WHEN ONE IS ASKED ABOUT THEIR PAST AND HOW IT WAS LIKE GROWING UP, THEY WOULD OFTEN BE ABLE TO TELL YOU BITS AND PIECES OF IT ONE WAY OR THE OTHER. I MEAN, THERE HAS GOT TO BE SOME PARTS OF YOUR PAST THAT YOU ARE SOMEHOW ALRIGHT WITH TELLING, RIGHT? WELL, IT IS QUITE A DIFFERENT STORY FOR EZRA ALL TOGETHER. IF YOU EVER ASKED EZRA ABOUT HIS BACKGROUND, HE WOULD IMMEDIATELY DISMISS THE QUESTION AND REPLY WITH A SIMPLE: "PAST IS PAST, DARLING. YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH ME NOW; NOT FOR ME BACK THEN." 

 

EZRA GREW UP IN NEW JERSEY WITH HIS FAMILY WHICH consists of HIS FATHER, HIS MOTHER, AND HIS LITTLE SISTER. EZRA'S FATHER WORKS AS CHIEF OF POLICE IN THEIR LOCAL POLICE DEPARTMENT, WHILE EZRA'S MOTHER WORKED FULL-TIME AS A NURSE IN ONE OF THE HOSPITALS NEAR THEIR NEIGHBORHOOD. EZRA ACTUALLY ONLY TAKES A LIKING TO ONE OF THE PEOPLE IN HIS FAMILY AND THAT IS HIS LITTLE SISTER. AT THE AGE OF TWELVE, EZRA HAD ALREADY BEEN TAKING CARE OF HIS EIGHT YEAR OLD SISTER WHILE BOTH HIS PARENTS WEREN'T HOME DUE TO THE DUTIES THEY HAD TO ATTEND TO AT THEIR RESPECTIVE OCCUPATIONS. EZRA WAS ALWAYS THE ONE WHO GOT TO PLAY BARBIE DOLLS AND TEA TIME WITH HIS LITTLE SISTER AND HE DIDN'T HATE A SINGLE MOMENT OF IT. MOST PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT THIS IS WHERE HIS FEMININE PERSONALITY ORIGINATED FROM, BUT THE PRINCESS HIMSELF WOULD BEG TO DIFFER. 

 

YEARS PASs and ezra finally reaches his years where he enters highschool. his elementary days didn't contain much action besides the countless of times ezra had to come home to the same all the time, which was mainly just his parents yelling at each other and his little sister crying about it. that kind of thing ceased as ezra grew due to the fact ezra's mother rarely came home as much due to being a workaholic. EZRA AND HIS LITTLE SISTER WERE LEFT TO DEAL WITH THEIR EXTREMELY STRICT FATHER WHO NEVER REALLY LEARNED HOW TO NOT RAISE HIS VOICE AT HIS OWN CHILDREN. PROBABLY WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOUR DAD WORKS AS A POLICE OFFICER AFTER ALL. ANYWAYS, EZRA WAS ALRIGHT DURING THE FIRST YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL. hOWEVER, THINGS WEREN'T ALWAYS GOING TO STAY THAT WAY IN THE LIFE OF A BOY WHO WAS STILL TRYING TO FIND OUT WHO HE ACTUALLY WAS.

 

