22.09.02 —

can you believe it's been a month since we committed to each other? it feels like just yesterday that i first saw you in person and you made me such a flustered mess that i couldn't even look you in the eyes. now look at how far we've come. even though you still manage to fluster me daily, i just do a better job at hiding it.
you are an incredible man, taeyang, and every single day i count myself lucky to have met you, to have fallen for you, and to be caught by you. there's nowhere else i would rather be than right by your side every single day. and while i know that it isn't feasible to spend every second of every day with you, you are in my heart and on my mind each moment from the time i wake up until the time i go to bed.
did you think that back when i first invited you to my place that we would be here now? did you know then that you're my mate? the love of my life? the man i want to marry someday? because i didn't, but i know it now. i know that when i imagine my future, you're there at every step.
before you, i couldn't have imagined that i would love someone as much as i love you. you have me, all of me. my mind, my heart, my body and soul... all of it is so connected to you and yours, and there is no other way that i would want it. you possess me, completely, and i only hope that makes you happy. i hope that i make you as happy as you make me.
i know i'm giving you these messages a day early. our monthiversary is really tomorrow, not today, but i wanted to greet the day and the next month together having given you these words. i want to give you more than words, but actions don't come with a time limit, not when i spend every day loving you. you just have to forgive me for being the early bird with this. i hope.
so here's to being as happy in the next month as we've been in this one. here's to taking care of you even half as well as you take care of me. and here's to us, building our future together every single day. i don't really know how to end this when this isn't an end, but another step forward together, so i hope that you don't mind the only words that come to mind are... i love you.

— taedeer's yuchickie