Hello.
Today I'll be leaving the roleplaying world as a whole. And this time, I'm leaving for real. I hope. I'm trying to write this as fast as I can before I stop myself.
I found my diary today. And although few entries were written by me, that was all I needed to notice how much I changed. Before I began to roleplay, the world was a beautiful place. I loved my family, I was a nice and positive kid. A couple of months later, I began roleplaying. I had tried it before, but didn't really like it. This time around, I met nice people, began friendships, and had fun. But over time, I became negative. I hated the world. I hated myself. I hated my parents. It all happened in just a couple of months. Did I notice this change? No. Did everyone else? Yes. But anyway. Fast forward to today, so two years later, I'm really messed up. I've convinced myself to think that at this point, I'm happy. I'm finally happy. But when I read this diary of mine... I noticed that I'm not truly happy. I started to think of how bad my personality is.
Two years ago, I wanted mean people to change. I wanted bad people to realize that they were bad. But now... I'm one of those bad people.
And I want to change myself.
This is a hard decision, but I'm leaving the roleplaying world. And after today, all of my friendships I have formed will be put behind me.
Please, I know that you might be mad or sad. Heck, maybe you're both.
Just remember that I'll never forget any of you, and that I hope to maybe bump into one of you guys in the streets one day. So, before I turn around and think that this is a bad choice, I will end this letter here. Oh how I wish to write messages to each and every one of you. Gosh, I have to stop rambling.
Goodbye.
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