourself so you never forget what you were thinking that night. I still smile, when I think about how you realised first that you were in love with me, you were just shy and concerned about admitting it to me. But then you discovered that I was in love with you. The road for us has always been a long one, but not a bad one. You proved to me, that we don't have to see each other or even speak to one another everyday to know that we are in love, that we are together and that we will move forward together always. Patience has been the key to us, and I have such an abundance of it that I'm ready to pour if ever we need it. Thank you, for being with me.




October 24, 2019 | 11:55PM -

You set me off, in the best sort of ways. When I woke this morning, I certainly didn't expect to have people tell me all about how whiny you were while I rested! It surprised me, and made me feel so incredibly luck as well as shy because it's been so long since we've had contact with other people, I forgot what it was like to have an external force aware of us. You and I have been locked away much too long, Taekgyu. It feels so nice, to have people we can just show each other off to. That's not to say I didn't enjoy the solitude with you, because I did. Having others in our lives, friends and people we can call family- it reminds me of when we first met, and it gives me so much hope for our future. I love you, my Taekgyu.




October 27, 2019 | 12:32AM -

I'm so sleepy, and I was going to do this sooner but I was distracted with games and watching things on YouTube that before I knew it, the night was in full force. I don't really know what to say- When I look at you, I feel pure adoration and love for you. It makes my heart swell and I get so shy when you're around. When you call my name or mention me to others I can't help but feel like I'm melting but it's a good kind of melting. I'm just so weak for you, did you know that? I hope you have a good day. I miss you, and I love you.




October 31, 2019 | 6:49PM -

Happy Halloween! It's a little crazy huh, how this time of year is already upon us. I still get a little caught up thinking how this time last year I didn't have the chance to know you yet, that it would still be another month and a bit before I got to meet you. Maybe next Halloween, you and I can do something together? Even if all we do is rent out a dramatically bad effects Halloween movie and eat popcorn on the couch together. I know I'd enjoy anything like that, or whichever we ended up doing. We could always hold a costume party? Carve pumpkins? Egg someone's house? I don't really know how to celebrate Halloween. So you'd have to teach me, okay? With Halloween coming to an end, at least for me, the next major holiday is Christmas. I think technically this will be our second Christmas together- Oh! But before that will be our anniversary! Time really is slipping through our fingers. I miss you, and I love you so much.




November 03, 2019 | 9:49PM -

It's crazy to realise this, but we are in November now! How has the time just flown on by? Before we know it, it'll be Christmas and the new year. This year hasn't been the kindest, on either of us, but we made it work. I won't lie, there were times when I thought you'd forgotten about me, times when I felt maybe you weren't as in love with me as you once were. It was hard, to be honest, to go through all the silence alone, but I didn't want to end things- not with you. You're so special and wonderful. I don't know how you seemed to know, when I needed you the most. It was always so magical, going from the days blurring by then suddenly, in my darkest moments, you'd appear. As if you knew I was on the brink of breaking from life and you always helped to pick me back up, making me realise it's not so bad and that I shouldn't let it get to me. I've always been thankful to you for those moments. I remember how we almost did end things, because you didn't understand how I could just keep waiting and waiting for you to reach out to me. It's because I love you. And maybe you would do the same for me. I'm glad, that I see you more now. But I will always be willing to wait if you had to leave for a while. I just wanted you to know that. I love you.




November 09, 2019 | 11:14PM -

I tried to write this, but failed. And now this is my second attempt because the first try didn't sound right- it didn't sound me, and I never want to be anything less than myself. I suppose I'm finding it hard to find the words I want to say because your not to me, for my birthday, completely stripped me down bare and brought me into a state of vulnerability I never before had experienced. And it's taken me a few days to build myself back up enough to be somewhat tangible. Ah.. My darling, my love, my mind, body and soul. How do you manage to make me a putty mess in your hold? Why does your gaze make me feel both admired and entirely heated? How is it the simpliest brush of your fingers along my skin can both spark an ache for more and bring goosebumps to the flesh? You are incredible, to make me want you so much. I love you, Taekwoon. And I doubt I could ever show you just how much.




