i'm moving on - it's less about 'needing to leave this place' and now more of an issue that i can't find what held me here in the first place. maybe it was friends, but even now i find it hard to balance work-school-fun and then some. it's not that friend's are a burden, but i haven't seen any of you the past few days, weeks, months, however-long-it's-been-now purely because it just hasn't happened. it was both of us and yet neither of us at all. 

i have a lot to go ahead and accomplish. tonight, passwords will change and i'll probably lose this account forever. it holds a lot of memories - old, recent, forgotten and remembered. i guess moving on hurts a lot less than i always envisioned it to. 

its a little hard to come to terms with the past four years, and how much has changed. i met so many people, whether you remember me or not, and whether we were friends. i'll try listing all the usernames i had at one point or another, and you'll see that somewhere or another, you've seen me. 

i'm not bitter, i'm not sad (not really), i'm not feeling too accomplished (i could have enjoyed this place more if i had taken it far less seriously and committed to it), and a small part of me wonders if i'll come back: a moth to the flame. summer's drawing close, so there's a chance, but a slim one. 

i was bitter a few weeks ago, but now im just... uncaring. bogged down with other things. i hope this place makes its way around, or finds something more than non-au (supernatural-non-au defeats the purpose of non-au, but what do i know? what do i care? what does it matter?)

so, farewell from:

- Amir, or temerity, ohkrisus, yifabulous, yeolaconda, dui-jjang, drxgxn, ailurophilia, su-, atrophy, theincubus, succubus, e-thos, ethereal, empirical, sweetkrisus, dingus, kriseu, taozishusbando, oneokrock (and probably many, many other usernames).

ps. GJ (the boytoy) wanted me to emphasize that its not his fault i'm so busy. it's really not, haha.