If you knew that hope and despair were paths for the same destination, which one would you choose?

 

#eros astrea

eros is dominated by two different parts with rather different traits, so he may sometimes seem like two different people within one body. however, that is not true as he is mostly in control of it and tends to keep his own balance of the two with a stable personality of his own that can be easily distinguished from either of his other two sides.
both sides of him are connected to his species. having an angel part coming from his father, and a demon one he got from his mother, a succubus demon. these two sides are dependent on his mood and emotions. the more unstable he gets, the stronger one of his sides will become.

when his demon side is dominant he loves teasing and playing with people's thoughts and emotions. he is very blunt and doesn't mind much if other's get hurt because of him. loves anything sinful as well, especially and similars. this side is the reason for all the tattoos and piercings on his body. he does them himself.
on the other hand, when his angel side is dominant he is much more careful with his words but still very honest. he will try to take care of others and help them when he feels they aren't feeling so well. he will feel much better himself when this side is dominant as well.

he is usually very blunt and honest, but always takes other's feelings into account making him reliable and trustworthy. incredibly devoted to a partner and aiming to please others, both ually, romantically, and even when it comes to friendships or even strangers, but his methods may vary depending on his mood, partners, and multiple other factors.

under normal circumstances, eros hardly gets shy or uncomfortable. it will be rare to see him flustered or awkward as he doesn't really overthink most stuff
also very patient and fair, and you can count on his cooperation and tolerance. due to his personality, he is really good at adapting to people's needs, be this a partner, or even a friend. he can be the one caring for others or letting them care for him. ranging from being both dominant or submissive, be it in the bedroom or in the overall relationship.

triggers: what side is dominant can be triggered by things such as scent, taste, interests etc.

demon side: bitter taste/scents. coffee. blood. horror. pain. the color black. and ual-related content. being in the presence of other demons.

angel side: sweet taste/scents. emotional situations. a chill atmosphere. the color white. perfume. flowers. being surrounded by intense emotions. being in the presence of other angels.

demon side: telepathic communication and perception which he can control.

angel side: emphatic which he cannot control. can feel the emotions of those surrounding him very strongly and may share his own emotions with others (ex: calming them down if they are upset)

can only use his powers when their respective side is dominant.

demon side: the stronger his demon side is, the more he lacks control of his power. can end up communicating his thoughts to nearby people or reading their mind even when he doesn't want to.

angel side: the stronger his angel side is the more he will connect to the people surrounding him and if the person is feeling something very strongly he will feel it just as intensely sometimes even including mental exhaustion or physical pain/illness.

dark arts,
magical theory,
psychology,
herbology.

art,
ancient runes.

heights. has a huge fear of heights and that is the reason he refuses to even open his wings or show them publicly. this is applicable to both his demon and angel side as well as his 'standard personality'.

mixing the blood of an angel and a demon, eros' species goes by the name of nephalem. appearance wise, this comes with a set of wings, one white and one black, which can be kept hidden and eros refuses to use them. his eyes alternate between a black standard color when neither side is dominant, fully black when the demon takes over and grey when the angel takes over.
under the demon's dominance, he also gets small fangs and long black pointy nails to match the pitch-black hair. on the other hand, when his angel side is dominant his hair turns white and his skin becomes clean and soft, his tattoos disappearing.

eros is very passionate about drawing and one of his favorite hobbies is drawing on his own skin. tattoos. all of them were done by his demon side, having multiple on his chest, arms, and back, one on his left wrist, and one on his lower stomach. most of his tattoos are faith-related as a way of mocking his angel side.

much like his tattoos, his piercings were all done by his demon side as well. he has a total of 4 piercings aside from his multiple ear piercings. this includes a lip ring and a nose ring, a tongue piercing, and his left .

can vary a lot between all black and all white. adds little bits of color through accessories, shoes, any type of jewelry, and sometimes even his hair which is always kept black, white, or dyed. keeps his nails short and painted black and will dress and accessorize himself in an androgynous way from time to time. all depends on his mood.

 

#eros astrea

not much is known about eros past. he was born to an angel father and a succubus demon mother though he was not raised by either of them. his father wanted to avoid anything that connected him to the demon while his mother was certainly not the type to dedicate herself to a child, simply wanting to go around repeating the same she had done with his father and seducing other species with her charms. because of this, eros knew close to nothing about his past self, including his name and age as well as where he was born. at one point in his life, he was brought to an orphanage where he was 'studied' until they managed to figure out his species and powers, and only then was he given a name, eros astrea, chosen due to his traits.

once again there was not much he remembered from the orphanage, maybe because he was young or maybe because his brain had completely erased this part of his life, but he only had a few very vague memories of his time in the orphanage where he was raised and taught how to master his own powers. after that, it was like years of his life were deleted from his memories and the next thing he remembers he was 22 years old and had long stopped aging. he spent long years traveling, convincing himself he wanted nothing to do with his past while unconsciously searching for any type of clue that could help lead him to a new discovery. the more he tried though, the more frustrated and disappointed he got as there was nothing he could follow up that would lead him to any information of his past.

after many years of wandering and looking for crumbs that he could just not find at all, eros decided it was time he dedicated himself to something. he had no idea if he'd studied before and if he did, what he had focused on so for now he would just follow his heart as well as the coin he'd received. deciding to join the mystiq institute, he decided to pick the classes thinking of what both of his sides would like as well as his elective based on his own interest, obviously going for art. right now he is at the school wanting to focus on his own life and letting go of the past he'd become so obsessed with.