November 14, 2019 | 10.22AM -

Ah. Can you believe that I'm doing this while in teh studio instead of in the safety of home? I can't help it, I felt the need to write to you but I don't know how it'll go. I've been in a slump lately, sad and disassociate, feeling as though I'm drifting because in my mind I'm a bit of a mess. Thinking over it, I've gradually come to realise the core of the sadness is because I miss people around me. And to be honest, I feel a little ashamed that I miss them so much, miss you so much. Because I know I'm stronger than this, I've always been understanding and insisting that it's okay, because it is. It's always okay. Lately things are piling up, and I'm cracking a little. It's unlike me, to break. I've always been careful, to not take too much and to openly say when I need help in the desperate of times. I don't like cracking. I can feel it, and it's adding to the rest of the negatives in my mind which is turning me into a small ball of emotion. There's only so long I can mask it before even the mask breaks. But I know, that I'll be okay. Because I always am. Even if I break entirely, I know with enough time, I'll put myself back together and it'll be like I'm brand new. My mind set has always been a suffer in silence type unless I'm extremely desperate. Writing this out, like this... It's my way of telling you the things I normally hide because I don't want to worry you, or anyone. Don't want to seem dramatic by making a scene or being emotional about things. The last thing I want is to push you away because I'm moody one time. So, this is the things I keep hidden, because it's better to, but I trust and love you so much that you deserve to know how my mind works. I'm struggling, Taekwoon. With life, with family, with friends, with work. Everything. I can feel myself cracking and I just want to stay in bed under blankets and cry an entire day away until I feel better again. But I can't. I don't have the opportunity to do such things, even if I need it. Responsibility makes me sacrifice the little things I need to be okay sooner. So, I'm on the long road to breaking and when I do, it might take me a few days to be okay again. But I will be, I can promise you that. I miss you Jung Taekwoon. I miss you so ing much. Just a moment with you would be a blessing. But I can't expect you to always be the one making the first move. I can't be selfish to expect that of you. Here I am saying how I miss you, but I'm not reaching out like I should be. But I will. Soon. Right now, I'm too nervous to, too much of a mess in this instant to reach out. But soon, an hour, maybe two or three- I will. But after I gather myself up enough to be okay and not just become a mess in your hold and make you upset or worried about me. And if you are reading these words, well, I can be sure it's after I'm okay again because I only need a few hours and I know you're busy with things so it might be a little before you notice my newest entry, and even then maybe the size is daunting? Mm. No, not to you. You would read it all, for sure. You always do, just as I do for the things you write me. I'm already feeling better, writing all this jumble out. I don't even have to be saying it to you directly to have you calm me down and ease my mind. The thought of you reading this is enough. Taekwoon, I love you always. No matter what. I will never give up on us, or risk losing us. Please, don't give up on me. Even when I reach limits, even if I annoy you or upset you- please don't. Stay mine. Please.




November 22, 2019 | 8:36AM -

Do you know how much you make my heart race? How much heat I feel when you look at me? How shy and bashful I get when I find notes from you or when you come to me all cute but also heated? You're a drug to me, yeah that's cliche but you know what? It's true. The only difference is, you're not bad for me. So, maybe you're like chocolate? Or.. I don't know- you're something damn it! And I love the kind of people we are together. I won't lie- Hakyeon, he made me jealous. Silly, isn't it? I just wanted to scream and clearly show dominance, that you're mine. But I also know he's your band mate and friend, and more than likely to actually mother you as opposed to wooing you. You're mine, for as long as you're willing to keep me. Because I know I won't let you go.



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RIP i missed leO
 
lee sungho - pirate 10 hours ago Reply
kang yeosang - vampire 7 minutes ago Reply
RIP i missed leO

How do you think I feel..?
TnT

 
@jung taekwoon - ghost lee sungho - pirate [A] 26 minutes ago Reply
kang yeosang - vampire 7 minutes ago Reply
RIP i missed leO

How do you think I feel..?
TnT

 
@kang yeosang - vampire SCREAMS IS THAT MY BOYFRIEND BEING SAD
 
TT because I miss Sungho
 
@jung taekwoon - ghost IT IS
YOU'RE BOTH GROSS

 
@kang yeosang - vampire THE LOVE OF MY LIFE???
MY SUNSHINE???
THE REASON I BREATHE???
MY SWEET ANGEL FACE ???
BEING SAD???
Yeah but we're cute :/// frick off

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leo: so no sungho? ?
*smashes phone*
*smashes skateboard*

 
sungho: so no leo?
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sungho: show mercy!
also sungho: please continue