× death or savior

@hongjoong He was shocked to see Hongjoong kiss him on the lips but due to his lack of attention on his own well being Joshua decided to kiss him back. Hongjoong, one of the men who almost tried to hurt him a few years back was kissing him. Was it necessary to kiss him during this moment? All questions had quiet down once the kiss grew a tad bit rougher than he expected. Maybe this is how to set him off to the same mood as Jacob was feeling. He huffed from the touch being added onto his skin making him look away shyly after they kissed.

"Y-Yes..." He stuttered and took a moment to breathe before resuming himself to get comfortable with Hongjoong. He moaned from each and every touch that the scientist added from his bare skin as well as the use of his lips. The same lips he grew to care and hunger for ever since they first kissed. He wasn't disgusted, he wanted to simply kiss him again but wasn't sure on how to ask that from him since what Hongjoong was opting to do is just to offer his help. He felt greedy for his affection at the moment. How long has it been ever since they actually talked properly? Cuddled up to each other properly?

He had his finger nails dug around the roots of his hair, tangling his fingers through the locks while he moaned and tugged one of them. "This feels... good!" But unfortunately, not good enough. A low groan emitted from his lips upon the feeling of Hongjoong's hand wrapped around his . He brought his lips to add small kisses around his face, urging him to continue and have his way with him. Joshua was out of words, proceeding to cup his cheeks and add kisses around his face except his lips instead of speaking. For one moment he decided to use his lips but use his voice in a hushed tone compared to earlier. "Please..."

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “I will help you,” Hongjoong repeated and cupped the other’s cheeks, kissing him. It was gentle at first but then it turned more heated. He wanted to help Joshua so badly and he knew this was painful to him, hard to endure. Slowly he let his hands wander, down to the other’s shirt and under it, touching the hot skin of the hybrid. He was beautiful. Hongjoong had known that before but damn, Joshua was so goddamn beautiful.

“Tell me if it’s too much,” Hongjoong said and lifted Joshua’s chin so he could look at me. “If you really want me to stop, say ‘red’. I will stop right away.” Because he knew Joshua might beg him to stop without really meaning it. He had been around the other for long enough to realise it was not always the way the hybrid said it and that he might want or need more even if he said differently. Saying a different word then might make it a little easier to keep apart what he wanted. His fingers brushed over the other’s sides and then up his body. Without thinking much he took of the other’s shirt, throwing it away, his lips almost immediately going to the bare skin and it, it.

A small chuckle left his lips as he looked down to Joshua. He had always smelled the same, at least as far as he knew. “I will,” he assured the other and moved his hips against Joshua’s. His lips slowly on the other’s while his hands opened his pants, slowly taking them off. He was sure Joshua had been suffering way too long like this and that it must hurt. He was not sure what Joshua needed for the heat to go away but he would give him everything he could. Maybe making him first would already help. Carefully he wrapped his hand around the other’s hard and already leaking , stroking it slowly.

@hongjoong Finally he felt relaxed for the first time once more after another month of dread on his heat. This was unbearable, how many people have to suffer under mother nature's norms? Joshua purred and smiled looking up at Hongjoong. "Thank you." His smile faded when he mentioned all about helping him besides petting him. Should he really let Hongjoong help him? A low grunt left Joshua's lips upon the pain coursing right through him for keeping his heat like this for so long. it. Alright, he'll let Hongjoong in like this. He can hardly listen to what he's saying but understood for the most part.

After hearing his persuasions, Joshua morphed back into his hybrid form and instantly wrapped his arms around Hongjoong. Hugging him close that it made the both of them to fall back on Hongjoong's bed. Joshua huffed and cried at the pain inducing his body that it made his tail flick around wildly. "H-Help me... please? I need you Hongjoong." He begged and shook under the pain. With cheeks flushed, he felt his need grow upon taking a small sniff on Hongjoong's scent. God, why did that smell so intoxicating to him? What has he gotten himself into? Maybe he should've stayed as a cat instead so save himself from this embarrassment.

His nose found the skin of Hongjoong's neck, rubbing and taking another sniff of his scent made him purr. A sudden emotion bubbled into himself that was something different from what he felt for him the past few months of staying by his side. "W why do you smell so good?" He closed his eyes and let himself fall back right beside Hongjoong. His eyes were filled of pure lust wanting to have him but let himself feel vulnerable in front of him instead. Without warning, Joshua clutched onto Hongjoong's arm and nuzzled his head onto his shoulder. How cute of a scene played right in front of him.

"Master, please have me."

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “No,” Hongjoong said, feeling bad that he could not offer the other some medication that could help him in any way. He wished he had, but there was nothing. “But I will help you,” he said gently and brushed over the other’s skin, calming. It was hot from the heat and sweat and from moving under the bed. “Please do not hurt yourself, okay? I know it’s painful.” He looked gently at him and held him close. “I can pet you, but I am sure I can help you more.” He petted the other carefully, looking at him with a soft expression.

