✕ gazebo

Jongdae shuddered softly as the older pulled out of him but smiled tiredly. He then began tracing over the male's chest. "Hopefully. I'll try for you." He wrote pecking the older on the lips again before closing his eyes, cuddling his head to Minseok's chest. All he could hear was their breathing and the wind blowing, the peacefulness was very comforting along with the warmth the older provided no matter how cold the wind was. Soon, it got dark and the older male began to get up. Chen sat up and winced at the soreness on his lower back.
"Let me help you get ready, and then maybe you can stay over in my room tonight. That is if you want to." He heard Minseok say and smiled, nodding as he was helped to get dressed. When they were done, Jongdae signed and mouthed, "Yes please. And thank you, hyung." Before they left, he grabbed his notepad and pen, and thanked the maids that began cleaning their mess.

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok stopped jerking his hand when he felt the warmness hit his stomach. The older male slid out of Jongdae, and he laid beside him while cupping his face. Minseok widen his eyes when he heard the words come from Jongdae's mouth. "J-Jongdae?" Smiling wide, Minseok pecked the younger male's lips softly. "Your voice is beautiful." Nodding slowly, Minseok gently pulled Jongdae into a hug. "Hopefully I can hear more of it in the future." Nodding again, Minseok moved Jongdae's head onto his chest for a while. Though after about 20 minutes, Minseok saw that it was getting dark out so he thought that they could get dressed and go back inside. The older male stood up and dressed himself before helping out his lover. "Let me help you get ready, and then maybe you can stay over in my room tonight. That is if you want to." Minseok said as he helped Jongdae into his clothes.

(Thanks for understanding hun ^^)

@[f] kim minseok Jongdae couldn't hold in his little half moans. Not like he was trying to anyways. He let out all the noises he was able to make, surprising himself with a soft but shortly long moan. The friction of Minseok's hand on his length and the feeling of being filled to the brim was pushing him to the edge. He gasped at the warm liquid that was shot deep into him making him whimper and mewl in pleasure as his stomach tightened and he clenched around the older male's inside of him before he hit his high, releasing all over their stomachs. Panting hard, as Chen calmed down, he wanted to speak. So he did, he forced the almost incoherent words out of his mouth as he tried to sound out the three words that brought him happiness. "Sa..nghae." saranghae. He tried to say saranghae. But for now it was better than he could ever do. He spoke his first few syllables to his lover.

() it's okay^^ I hope you're feeling better soon.♡

@[f] kim jongdae Smiling while panting, Minseok paused for a while when he felt the blood against him also. His smile faded, because he didn't like the thought of hurting his lover. Though, because he heard the pleasure whimpers leave the younger male's lips, Minseok went back to ing in Jongdae again. "It's okay to let out noises.." Minseok whispered into the younger male's lips. He then reached down, and he started to tug at Jongdae's member. The older male then started to jerk and quickly. The heat, and tightness was making him crazy. Also the flush face, and the cute sounds his lover was making was driving him crazy. "I'm close.." Minseok moaned out while he was pecking Jongdae's lips. "I love you.." The older male said as he ed a few more times, and he finally came hard and deep inside the younger male. While Minseok was coming down from his high, he kept jerking his wrist to let the younger male to have his own high.

(So sorry that this is short..I've been tired and bleh feeling lately.)

@[f] kim minseok Jongdae was a whimpering mess under the older. It was basically the only sound he could make. He whined almost inaudibly as Minseok had retracted his fingers. His breathing hitched as he laid his eyes on the older's length. It was humongous, to him at least. He wondered if it was even going to fit. Biting his lower lip, he looked up innocently at the older and nodded. It was a new pain to him, as he was stretched widely. It made him feel like he was ripped into two. He could feel the bit of blood run down his , indicating he was no longer a . The mute whimpered softly, hugging onto Minseok tightly, unconsciously scratching his nails on the older's back. He tried to relax and think of the pleasure as the male had said but it was hard to. The tears ran down his face, uncontrollably, as he was to yet get used to the older's size while he began to move. However, the tears weren't long lasted when a small yelp like mewl escaped Chen's mouth. Minseok has once again found his prostate, making him whimper as much he could, ignoring the pounding in his head that resulted from forcing out the little sounds from his throat. With his cheeks still tainted with tears that were no longer running from his eyes, Jongdae allowed himself to be given into the older male, withering in pleasure under Minseok as he moved in and out of him.