eZRA REALIZED THAT HE NEVER REALLY KNEW WHO HE TRULY WAS DUE TO THE FACT HE WAS ALWAYS CARING ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE ALL THOSE YEARS BEFORE. HE NEEVER REALLY GAVE HIMSELF THE CHANCE TO DISCOVER WHO HE WAS ENTIRELY AND NOW THAT HE WAS SOMEHOW OLDER, THE JOURNEY OF SELF-DISCOVERY WAS KNOCKING AWAY AT HIS DOOR. WHEN DID EZRA REALIZE THIS, YOU ASK? WELL, IT WAS WHEN HE WAS INVITED TO A BOYS NIGHT OUT BY SOME OF HIS MALE CLASSMATES DURING HIS SECOND YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL. HIM AND THE BOYS PRETTY MUCH DECIDED TO HAVE A PARTY AT SOMEONE'S PLACE. DESPITE IT BEING A BOYS NIGHT OUT, SOME OF HIS CLASSMATES WERE LUCKILY ABLE TO INVITE A FEW GIRLS TO THE PARTY. "WHAT KIND OF PARTY WOULD IT BE IF WE DON'T INVITE CHICKS, RIGHT?" IS WHAT THEY WOULD ANSWER IF YOU EVER ASKED THE REASON BEHIND THEIR DECISION TO INVITE GIRLS TO THIS THING THEY PLANNED. THE PARTY JUST INVOLVED A FEW PARTY GAMES AND TONS OF JUNK FOOD AND SODA, BUT THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT WAS WHEN THEY PLAYED THE GAME CALLED "7 MINUTES IN HEAVEN". EZRA COULDN'T EXACTLY REMEMBER HOW THE GAME WENT... BUT HE CAN ABSOLUTELY REMEMBER WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO HIM WHEN IT WAS HIS TURN. HE HAD TO GO IN WITH ONE OF THE GIRLS AND WHILE THEY WERE BOTH IN THE CLOSET, THINGS ENDED UP TAKING AN UNEXPECTED TURN ON EZRA'S PART. APPARENTLY THE GIRL WHO WAS WITH EZRA IN THE CLOSET THAT NIGHT HAD ALREADY BEEN STEALING GLANCES AT HIM EVERY SO OFTEN. SHE HAD TAKEN A LIKING TO HIS FACE AND AS MINUTE BEGAN TICKING AWAY, THE GIRL TOOK IT AS AN OPPROTUNITY TO FORCE EZRA INTO A DEEP, HEATED KISS. ONE THING LED TO THE OTHER AND ALL THAT COULD BE SAID FOR NOW WAS THAT SOMEONE CAME OUT THAT CLOSET WITH A BLACK EYE WHILE THE OTHER CAME OUT WITH A LOT OF QUESTIONS. YOU CAN GIVE A GUESS AS TO WHICH IS EZRA IN THAT SCENARIO. 

 

AFTER THAT WHOLE INCIDENT, EZRA BEGAN QUESTIONING HIMSELF AND IT TOOK HIM ABOUT A YEAR TO REALLY GET A GRASP OF WHAT HE ACTUALLY WANTS AND WHO HE ACTUALLY IS. HOWEVER, EZRA WANTED TO MAKE SURE OF EVERYTHING BEFORE HE JUMPED TO CONCLUSIONS. NOT EXACTLY KNOWING HOW TO CONFIRM HIS GUESSES, EZRA ATTEMPTS TO VISIT A GAY BAR DURING ONE OF HIS WALKS HOME FROM SCHOOL. IT WAS A STRETCH REALLY SINCE EZRA WASN'T OF LEGAL AGE TO ENTER THOSE KINDS OF THINGS. LUCKILY FOR HIM, A DRAG QUEEN SPOTS HIM AS SHE WAS WALKING OUT THE DOOR. THE DRAG QUEEN'S NAME WAS TANYA AND SHE WAS KIND ENOUGH TO HAVE A LITTLE CHAT WITH YOUNG EZRA THAT FATEFUL NIGHT. IT HONESTLY MESMERISED EZRA TO SEE THIS DRAG QUEEN LOOK ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS DESPITE WHO SHE REALLY WAS BEHIND ALL THAT MAKEUP AND GLAMOUR. A BIG PART OF EZRA WANTED TO DRESS UP IN BEAUTIFUL APPAREL THAT COULD ONLY BE SEEN IN THE FEMALE SECTION, TO PUT ON MAKEUP LIKE THE PRETTY MODELS IN 'AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL', AND TO WEAR BADASS HIGH HEELS TO STRUT HIS STUFF MORE PROPERLY. EZRA WANTED TO BE BEAUTIFUL; HE WANTED TO BE A PRINCESS THAT COULD MAKE MEN SWOON.