“I will not hurt you. I promise,” he said and looked at Joshua, gently brushing over the other’s head. “You just have to be in your hybrid form. And I promise I’ll take care of your needs. You don’t have to do anything, I’ll just help you, I promise.” If Joshua wanted him to stop, he would, but he wanted to try it at least, wanted to try help Joshua. “Let me try, please. I can help you for now and then I can show you the toys. And you can take care of it next time.”

Tilting his head a bit he waited for Joshua’s reaction. “I hate seeing you in pain,” he then admitted, a frown on his lips. “I do not want you to be in pain,” he said and it hurt him to see the other like that. “You won’t hurt me. Really.” He chuckled gently and brushed over the other’s head. “I promise you, you will not harm me. And I will not harm you.”

@hongjoong Joshua uttered a small mew and cuddled up into Hongjoong's arms, forming a small white furball. He was craving for affection and he knew it's because of his heat. He kept whining under his breathe hoping it would go away. "H-Hongjoong..." His ears lowered and squirmed to get away but his grip on him made it impossible to do so. "D-do you have a medication or s-something?" He wanted to know first before he resulted to the next best thing that he didn't want to do with him but what can he do to stop the scientist?

"I know you can help... I hoped it wouldn't come to this but it did." Chuckling slowly he whined once more and cuddled into his arms. "Just... pet my fur again just like before. It helped during the past months... really." He lied. Ever since he started living off in freedom he's been denying his heat ever since and never asked for help towards anyone. The pain he was trying to endure is way worst than before. Joshua used his paws to play around with Hongjoong's shirt, his tail wagging slowly.

"I'm glad you're home early." Honestly, he doesn't know what he's saying or doing either. Earlier, he doesn't want Hongjoong to help him, tried to squirm away and now cuddled into his arms and told him that he felt glad he was there to help him. "No, no. I'm sorry... I don't want to harm you. Hongjoong... let me go please." He pleaded hoping he would return under his bed.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ Work had ended early today and Hongjoong was so damn glad he was finally allowed to get home. He worked so much more these past few weeks and all he wanted was some more sleep but whenever he slept, he had bad dreams. And when he woke up, he needed to go to work and the circle kept going. He could barely spent time with Joshua as well, his own mood so low during the most days due to feeling exhausted, but at least he managed to cook for them from time to time.

Opening the apartment he felt odd, that something was going on and the moment the door closed and silence surrounded him he heard the sound of something hitting the wall and the bed and he realised what it was. Hurriedly he rushed to the bedroom, kneeling down and with a swift move, pulling Joshua out from under his bed. "Don't hurt yourself," he said and pulled Joshua to his chest, realising that the other was clearly in heat and this was how he tried to push it away. He had seen it a lot in caged hybrids, that this was how they tried to get rid of it but it did not work.

Hongjoong's arms were around Joshua, holding him close, the other's back to his own. "I can help, okay?" he said gently, not sure at how close Joshua would let him get but he wanted to help. "We had this talk, remember? I can help," he said. He had promised he would help so how could he not?

@hongjoong He continuously observed Hongjoong from afar ever since his reveal of being a hybrid. The both of them still continued as if everything was all normal but Joshua still can't help but feel like he became too harsh on him. Was there something that he said? He wasn't sure what it was all about until he would ask but every time he would do so the other would be tired from work making Joshua postpone the subject for another day and a few more days to come afterwards. He wanted to set things right but he doesn't have a single clue on how to do that.

After a few weeks, Joshua became wary of his situation and the date of his next heat session. It made him worried of what else he might do while he stayed in Hongjoong's apartment. He failed to ask help from the scientist and continued to forget all about his need of help until the day finally came where he does. Instead of coming to ask Hongjoong about it he was found mewling uncomfortably under Hongjoong's bed. He curled up into a little furball and huddled at one end corner of his bed, morphing into the feline he is. He just hoped Hongjoong wouldn't take mind of his actions during his stay.

"Ugh... Why is it so hot?" He complained, his tail swishing in various quick motions. His body shook and moved around underneath Hongjoong's bed. He can't take it much anymore and began bumping his head around in accidental movements just to keep the pain away from his body but he knew that's not how mother nature worked for them. He's not a normal cat yet they were blessed with a kind of curse just as any other animal he sets his eyes upon.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “Sorry,” Hongjoong chuckled and ruffled Joshua’s hair slightly. “But no need to be nervous, really.” He looked gently at him. He wanted to help and do his best. Even though he had just met the other in his hybrid form a few hours ago, he still cared. He had cared before and now he cared even more. “I’ll help you, don’t worry,” he hummed and poked the other’s nose slightly.

A frown was seen on his face and he then sighed. “I know, Joshua,” he said, surprised that the other was trying to tell him there were animals out there, hybrids, that wanted him dead. “I’ve worked in this job for quite a while and it would not be the first time someone tried to kill me,” he then explained quietly, not really minding. “I’ve never had any guard up,” he added, words quite but probably loud enough for Joshua to hear. He had never had any guard, he had never tried to not die. If one of the hybrids or animals tried to kill him, he would be ready for it. He was a coward, he knew that, but who was here to judge him for it? Aside from Joshua, maybe. For now at least.

