@♘ Choi San “It’s… not that simple… I’m still fighting to get him back from my last master…”
//my deep voice is a bit more cracked because of how I kinda ended up yelling earlier and yes I had some tears in my eyes because of how much my chest aches thinking of what it is I’m trying to escape from. Like a dark part of my life I wish never happened…my eyes finally really look at you and I just can’t hide my disparity.
“He was born 2 years ago, his mother was also a grizzly hybrid, but she ended up dying after giving birth to him, and idk how my old masters found out but as soon as they heard they took him… and they somehow convinced the community we were in that I had killed the mother in a fit of rage “before she birthed” and because of the treatment I was already getting and my own attitude at the time… hatred towards them. No officials would even hear me out….//sniffles a bit since I’m pretty much crying at this point.
“So now I don’t even get to see him, we’ll… actually I do but it’s only once every few weeks and it’s supervised by the mistresses husband the master… they are currently the ones “mostly raising” him…but I don’t want them too… they aren’t all they say they are and I KNOW they aren’t!”
//my one fist balled up as I just stare at the forest floor.
“Austin the Prince that helped rebuild this place… he and I met a year ago and I think he is working on something… so I’m just waiting… I miss Haden so much though…that’s the only thing they did though that was decent, keep the name I gave him. And I really do hate myself for it all. But… Haden is my son and I know he knows it… last time he really didn’t want to leave me.”
@♖ William Whey *sitting down next to you, I hold your hand in my own, gently squeezing it a bit before I smile weakly at you, understanding why you feel sad* I am sorry you have to be away from your boy *nods lightly at this, biting my lip some* he cant be here because you have to work? because you have no one to watch him? I can watch him for you if you need it. It would give Minah a friend to play with and she would stop scaring the other people
@♘ Choi San “You don’t have to be tho… I can’t believe you followed me out here.”
//he said in some disbelief as San came over and was surprisingly gentle with him. Although it made him wonder if he could tell San … anything. It was hard not too… as if San was just that good at being a listener or someone who cared?
“I’m sorry…. It’s just that I miss someone… someone really precious to me… they can’t be here with me right now.”
//doesn’t like full on get emotional crying or anything but his eyes just look sad. But he does keep a tear from falling on his own face.
@♖ William Whey *seeing you like this I was stunned, not sure what to say or do to help you. then when I hear you speak I smile just a bit before going over to you and hugging you from the side* you can always talk to me no matter what it is Will *kisses your temple before I sit down and begin to rub your back, a soft smile on my face* I am here for you, I always will be okay?
@♘ Choi San /as I finally just stop at a large fallen tree trunk and and slam my fists down, splinters of wood fly a little and a chunk falls off. You can tell I’m definitely upset and my eyes had gone from calm to a more angry and sad look. I don’t have the words to say anything but I’m very much ready to take my frustrations out on that fallen tree again, yet I fight the urge to shift into my full grizzly form and I just drop to the ground and hide my face between my knees, really trying not to lose myself in my anger. Even tho I’m glad for your company I feel bad you have to see this and I just stay quiet again. As if I shut down all together.
@♖ William Whey *feeling worried I quickly follow you out, wondering if I upset you* will, are you mad? I am sorry if I said something or crossed the line...but please talk to me, I am here for you
@♗ Adelaide Kane /gently wraps your arm around mine and laughs
I wasn’t just helping you up ma’am /smiles as we begin walking
I’m happy to be able to take you back out there!
/frowns softly to your question
Well… we can avoid where it happened, the forest is huge /gently rubs your back as I speak, hoping the circles would have a calming effect
@♙ Kyo /gently takes your arm as you help me up, letting go of it when i'm standing
thank you, sir.
/smiles softly and nods lightly
i would love to be back in the forest.. i-i think
/looks down and nibbles on my lip before looking to you
d-do you think it's a good idea to go out there again? /says quietly as we walk
