Late Night thoughts...Don't Mind ME

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Created Oct 22, 2019 08:59:49

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Just some late night thoughts about everything

Sometime I wonder what people think about me,do they really care about me?

Or are they really my friends? I really don't know,are they just pretending to care or befriends with me and stab me later on the back.....

Sometime when people ask me " How are you,are you doing okay these days? " I just simply reply that " I'm doing alright......" But that is always 50/50 answer.

I'm doing okay some of the days,but a lot of times I'm just pretending to be happy.People who knows me knows my true feelings,but people who don't know me might just take that answer seriously and just move on with everything.

I usually hide my feelings from people,so they won't worry about me too much....But I know it's obvious that I don't feel good at all,that's because it's all on my face or within my words.

I just want to forget everything and try to live happy,and I know it's hard to keep a smile on your face everyday,but I just can't help to hide my feelings from people especially who I never met before.

I try my best to care for people around me,and even people that I just met.....Was I wrong for doing something or make people happy?

I don't know anymore,somebody help me understand that,Please!

I feel like soulless shell walking on the street sometime,but at the same time I feel exhaustion filled up my body.

I really don't know what I am anymore,I really want to just to disappear and vanish from the world......

I don't know what to do anymore,I tried to take a break and go travel but nothing is working.

I even tried to take a long hiatus to recollect myself,to think through everything ..... I think I talk too much

Sorry to drag this long,people who read this,please just ignore me.....

Good night,I will be delete this in 48 hours....

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attitude 4 years ago

One thing I’ve personally come to realize is that, you’re not meant to be “happy” all the time. More than anything we have these emotions of sadness, anger, happiness, etc. because we aren’t meant to feel them as time passes. I’m not saying don’t be worried about your sadness because it can be scary, or your lack of happy moments but at least I’d suggest, appreciating the happy moments when you have them. Considering we aren’t really meant to be happy all the time, we wish we could be of course. More than anything wanting to be content with the time that is may be of more help. But again these are suggestions and my own outlook on things. Because I find myself overthinking a lot so I try to bring it all together for resolve mentally.

ardenjin 4 years ago

bby if you need to talk to someone or just vent, I'm here for you forever and always. Its okay not be ok sometimes, but I do hope that you'll be happy. You can't make every single person in the world happy, but you can definitely work to make yourself happy by surrounding yourself with those who make you feel like you're appreciated and worth it. I just hope that you'll reach out to those people when you're exhausted and sad, because I'm sure there will be people out there who appreciate you and want to help and talk to you. Please talk to me if you need to! <3