“I’ll eat later,” Hongjoong mumbled even though he knew he would not. He barely ate properly, especially not recently, but he could not care less about it. He had stopped caring a long while ago. He then nodded, the words the other said not really reaching him. He was exhausted and all he wanted was to sleep. Preferably until months later. He was so damn tired.

(timeskip, maybe a few weeks later?)

@hongjoong "You're making me nervous with that statement alone." Joshua half squinted and chuckled at Hongjoong for being kind to him at these awkward dire of needs. He's glad he offered to teach him a few of those basics in order to keep himself satiated from his overwhelming desires. "Thank you, Hongjoong. I appreciate the helpful hand you offered me through this."

Joshua watched his mood drop from his response on how he thought of him. He can't help but feel the expressions that his owner held through his feline senses. He knew every emotion that Hongjoong held ever since the months that he spend together with the other inside his apartment. It's what all cats have when it comes to their owners. They know who had good and bad intentions by one sense. "I also want you to be careful to which animal you come across with. You never know if they're from the resistance or not. They can kill you if you let your guard down." As much as he thinks he's his owner he can't just let Hongjoong suffer under the hands of the people who are of his kind. They were more lethal than Joshua. He's just a regular hybrid but he knew the in and out of what's happening in their little world.

"You know you need to eat too." Joshua trailed out and frowned at the change of mood Hongjoong held. Joshua sighed and left Hongjoong alone for today, knowing it's best to leave the other alone for a while. "Thank you for venting all of that to me. No one... Ever told me about their problems until now." Was what Joshua said as he watched Hongjoong leave. He had people who let their heart out to him. Only now... they died.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “I can show you that when you need it then,” Hongjoong said and nodded. He showed him a gentle smile, warm expression on his face. He just wanted to help Joshua as good as he could but he knew it was not always easy. Having a guide through all of this, a teacher, would be nice so there was that. “I will be here if you need me, I’ll help you, okay?” Now Joshua did not have to stay in his cat form anymore and this way it would be a lot easier to communicate after all. He was really looking forward to that. “Oh it’s… when you are too sensitive, kind of,” Hongjoong said and his lips almost shyly. He did not want to get too detailed or anything, he was sure Joshua would sooner or later experience it himself. “You will see, I am sure.” He chuckled slightly.

However the next words hurt. Hearing that Joshua only saw him as an owner and not exactly as a friend it was painful. A friend that shares every problem. Maybe Hongjoong should have not told the other so much about him. He looked down and nodded slightly. It was good that Joshua was telling him the truth but it also hurt. “It’s okay,” he mumbled quietly. He had seen Joshua as a friend, as a cat already but also as a hybrid. Maybe a little bit as family as Hongjoong had no one. No one else he could talk to, no one else he could trust. But he had never been the best with intuition and maybe he should have been more careful.

“If you want to, you can, yes,” Hongjoong said, keeping his sadness in his chest all bottled up like he always did. Covering it deep inside with all the other painful feelings. “If you want to talk you can, I’ll be here to listen and learn.” Of course, it had been one-sided. But not because Hongjoong had not tried his best to provide. But because Joshua had been hiding and not showing his real self. He had though he had a cat by his side and not a hybrid so now here he was, alone with his sadness. “But maybe I need a nap first.” He had yet not really eaten much, just a bit, like he usually did. However it was getting late and he had work tomorrow.

@hongjoong "M-Maybe not right now..." Joshua didn't want Hongjoong to see him or feel that he was embarrassed although he was certainly is. "Not the devices but maybe how do I e using none of the inventions that you mentioned earlier? I could use some of that lessons but not now." God, he felt like he could just die out of embarrassment from picking this topic to be discussed. He was desperate on wanting to learn just in case he was left alone and he knew what to do once his heat comes. This was devastating for him to bear with and he had to learn such with the scientist himself.

"Overstimulating? How and what does that mean?" He wanted to inquire every piece of information that came out of Hongjoong's mouth wanting to ensure that he's well informed of where this was going with the other right beside him. It was nice that Hongjoong offered to guide him in order to ease his monthly heat pains. He still felt embarrassed by everything that came out of Hongjoong's mouth about it.

"Y-You're just my owner Hongjoong... I do feel a connection with you but not in that kind of way. I appreciate everything you've done for me but all I've ever thought of you was just my owner and a friend that shares every problem he's gone through his life." He curled up right next to him and purred before speaking truthfully of what he's been thinking of. "It's also unfair when I know every single detail about you but you don't know mine..."

"I don't feel fully connected when this relationship has been one-sided for months now... But I do believe that it's time I would open up about my world?"

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “If you want to?” Hongjoong said a bit shyly and then looked at Joshua, brushing over the other’s cheek. “If you want to, though. Let me know what you want to see and learn and I will show you whatever is needed.” He grinned, still a bit nervous but also kind of excited. He wanted to teach Joshua but he also did not want to overstep any boundaries.

