So... Im kinda ticked off

So... you want to keep talking about me, make others hate me, make people feel like they can't trust me.

That is cool, I don't mind it because you never asked for my side about what happened, the rest of them did but you didn't.

You wanted to make me look like im acting like a victim, no sis I am no victim, I have nothing against you, I only had those two things against you that I PM'ed you about. But then... you do some other shady stuff, behind a best friends back. I don't like that, that wasn't cool. You called her your best friend, you thought that you could make people leave an rp I created just because I asked them a simple question. I am okay with that, shows how fake they are in the end. I have done nothing but tried to be the nicest person to everyone on here. I have had my faults since I came back after what had happened. I even took responsibility because it was my account, I should have been more careful after I went on hiatus. I have people who know it wasn't me because my attitude was not the same.

Those people are real friends, the people who hear AcePanda or AceofSpades, they know what kind of person I am, and I appreciate that, if I did anything to make anyone else upset, I am sorry, I don't want to be that person that bully, that , that , who messed with people that I called my friends. Ive been on this site since 2015, you can check my account I really don't care. I have the upmost respect for admins on this site, because yeah I am a admin, I can't code, I ask people to code for me, the only thing im good at as an admin, is adding, removing, and some kind of event ideas? 

But you just want to make secret PMs to my friends people that have been with me since the start who know what type of person I am and how much I care about my friends. But then something caught my attention, you were never nice to me since day one, so i figured it had to be one of maybe 5 or 6 people, but then.. Oh yeah the PM you sent, that hit me really hard because I just wanted to know who, so I asked around, and I still don't know, but I at least can come back on my original account and admit that I was wrong with the secruity of my account and how brash I can be with my words. I don't hate anyone, but I sure do hate you. 

In the words of the Plain White T's: "Hate is a strong word, but I really really really don't like you."

You make me sick because you can't come to me to even ask, everyone else did who is still here, they gave me a chance. But you, you think that you can just fly under the radar with no one even caring. People talk sis, they don't like your attitde, and I know people don't like me either. The friends I have made here since January, you all are awesome, I really appreciate you guys helping me to build my courage back up. It means a lot to me, I care about each and every one of you. But yeah y'all know me by my first name Christian, or some of yall call me Ace or Spades or AcePanda, or Mama Panda, even though ima boy. I miss all my friends on here that have left, and if I could have been there for them I would have. I saw a certain blog post about a week after it came out after what happened. I cried, and I didn't know how to approach either one of you guys so I just joined an RP and gave support to it. Because why would I give support to a person who "outed me", doesn't make sense, there were things in that blog post that made me sick to my stomach, how much you all were hurt. I am sorry, I apologize, I know my words don't mean much but I am.

I have learned a lot since January since coming back, its that people are the same, we are all creatures. But we do not forget anything, I have PMs from each person when it happened. But you were never around. I am sorry but you do not deserved to be named, you will not make me take blame for something that I did not do but I am resposnible for it because it happened under my account. Yeah I made a second account in a recent RP because I was uncomfortable.

Ace