rant

idek so this is a rant about my current situation and... I know I should be doing what I need to do rn but srsly I just need to let this out bc I'm so tired and stuff. I'm sorry guys, you don't have to read this. I just really, really need to let it out.

So, I'm the vice president of our student council. 

And unfortunately, we're swamped with school events for the month of October.

The president of the student council is my friend, the cousin of the owner of my school, and apparently the oldest among the students in my class. He's mature, they said. He's a member of the dance club. And they had a dance competition the past week, so I was left to manage the student council stuff. I tried reaching out to him because I didn't know what to do - well, maybe I do know what to do. But he's the president, so even if I know what to do, eventually I still have to consult him so he could overlook my plans.

I tried to tell him my plans, alright. I had it all settled. 

But now I'm not sure what to do because he won't reply to me. 

I was tasked to do the program for our Teacher's day event tomorrow, and since it's supposed to be a surprise, I cant exactly consult our student council adviser because she's also a teacher. Consulting her would mean she'll know.

I feel so damn horrible now because I basically have to cram and do things my way because the president won't even bother helping me. Like, God, I have so much in my plate right now since I still have to study and make researches for my upcoming inter school competition. 

I can't buy the materials I need because I'm basically broke, so I wont be able to cover for the expenses for the materials.

I can't print the program because my printer gave up on me months ago.

I feel so ing frustrated because of our student council president even if he's basically one of my closest friends.

God, I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to cry.