A soft laugh left his lips and he nodded. “Well, yeah. It’s very pleasurable. I am very sure those exist because I own a few.” Different sizes though he did have his favourite. He blushes a bit and rubbed his neck shyly. “It is very nice though it can also be pretty overstimulating.” He his lips and brushed over the other’s side, humming softly. “If you want to try it out, let me know.”

Listening to the other he nodded gently. “What do you think would give you the possibility to truly connect?” he asked curiously, wondering if Joshua saw them as truly connected. He was not sure entirely sure about that yet. He felt connected to the hybrid but maybe that was just him. “I just… wanted to know if you know ways to make you feel better.” He tilted his head a little bit and brushed over the other’s cheek.

Hugging him close he played with his hair, humming softly. It felt nice being here with the other, being close to him. It felt comfortable and relaxing.

@hongjoong “Are you… going to show me right now?” In similarity to Hongjoong’s behavior. He did feel embarrassed asking the scientist about this as well. He needed assistance and thought he was the right person who could help him. Actually, the only person who could help him as to he has no one else to rely on. He had no friends except for actual normal cats living around the streets but they’re long gone since he had to move around one place to another in order to scavenge for food.

“A- a that can vibrate?? What in the world???” He was gapping at the thought of such a device made by man in order to keep their ual desires satiated for such a brief moment. He never knew what kind of inventions would humans even thought of making. It felt weirdly crazy for him since that wasn’t how his world revolved in. “Why- why do people make those? How do those work? A-and, are you serious these exist?” Joshua’s face was pure red just talking about it and slowly his attention wasn’t on the show playing anymore.

“I’ve never kissed or touch anyone. I would only love to give myself to someone whom I truly connect with. I can’t just give myself out there towards random people like that.” He did something but not what Hongjoong thought he would be doing. He kept harming himself by crashing his body to some random wall inflicting pain in order to stop. “You don’t need to know what I do whenever I’m in heat. I’m surprised you still kept me even if I kept screaming while in heat during those past months.”

Joshua whined and cuddled up next to Hongjoong’s side not knowing how to feel from their ongoing conversation that they’re having. He can’t blame him, he was just asking on what he can do to ease the pain.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “O-oh,” Hongjoong said and looked at the other, blushing a bit. He had not exactly realised it had been his heat? Rut? He was not really good with terms even though he had informed himself about cats and what they needed and everything. He had thought of spaying Joshua but now he was glad he had not. Because it was different if he was spaying or neutering a hybrid or a cat after all. “I kind of had not realised this was… oh well.”

Now his cheeks got even redder and he huffed slightly and looked at the other. “I… uhm… I can show you I guess?” He his lips nervously and brushed through his hair, wondering if Joshua wanted that. “If you want that. I mean I can… I can also help with that?” Oh gosh, what was he getting himself into? He could be quite confident if he wanted to but right now he felt like a mess. There was the image of Joshua touching himself in his head and , that was hot.

“No it’s… you use it to pleasure yourself. You can have stuff like that vibrate and s that give of a great feeling for your ,” Hongjoong tried to explain, faltering a little bit because Joshua was so innocent and he felt so bad for tainting it but it was good for the other to know. He needed to know about all his possibilities. “I don’t know. Have you kissed? Or touched yourself when you were in heat like… tried to make it get better?”

There was a soft chuckle leaving his lips and he nodded. “Yes, of course. We can.” He smiled and then shook his head. “No I… I would like to watch it. I never watch shows nowadays, I have a hard time choosing so I’d like to give this a try. Is that okay?” He brushed through the other’s hair, smiling at him.

@hongjoong The feline simply shrugged in answer to the male's worry. "You keep apologizing when it's normal. You've witnessed me in pain for such desires. Might refresh your memory, I kept yowling in pain even if I've eaten already." There was a time where he can't handle his heat season and he had to annoyingly complain at Hongjoong's ear when he was in his normal cat form. Other times there were screeching.

"Make it worst? But we don't know that yet." He wasn't aware of the side effects that he'll have to deal with once he gets his medication and heat when the time comes. He never tried medicine for his heat, ever. As innocent as he is. Joshua tilted his head to the side and asked the other. "How do I... touch myself?" The male never experienced such actions known as ion before. All he ever did was scream around like a cat while he wandered through the streets.

"W-What are toys... Are those like normal chew toys? Can I toss it around and gnaw at it?" It was obvious Joshua knew nothing about or . He was never exposed to such equipment before in his life that could ease someone's ual desires. Those are used by humans to help spice up their relationship that they have between each other and in other words, to make more exciting for their experience.

