ok sad stuff ahead pls bear with me

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I'm not using this to bash anyone. I just feel like writing about how loneliness swallowed my life again.

 

Sorry. I've been mostly inactive. I had so much to do in school in such little time and I slowly lost connection to anything that made me happy. Uhm..sorry, most of you probably wish I was gone because I only pop up once every two weeks. I'm sorry if I had to make most of you wait. sorry, if I feel like most of you, my friends, are ignoring me now. Yall made me feel like I had no one to turn to anymore. Slowly, each one of you stopped talking to me. Hey, it's okay, I think I can handle my stuff alone. Even if I am already starting to stare blankly to god knows where—I'm fine. I'm sorry if I was annoying—I know I am always like that and I warned you beforehand but you told me it's fine. I know I ask for so much attention and love but like why would I look for something that even I cannot give to myself.. I just knew that people will leave me. I should've just kept things ic because I can't make connections ooc. oh well—i'm sorry, if I wanted to make friends ooc. I'm sorry if I ask too much. I'm sorry... I'm sorry.. I'm sorry if I'm always apologetic but I feel like I'm always wrong and i feel like yall ignored me when I wanted comfort to tell myself to stop.. stop apologizing. I'm sorry.I'm sorry, I can't stop myself from apologizing.

So yeah—uhh sorry about..all that. feel free to ignore. anyway, I'm used to that already.

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sevendays 5 years ago
what are you saying?? :(( you are not alone okay?? I know we don't always talk much because I kinda ditched giddy and now I'm barely anywhere but I'm here okay? you can always wallpost me or pm me. :(( dont keep it all to yourself. pm me! tell me about your day!! I'm quite busy myself these days I barely have social life tbvh but you can always drop by!!
salteddarkchocolate 5 years ago
hey buddy it's been a while ♡ it's gonna be okay, you have the right to feel the way you do and also!! sorry that i ever made you feel left out or ignored. but don't tell yourself, or try to convince yourself that people could possibly ever wish you were gone. or that people might leave eventually. it's the most painful line of thought to go down and it only amplifies the feeling. it's definitely easier said than done but i'll be around if you ever need someone to lean on. you may feel lonely but you're not alone ♡♡
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