Hey guys~

So due to the crazy events in the world my anxiety and insomnia has been happening more frequently. I constantly feel on edge and like i can't get a full deep breath. Some days are better than others~ but last night was one of the worse panic attacks of my life. It was so bad that i eas shaking and trembling, my hands and feet were ice cold and i couldn't breathe. It felt like someone was squeezing my lungs and esophagus. I am a growm adult, but because it was so bad i literally had to go to my parents room and hold my mom's hand until i felt better but honestly in the moment it feels like its never going to get better. I pride myself on being self-reliant and helping my family out but i never am the one to ask for help. I held my mom's hand at 4am and told her it was bad. I think i scared her because she was shocked and worried about me. I'm grateful to have parents in my life that are always there for me. This anxiety or panic attack whatever it was one of the worst ones I have ever experienced in my life. If you made it this far, thank you and I just needed to explain whats going on to my fellow rp partners and friends. I might be on and off these next few days depending on my mental health and what not. I might be lurking around and giving small replies. It just all depends on how im feeling, i might just be binging anime and going to bed earlier and taking naps more frequently until i feel better. I'm going to talk with the doctor about it tomorrow and ask them what she recommends my next steps to be. Anyways i love you guys and thank you for reading all of this and understanding. 

Love you guys and stay safe. Right now is the time to take the most care of yourself❤