"W-We can watch it? Are you sure? I mean, you're not at the house a lot! Why not you choose?" His ears bent down and looked off to a corner feeling embarrassed that he just actively snatched the remote. Giving the item back he seemed glum. Tail moving down he uttered a small sorry under his lips.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “Oh gosh, that is embarrassing,” Hongjoong whined and tried to hide his face under the pillow. He had not expected to ever have that talk. “Yeah I have those needs sometimes but I just… I did not expect you to listen in on them or- oh gosh, were oyu in?” He huffed and looked at Joshua, his heart beating fast in embarrassment and his cheeks were dark red. Never had anyone heard him like that unless he was in a relationship which was pretty rare and he still was in pain over his last one but holy , that was embarrassing. “I am sorry you had to hear that.” He hadn’t wanted to mentally scar Joshua by accident.

Surprised he looked at the other and blinked a bit. “O-Oh?” He remembered that some hybrids had their heat more often then other’s and he felt sorry for Joshua but then again he was not sure if there was anything he could do. “Maybe I can. But maybe it’ll just make it worse once you end up in heat again?” How had Joshua managed to hide it those past three months he had been here? “I mean… you can… you can touch yourself in the bedroom, if you want to?” Now he was blushing again.

“I mean I can try and check with other scientist while trying to not be too obvious,” Hongjoong then offered and smiled at him. “I-I mean.” He then hesitated. Was it too much if he offered it? “I can get you some toys too, if that might help? Like… toys that help with the heat.” Okay, now that might be a little weird but he really wanted to help Joshua. He would offer himself but Joshua would maybe hate hearing that.

A soft chuckle left his lips when he saw Joshua so excited, morving back to his hybrif form and getting the remote. “Oh, I heard about it,” he said and smiled, listening to the other. He had watched one episode of it once when he had been halfway asleep but he could barely remember anything about it. “Then let’s watch it,” he nodded, seeing how excited Joshua got. He really seemed to like the show.

@hongjoong "Do what to me?" Asking him as if he never asked him anything about what he just said towards the other. “Hey, almost all men try to please their ual drive by ing. You… might be a few of these persons, who does these things. I’m not wrong, though am I?” Based from Hongjoong’s raw reaction he had positively deducted that this man was indeed making such lewd sounds a couple of days ago. Was he disgusted? Wanted to throw up? Half of his mind had clouded from that thought. He dragged his body once out into the window in order to sleep and came back into the living room once it was morning.

“I’ve been wondering. You’re a scientist, right? Do you have anything with you that’s for uhm…” There was no hiding that he needed equal help as he actually thought. Clearing his throat, he had to ask him about it. If he doesn’t have anything that could assist him in his need then he’ll leave it be. Over and done for.

“Do you have something that can deal with someone’s… heat?”

Joshua was indeed part animal and he had needs too. Only, his type of needs came every month. People call It a rut or an animal’s heat season. It was a struggle that they all try to keep at bay. He wants to get some sort of medication not to get it on with a random hybrid from the streets. All he’s ever done was yowl in pain or shout in cat form that he was in pain. In return he gets pets from Hongjoong ever since he never showed that he was a hybrid before. It felt embarrassing. “If you don’t have any, that’s fine too. I can manage myself.”

Ears perking up, Joshua morphed into a cat-human hybrid once again and took the remote from Hongjoong’s hand. He eagerly pushed the buttons down from the remote that he now posses from his hands and decided on one channel that he found entertaining to watch about. “The Dragon Prince! It’s all about humans, elves, dragons. Elves and humans despised each other because the humans took the dragon’s egg from one of the dragons which is the next heir but the humans don’t want that-.” Joshua kept talking about the show excitedly while his tail wagged in sync with his mood.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ With wide eyes Hongjoong looked at the other. Joshua had what? Joshua had heard him? He could feel his cheeks turn dark red and he tried to bury his face in his hands, hiding his expression. “No no no, you did not.” He whined and grabbed a pillow, putting it on his face. Oh gosh, how embarrassing. “I am so sorry, I didn’t want to do that to you.” He had thought the other was just a cat and not a hybrid who actually realised that Hongjoong had been touching himself from time to time. How damn embarrassing.

He took a deep breath and tried to calm him but it did not exactly work. His heart was beating so damn fast and he felt so embarrassed. “I’m sorry,” he repeated, wondering how Joshua had reacted to hearing him moan, hearing him touch himself. Had he found it gross? Or had he liked it? No no no, he should not think about that at all.

A small huff left Hongjoong’s lips. “Okay okay, no petting then.” He pouted a bit. “I just… I really like hearing you purr.” It had a calming effect after all and he just really liked it. “We can rewatch it, if you liked it a lot?” he offered then. “Or we can see if we find something similar to your liking.” He had Netflix after all so why not use that, right?

@hongjoong One boop made Joshua withdraw his head backward. His paw locating the tip of his nose making him enclose the cute little button itself. The embarrassment that surrounded his face made him whine and paw at the male's hand that came to his fur. "Hey! Not funny, I mean I'm not... Although, I've heard humans create such lewd noises whenever I pass by." Getting a firm grip over what he listens to makes him want to eradicate his hearing faster than light itself.

"Oh, and have anyone told you, you have cute moans?"

