i need...

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Authordeedarling
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not too long ago. my now ex-boyfriend and i broke up. um... and i

honestly, i feel like a piece of . he actually dumped me for uh.

my ex-best friend. and truthfully, i feel like i'm not enough anymore.

i try to hide myself from looking or sounding upset in front of my friends.

i don't like to be a burden. i don't like people seeing me sad because it's like

nothing's the same if i'm sad. people pity me and i hate that feeling. i don't

like crying anymore because i've done it so many times that i'm sick of it..

i run away in the rain because i can clear my thoughts. i feel something.

i get sick because that's all i want to be right now. my family is having

troubles ever since i had to come to boarding school. i don't want to be

so far away from my brother because he needs my help. he never asks

for it, but i offer him my help all the time. i don't know what to do...

not anymore.

so how do i feel...?

"are you ok?" i'm fine. ( i'm not fine, help me. )

"how are you?" i'm just tired. ( i can't take it anymore. )

"want some?" i already ate. ( kidding, i starve myself. )

"what's wrong?" just go away. ( a lot. do you care enough to stay? )

"it's spring. why are you wearing a jacket?" i'm just cold. ( nope. i just don't want you to see my scars. )

"do you need help?" i'm better, i promise. ( it's never been so hard. )

"are you sure you're fine?" i'm okay. ( i feel like dying, sometimes. )

 

can i just get a hug...? or advice.

i want one so bad.

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sw00acer 11 years ago
i sort of understand
how you feel. my boyfriend and i
just broke up yesterday and well,
just don't think about him too much
if he left, it's his loss not yours.
so don't sulk about him and your family
needs you to be strong for them, even
if i don't know what's going on.
be strong<3
illegal 11 years ago
i know how you feel
i really do !
but we need to be strong
independent ladies <3
pristine 11 years ago
i know how you feel. /pats your back.
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