To Be Honest

I really want to knwo if you guys think I'm a pushover or not. Cuz I noticed, and this has gone on for a long while, people take advantage of when I'm just being nice. 

Like I'm trying to make myself a patient person, more so than before, but like honestly, I'm really sick and tired of being nice all the time. But the moment I speak in a way which is truly normal for me, people ing act like I'm being a . So basically, I can't ing live and roam around without being this overly cute baby thing that is so selfless and mindful all the time without slipping and people thinking I'm being an .

I'm tired

I'm tired of putting up this front when I really just want to say "no I want this, no its not okay. No I'm not fine." Because honestly, I do that bull all the time for professional reasons. I don't want to do it just to appease others anymore. 

Like I say it all the time, I'm really not "cute". It's just an act at this point, an act that I'm tired of making. Like I wish to speak so bluntly like some of you without being came at. Of course, some users people are like "well they're just like that" when I know they're trying to be a ing . But if I do it? If I speak bluntly like I do in my real life, then I'm the . Only because this nice and cute persona I developed to make others more comfortable when talking to me is what you all expect of me. And I'm tired.

I will just list right now:

I'm impatient

I'm selfish

I find you a ing head if you expect me to give you attention and stick to something when you don't follow through.

I hate most people and things

I'm generally annoyed half the time and find any sort of exclusiveness in a public forum annoying and downright rude. 

Give me the effort I give you. 

And yeah

There's more things that honestly piss me off and show what kind of person I genuinely am but honestly I'm just .-.

Just note. Please be ing considerate of those around you. This is coming from a person that genuinely doesn't give a half the time, but here I try my very best to be open and considerate to others. But honestly, it's annoying when the consideration is one sided. Like I can't be only giving.

Wow long rant sorry. Anyways I'm tired thanks.