The smirk that played on the feline's lips never faltered before making him laugh in amusement. Never once did he misheard the male create such sensual noises inside his room. Not one male or female he brought home once to bed with. That assumption alone made him thought that his owner was indeed having the luxury time of giving himself the pleasure that he needed during the lonely nights.

"S-Stop petting me. You're making me purr a whole lot-." Hums and purrs had emitted through the lips of his mouth. The more he received his much necessary attention the more he lunged his body closer to Hongjoong developing the need to have cuddles. "I used to watch one show but it's not like there's anything new to come with it. I think I've finished it already while you were at work."

Unless he desires to watch it again with him?

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “Do not worry,” Hongjoong chuckled and gently ruffled Joshua’s fur. It felt like the other’s hair felt too. A little bit like fur, gentle to the touch and so very soft, he enjoyed it, he also enjoyed playing with it. “I will always come back and take care of yourself.” Even if he was not the best with taking care of himself. He had his reasons after all but he was yet not ready to tell Joshua. Maybe sooner or later he would be okay with letting the hybrid know. “So trust me, I’ll make sure you get your tasty food and chicken.” He booped Joshua’s nose amused.

A small hum left the scientist’s lips and he gave the other the remote, watching him turn on the tv just to see a couple having . He laughed amused and shook his head a bit, laughing. “It’s fine,” he said and brushed through Joshua’s hair. “You are not used to seeing such things, right?” He wondered if Joshua had ever even been able to touch other’s like that – or himself. Hongjoong was pretty sure that Joshua had either seen or heard the scientist touch himself and he was a little embarrassed about that but he had thought the other was a cat, not a hybrid.

“Even if you intended on choosing that, it would be fine. I told you can choose.” Hongjoong brushed through the other’s fur and played with the other’s fur, drawing patterns on it. “Mh, anything you have in mind you want to watch? I am sure there are things you’d enjoy. Any genre? Any show you watched and want to keep continuing watching?” He gently pressed the remote and looked through the shows.

@hongjoong For once he left the issue aside for Hongjoong to suffer under. Whether he saw him or not was less of his concern but took a mental note to leave his room whenever he gets dressed. He intentionally was aiming to shove the human using his paws but eventually, the force wasn't enough to push his face away from him. Joshua furrowed his eyebrows at him, "I mean it! Who will feed me now if you don't take care of yourself?" Fake desperation laced in his voice knowing that he had a bunch of houses to beg food from but Hongjoong was the first to ever welcome him and let him stay so there was that.

A surprised gasp left his lips once he was being carried by the scientist. Once again he was welcomed into the living room and its warm but simple decorations that surrounded the room. "Me? Choosing? Well, this is something I never thought you would decide on." Upon turning the tv on both men were welcomed to an exact moment of a couple having their lovely time together. It made Joshua's cheeks heat up even in cat form and quickly pressed the button to change the channel to end his embarrassment.

"I-I didn't intend on choosing that." What played on tv was a cat show making him even more embarrassed. Using his paws he switched from channel to channel finding a good show to watch with the other that he'll find interesting. "C-Can you find something good to watch? I don't think I'm entirely good at taking my pick." Each show that he's seen were a couple of series that he's seen before whenever he was alone in the apartment. Hongjoong wasn't present at that time and the exact shows that he once streamed before were showing again.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “I know you did not inquire me,” Hongjoong said and pouted, looking at the other. “But to me it is like… more embarrassing if a man sees me. I don’t care about what women think, you know? For all I know they can run away as fast and far as they want.” He huffed, a dark blush on his cheeks while he gently patted Joshua behind his ears. “So that is why I was a little horrified that you saw me .” He chuckled, rubbing his neck. “But it is fine.” At least he had not had Joshua in his bedroom when he had touched himself – or had he? Oh holy.

A small chuckle left Hongjoong’s lips when the other’s paws were on his cheeks. They were soft and Hongjoong really enjoyed it. It was calming and he smiled slightly, looking at the other. “It’s just… it’s different to me.” He his lips nervously and then hummed. “Food?” He then shrugged a bit. Well, he had a few snacks but he had to admit he barely ever properly ate. Ever since Joshua had come into his life he tried his best with providing proper food and even Hongjoong sometimes ate better but not most times.

“Mhm, that sounds comfortable, yes,” Hongjoong nodded and smiled at Joshua before he picked him up, walking towards the living room. “I like watching tv with you.” He hated doing it alone, it always made him realise how lonely exactly he was but now that was nice, having company. Cat or hybrid, it did not matter. He carefully put Joshua down on the couch and sat next to him. “You can choose the show this time!” It would be their first time watching something Joshua liked.

@hongjoong A comfortable purr left Joshua's lips at the soft pat that was added onto his head and ears. This was the affection that he craved for every day whenever his owner came back from work. His ears twitched slightly at the feeling, leaning in to enjoy more of what the male could offer to him. "I never inquired if you have an interest in men or women. If a hyrbid woman in disguise saw your manhood then they would've hid somewhere or ran off faster than you know it than I would."

