bebi's room

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ Cause we’re just gonna end up talking in circles again and I’m going to do my best to avoid over complicating things since that’s my biggest issue and overthinking. Cause my emotions are what they are I can’t stop feeling and I won’t force myself to either. But what I can do is calm myself down when I need to and validate myself when I need to. It’s unfair of me to blame you for how I feel towards things you do to me and to make you explain yourself. I’ll be accepting of you not having an answer to everything as well. Simple as that.
/nods surely

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ /nibbles on my lower brim and let’s out a soft sigh after and just giving you a wordless nod

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ You don’t have to do anything. I just want you to see where I’m coming from since I saw where you were coming from. I’ll do what’s best for me so I can do what’s best for our marriage. I’m just letting you know how’s it’s gonna be from now on. But I’m giving you this information now, and I’ll warn you every time. You don’t have to worry about me dipping on you without a word.

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ yeah okay you’re right
but what do you want me to do about that ?
that’s something that already happened half a year ago
I can’t change that

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ no its not!
you left me! you didn't tell me , i dont give a about anyone else, you left me without telling me about where you were going, i had to find out from mino! i was worried sick but at least I told you i needed space, you just disappeared so dont you dare say that's different! and to say im just apart of the "everyone" category.
/scoffs shaking my head

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ no that’s two different things
completely
because I left everyone
where as you
you just left me
/shakes my head at you
yeah you’re welcome

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ im trying to accommodate for you...
ya know what i do a lot of this talking stuff cause i feel like i talk too much every time we have problems so i want you to give me something, anything, but im just gonna do what works best for me, if you're willing to be along with me for this hard ride than great if not then we can figure this out quickly.
when im overcomplicating tell me, ill dip for whatever time i need to and we'll figure out as time moves forward. youre right about everything, it all makes sense. This just reminds me of when you deadass left this entire place without telling me or anyone else and here i am trying to accommodate.
/laughs shaking my head
if i do what's right for me, then everything will fall into place for this relationship. thank you for helping put stuff into perspective for me without meaning to.

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ babe I can’t make you stay if you don’t want to

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ I wouldn't take days every time if ever. this was a special case. i was feeling big emotions this time around, i needed as much time as possible.
but what do you suggest? im willing to work with you on that

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ no I would be
but don’t you think that’s also unfair at the same time ?

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ would you not be willing to?

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ and you just expect me to wait for you every time you need a few days to self soothe ?

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ i understand what you want. but you're not able to soothe me, only i can soothe me at this point since my emotions are too complicated. at this point i'd rather you see me at my best only. what you said earlier made me think. It's unfair to make you responsible for how i feel and react to things you do. i do blame you for things. so to prevent that i'll take responsibility of how i feel only. cause i can also acknowledge my emotions are too much at this point and you don't deserve that. so instead of forcing myself to get over it, ill soothe on my own and come back.

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ i dont want you to dissapear
what donyt you get?

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ okay well when you start to think im overcomplicating things again tell me and I'll disappear for a couple minutes or hours to self soothe.

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ sometimes yes?
i think because you tend to overthink you over complicate things

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ but i feel upset for a reason...
so what do you think my problem is? i make things too difficult

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ i dont think youre overthinking
i just think things are being more complicated then they need to be

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ this complicated? you think im overthinking again?

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ no
but they also dont need to be this complicated either

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ are things supposed to easy?
/raises a brow

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ why do you always make things so complicated?
/sighs and runs a hand through my hair

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ just not to the ones that involve our relationship in the long term because youre not prepared for them

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ i have a lot of answers to things

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ you're not prepared for questions because im not asking them daily.
when it comes to our relationships wellbeing it's always "do i need to have an answer to everything" and well it would be nice if you had an answer to something.

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ because im not prepared for them
but that last part isnt true

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ my questions are bothering you.
you love me just the way i am but one too many questions and now that may not be so true.
/nods

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ /sighs at the sudden questions you keep throwing at me
yes

@yoo chanwook ᵇᵉ'ᵒ so with that concept what's your plan? you dont have an answer to this okay so you just want us to just be normal, casual as if we aren't arguing often?

@kim hyungseo ᵇⁱᵇⁱ why?
do i always have to have an answer to everything?