from me to you.
the more i see you, the more this feeling grows
it started out small. it started as little things. looking forward to seeing you, getting excited when i did get to see you. then it began to grow. the little flutteries in my chest, the inability to not smile whenever i saw you, even my hands shaking a little bit because i got to talk to you. for a while i was like... what the heck is this? it wasn't something i was all that used to. but with you, i wasn't opposed to the feeling. i could get used to this, i thought to myself. and really, from that point on, i did. it became normal, expected. and whenever i got to see you, i knew that it would happen. heck, even as i'm writing this now, my heart's going all crazy in my chest. don't you see what you've done to me? (don't worry, it's a good thing).
you became my season
i wouldn't really say that it all started as a joke, especially since i was very serious about everything, but when we went to jun and wonu's wedding, i really felt something between a big embarrassment and the luckiest guy in the world. i mean, i had you as my date. but it was then, really, that i started realizing just how much you meant to me. it wasn't just a little flirting, it wasn't just something to play around with and joke about... i knew i was really, truly, honestly falling for you.
fireworks explode in my world
the way you smiled. the way you laughed. how you would hold my hand. the way you looked at me. how you would whine when i was attacking™ you. the little "o" i would get when i knew that you liked whatever i had done. getting to try out new faces with you (yay tcc parties). getting to talk to you every day. being there to help you through whatever it was you were going through. getting to hug you and give you little kisses. holding you when i wanted (or needed) something to hold onto. being the one to put a smile on your face, even in the littlest ways. those are some, definitely not all, of the things that make me fall for you more and more every single day.
it's like i'm floating on a balloon
hehe if you haven't noticed yet, the headings all are lyrics from bloom bloom. i just wanted to let you know, that that's kinda like how you make me feel. you know? like, boom! bloom bloom pow! you're the flowers that grow in my life, that fill me with happiness, that remind me about all of the good things in life. in just a short time (is a month short? i don't even know) you've literally come to mean everything to me. you're my world. my whole galaxy.. my whole universe! i want to give you everything that i can. i really hope that a month isn't too short of a time to really start developing these feelings... you just... you just mean a whole lot to me, more than anything else in the whole world, more than anything has every meant to me before.
you're my blue sky
i want to be the guy to make you smile, to make you happy like you've made me. i want to be the one who's there when you're feeling down, to lift you up when you need someone to do that for you. i want to be your confidant, your high and your low, your everything. i want you to know that i will do everything to be that for you, if you'll let me. i'll give you a kiss every morning, i'll hold your hand every day, heck i'll do anything for you. anything i would do, though, would never make up for how you've made me feel. i could never compare to who you are and how happy you've made me.
i'm deeply falling for you
now here comes the more uh... nerve-wracking part. i mean, not a bad kind of nerve-wracking. i just mean, i've been writing all of this and my heart has been racing and my hands are shaking and i'm smiling like an idiot... and i don't even think i've made sense for most of this. like, i'm pretty sure i've been rambling and for no real reason. is this what the cool kids do? do cool kids even do these kinds of things? am i even doing this right? oh god, i'm rambling again. come on jacob, you can do this...
yeh shuhua, will you be my girlfriend?
you don't have to say yes now, or ever really -- i just wanted to get these words off my chest and tell you how much i care about you and maybe, just maybe, win your heart (unless i already did... then it's double score for baecob). i'll be patiently waiting for your answer, and just know that i'll still l*ve you whether you say yes or no or maybe or never. you have my heart.