The mattress was comfortable until a new weight welcomed the feline in question. It took him quite a few minutes to side-eye his owner before shutting them and paw at the male's cheek. There were no claws bared out that could damage his cheek but even so he knew that would never rival the sort of healing powers the scientist possess. "You're so weird I find it amusing. You get flushed over something that I've seen when I'm equally a guy just like you are. Have you eaten yet? You should eat as well."

There was a huge interest that popped into Joshua's head of giving the said man a smack to his rear but gave it a thought and chose to ignore it. After all, this was a new chapter for the both of them to get used to. There may be a few changes here and there and that included Hongjoong changing in the bathroom now. It was something he chose and he can't deal with that. "I'll stay in the couch and let you eat while we watch tv. Does that sound good?"

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “You really do not,” Hongjoong said and shook his head. “I know you helped with keeping this place clean so that is already quite a lot.” He hummed and poked the other’s cheek gently. The flicking tail was so cute and he loved watching him. “What?” Confused he looked at Hongjoong and tilted his head. “I don’t know. I’m fine with just your company, it would really be nice.” He chuckled and smiled at him. “Just your company is a lot better than money.” He had so much money after all, he did not need any of those.

Shaking his head he looked at the cat. “No, it’s not awkward,” he hummed, petting the other’s hair gently. It was soft and he slightly brushed the ears – it was so cute. He had always wondered how they felt and never really was allowed to touch them unless for research and he usually wore gloves during that time. He did not notice the other’s red cheeks as his own got a little more red. “N-no. I don’t like… I don’t like ladies. I like men.” And he turned even more red, whining a bit.

And then suddenly Joshua was rushing away and Hongjoong looked confused after him. “Please come back;” he called out and was not sure if he should follow him. “I’m so sorry,” he said and frowned, slowly following the other and looking around. “Please come back, I am so so sorry.” He just wished he had not said it out loud and he felt so bad about it. “Please, I won’t mention it anymore.” He bit his lip. He gently climbed onto his bed, looking at the cat. “Are you okay?”

@hongjoong “Well, I do need to pay you back somehow. After all you’ve been nothing but kind and buy different kinds of food for me to eat.” His lips had formed a small pout making his tail flick slowly this time in a steady pace rather than before. He equally feels guilty as Hongjoong but for an entirely different reason from him. “What do you desire at the moment that I can provide you with? I’m no cat genie so no requesting for a billion won.” A chuckle escaped his lips remembering all those movies that he was educated on when he would lounge on Hongjoong’s couch while he kneeded on his blanket as a cat.

“Are you sure? I don’t want you to feel awkward between the both of us.” Well, why and how wouldn’t it be awkward when Hongjoong just realized what he was with a hint of suspicion against his own line of thought. He watched the embarrassed man in front of him and blinked when he mentioned him being . It took Joshua a while to realize that yes, he’s seen Hongjoong without clothing many times to even count. “I- You- Y-You know you should be glad I’m not some female cat who saw your !” Joshua half exclaimed feeling equally embarrassed at Hongjoong.

The moment he was done eating the chicken he stood up instantly not wanting to continue the conversation about the male’s private parts any longer. It certainly made his cheeks glow red in color while he moved about to fix up the container that he used. Joshua morphed into a cat and ran off towards Hongjoong’s room. Hopping onto the male’s bed, he relaxed and muttered a few words that slipped off his mouth. “Idiot owner… I- why did he thought of that. What is he trying to point out about his self..”

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ The wiggling tail was adorable and Hongjoong smiled slightly. He could see that he got excited and it was cute to see something positive on Joshua. Especially after he had tried to hide earlier. Hongjoong still felt a little sorry about that. “No,” he admitted gently. “I don’t think there is a way for you to make money yet and if there is, it’s too dangerous at the moment. If it gets less dangerous, I’ll let you, okay?” He just did not want to risk the other’s life. “But I have enough money, really. So please, do not worry about this.” He ruffled the other’s hair gently.

Surprised Hongjoong looked at the other. “I prefer not to be as good as dead to you,” he said and chuckled, nodding a bit. “So don’t worry,” he hummed and his lips slightly. He then tilted his head, listening to him. No, he did not like any of those ideas. “No,” he said gently. “My bed is big and I like cuddles and company. So don’t worry.” He did not mind Joshua to sleep in his bed even though it would be quite a change now. “I’m fine with you in any form. Whatever you prefer, stay in that form, oaky?”

A huff left Hongjoong’s lips. “Yeah but I did not think you’d understand,” he said and pouted a bit, shaking his head. “It’s nothing.” He huffed a bit, still a bit embarrassed about that. “Just… you saw me .” And that was a little weird though he did not entirely mind it. He just hoped Joshua did not feel bad about it. That was not something he had wanted to do.