 

AFTER FINALLY COMING TO TERMS WITH HIS UALITY AND WHAT HE WANTED TO BE, EZRA WAS HAPPY. HE WAS HAPPY THAT HE COULD FINALLY TELL HIMSELF THAT HE WAS NO LONGER LOST AND THAT HE HAD ALREADY FOUND HIMSELF. ALTHOUGH, THINGS STILL DON'T COME THAT EASY. THINGS ARE NEVER EASY WHEN YOU ARE GAY AND A VERY FLAMBOYANT ONE AT THAT. BULLIES, HOMOPHOBES, AND THE LIKE SURROUNDED EZRA IN SCHOOL ONCE HE BEGAN WEARING 'GIRLY' THINGS. HE WAS PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED FOR SHOWING EVERYONE WHO HE SAW HIMSELF AS AND IT REALLY HURT HIM. IT HURT HIM MORESO WHEN HIS FATHER RECEIVED A CALL FROM THE PRINCIPAL TO REPORT TO HIM THAT HIS SON HAD GOTTEN HIMSELF INTO A TERRIBLE FIST FIGHT WITH ONE OF HIS CLASSMATES. WHEN EZRA EXPLAINED WHAT HAD HAPPENED AND WHY HE WAS BEING BULLIED IN THE FIRST PLACE, HIS FATHER ACTED EXACTLY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IN HIS SCHOOL. HIS FATHER TOLD HIM TO STOP BEING GAY UNLESS HE WANTED TO BE DISOWNED. EZRA WOULDN'T MIND BEING DISOWNED IF IT MEANT HE GETS TO BE WHO HE WANTS WITHOUT HAVING TO DEAL WITH PARENTS WHO OBVIOUSLY DON'T GIVE A ABOUT HIM... BUT HE CHOOSES TO AGREE TO HIS FATHER'S TERMS INSTEAD AND IT WAS ALL BECAUSE OF HIS LITTLE SISTER. SHE NEEDED HIM AND HE CAN'T BE SELFISH ENOUGHT O JUST LEAVE HER ALONE WITH THEIR PARENTS LIKE THAT. EVEN AFTER COMING OUT TO ONE OF HIS PARENTS, EZRA HAD TO GO BACK IN THE CLOSET AGAIN UP UNTIL NOW. EZRA NEVER TOLD HIS DAD OR HIS MOM OR HIS SISTER THAT HE WAS STILL GAY TILL NOW AND NEITHER DID HE COME HOME TO THEM ACTING THE WAY HE DOES OUTSIDE OF THEIR HOUSE. 

 

AS SOON AS COLLEGE CAME AROUND, EZRA WAS ABLE TO TAKE A BREAK FROM HIS TOXIC LIFE WITHIN HIS HOUSEHOLD SINCE HE NOW DORMS AT HIS FRAT'S MANSION IN IKIGAI. EZRA MADE SURE TO STUDY HARD TO GET INTO SUCH A REFINED UNIVERSITY LIKE IKIGAI AND HE WAS VERY THANKFUL THAT HE GOT ACCEPTED INTO IT. EVEN WITH SUCH A GOOD UNIVERSITY, HOWEVER, EZRA WAS STUCK WITH HAVING TO MAJOR IN SOMETHING THAT ONLY HIS DAD WANTED. EZRA ACTUALLY WANTS TO BE A THEATRE OR BROADWAY ACTOR WHEN HE GROWS UP, BUT HIS FATHER WANTED HIM TO BE A POLICE OFFICER JUST LIKE HIM. WITH HIS CONSTANT FEAR OF HAVING TO DEAL WITH HIS FATHER'S REJECTION AND DISAPPOINTMENT AGAIN, EZRA ACCEPTS TO MAJOR IN LAW, CRIME, AND JUSTICE TO PLEASE HIM.

 

NOW, THERE IS ACTUALLY A TRAUMATIC PART OF EZRA'S LIFE THAT HAPPENS DURING HIS FIRST YEAR IN COLLEGE. IT WOULD BE NICE TO PUT IT ON HERE, BUT I THINK IT WOULD BE MUCH MORE FUN IF EZRA HIMSELF TOLD YOUR CHARACTER ABOUT IT OR YOUR CHARACTER JUST FINDS IT OUT THEMSELVES. BECAUSE OF THIS EVENT IN EZRA'S LIFE, EZRA HAS PRETTY MUCH BEEN AFRAID OF FALLING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE. 

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