@hongjoong Excitedly wiggling his tail from side to side it made Joshua's ears perk up at the thought of going out of the house and being looked at as someone normal for a change. He may not be showing his natural features to everyone but it was a start to getting used to the environment that despises him. The way that the scientist mentioned money and giving Joshua some made him quite guilty. From ears up, it moved downwards, "Hey, I can also make money on my own. I don't want you to stress enough for me." But how can he do that? Rob a bank?

"Good or you're as good as dead to me. Our agreement has been settled." Joshua's tail wagged side to side knowing what he'd do from now on in the man's apartment. "Oh Uhm, do you prefer us cuddling in this form or my full cat form? I'm fine with either. I could move into the living room and sleep there if you prefer not to after... this encounter." Now he felt awkward about the topic of affection. It was small but after showing Hongjoong what he was now he felt a bit timid.

"You look bothered. Spill, it's not like you've never told me what bothers you." It was true, Joshua has heard Hongjoong stressed out at work before. The other vented a lot about his past moments and break downs to only have a response back with a simple, 'meow'. He can't advise him, that's just a one-way ticket to confirming what he was.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ “Oh?” Surprised Hongjoong looked at the other. He had not expected him to feel like this but it felt nice. “Surely, we can do that.” Hongjoong did not really leave his house often so there was that but he wanted to help Joshua find his way around. “It’s fine. I have enough money.” He shook his head a bit and smiled at Joshua. “I can give you some or you just tell me what you want to have and I’ll buy it for you, easy as that.” He did not want Joshua to feel inferior because he had no money or anything. He had not chosen this life himself after all.

A soft chuckle left the scientists lips and he hummed in agreement. Yes, chicken was definitely tasty but he was fine with his rice and everything. Humming softly he ate his food, relaxing a bit. He was glad this encounter had taken a good outcome, otherwise he probably would have just broken down. Joshua meant a lot to him, even though just until a few hours ago he had only been a cat to him. “Don’t worry,” Hongjoong said and shook his head. “You can have as many cuddles as you want.” He liked cuddling after all and he liked giving Joshua affection. “So no need to run away.”

Eagerly shaking his head, Hongjoong covered his cheeks and huffed. “No, nothing,” he mumbled and his lips. He wondered if Joshua even had anything like a drive or so but he could not ask him, could he? Or if Joshua was even interested in humans. To the other it probably had just been a human, nothing more. He his lips and shook his head again. “All fine.”

@hongjoong "Hm? lock up? Oh, I was hoping we could go out together outside? I might get lost." Joshua explained his side since he hasn't been going outside a bunch and he was hoping he would get a small tour around with Hongjoong. "I don't have money to buy something to eat or to go home to if I wander off too far." He didn't mean it out as a date but he just wanted to spend the outside world with his owner too in hopes of getting to know him a little better.

"Chicken heals our hearts." Joshua said and continued to munch on his food feeling thankful that he met Hongjoong along the way of him being a stray. Well, looks like a stray but is just a hybrid living off his life being undercover as a normal feline running around the streets. "Cuddles is a must, if you don't cuddle me I'll rather run away than receive less affection and love from you." Joshua fake pouted but knew he couldn't live his life out normally and freely if he did that. Almost as if he depended his whole sustenance and shelter to Hongjoong's place.

Joshua caught Hongjoong blushing wondering what could be the matter. He opted to move closer a bit and poke the other's cheek. "Is there something bothering you? Why are you blushing? Did you remember something from your work place?" Joshua assumed it might be something related to his work and probably him having an interest on one of his co-workers.

@joshua ⌜ wonhoté™ ⌟ "Look, it's already healed," Hongjoong said almost gently and looked at Joshua, clearly seeing that the other was not too happy but there was nothing he could do now, right? "Just don't worry for me, unless it's an internal wound, then please get me to a hospital." He smiled at Joshua and ruffled the other's hair, a small chuckle leaving his lips. "Well, they are pretty," he hummed. "I just like it. It's like artwork on the body and some are really really beautiful!"

Nodding a bit, Hongjoong listened to Joshua and he his lips a little bit. "Thank you," he said, knowing that, of course, it was for Joshua's own good too but it also meant they would work as a team and that was very nice. He listened to the other and nodded then. "I never thought of locking you up," Hongjoong said and blinked a little confused. "The door is open if you want to go out just... please make sure you are safe and covered up." He frowned a little bit. "I mean, your ears are easy to cover with a hat or a beanie. But your tail..." He frowned a bit. "But yes, you can go outside whenever you want. You are not my prisoner." He would never lock up Joshua though he would worry.

Listening to the other he nodded and frowned a bit, not happy that the other had to go dumpster diving but considering how people barely fed strays he could understand it. It had kept him alive. "I'll bring you as much chicken as you want," he then said and looked at Joshua, nodding. "Let me know what you want and I'll get it for you." He then looked surprised he at Joshua. "Well, if you want to still sleep in my bed, that's fine. I wont touch you if you dont want me to or anything." How could he ever do that? "But if you still like cuddles, I'd like that." He blushed a bit, knowing Joshua probably had seen him when he had gone from bathroom to his closet before but he tried to bury that memory.