@[f] kim jongdae "Found it.." Minseok said softly in Jongdae's ear. The older male couldn't help, but just to love the look on the other male's face right now. It was the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. "I love you Jongdae..I really do." Minseok said as he started to abuse Jongdae's prostate. After a while of pushing his fingers deeper and faster; Minseok thought that Jongdae was finally ready for the real thing. Sliding his fingers slowly out of his lover, Minseok took off the rest of his own clothes. He spit on his hand to use as some type of lube. "This is going to hurt, but I just want you to think about the pleasure..Okay?" The older male bent down so that he could kiss Jongdae's neck, as he slowly slid inside of Jongdae. Minseok then let a soft groan when he felt how tight and warm the younger male was. "Jongdae.." The older male groaned out the other's name every now and then. "..No one will ever tear us apart." He said those words as he slowly started to roll his hips,so he could find that bundle of nerves to help ease the pain.

@[f] kim minseok Jongdae blushed wildly as he felt more exposed than ever. He winced as the first finger intruded his entrance. The pain was something he never felt before. We'll it wasn't really painful, but it was extremely uncomfortable. Nodding at the older male's words, he tried his best to relax around the foreign feeling of something entering him. Chen felt his heart pulsating faster as the pain gradually became pleasure. He opened his mouth, panting hard, the more he was stretched. Sooner, more than later, he felt the points of the latter's fingers hit the overloading bundle of nerves. The friction of Minseok's fingers against his prostate made his arch his back toward the older male and mewled softly. Closing his eyes, Chen tilted his head back grinding down gently against Xiumin's fingers trying to get them deeper in him.

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok watched Jongdae his fingers. He was so even more, like that was even possible. The elder watched with wide eyes, and he felt his own get harder as it twitched in his pants. was even aching for some type of release. "Jongdae.." Minseok mumbled from his breath. He then bit his bottom lip when the younger male released his fingers from his mouth. "Alright..This is going to hurt." Nodding as he lifted Jongdae's thighs, so he could get better access. Sliding one finger into the tight ring of muscles, Minseok widen his eyes again when he could feel how tight he was. He has never had with someone that was this tight, and Minseok felt super happy that Jongdae would give it up just for him. That's when Minseok felt like he was actually important, and that he had someone that he need to protect and live for. "Relax, and just think about the pleasure and not about the pain." Nodding as he slid another finger inside of Jongdae, Minseok started to scissor the two fingers to stretch him out more.

@[f] kim minseok The mute blushed as Minseok pulled down his pants even more. Hearing the three words come out of the male's mouth made him smile. 'Me too. I love you too.' He thought. Chen shivered when he felt the older male the base of his . He felt little jolts of tingliness run up his body. With every little touch, Jongdae became more and more relaxed. Letting out a soft mewl, Jongdae was surprised that he even let out a sound. He smiled softly, and reassuringly, as the older male came back up to kiss him. Chen nodded and opened his mouth, taking the two fingers in and began . As he did so, he felt himself grow harder, if possible, as he got more . His blush grew a bit brighter as he felt the older's eyes on him as he on the latter's fingers until he decided to pull away.

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok slowly pecked Jongdae's neck, and he smiled when he heard the male started to moan softly. He then tilted his head, and he slowly slid down the rest of Jongdae's pants. Minseok then slid down the young male's body. "I love you.." The elder nodded, and he then gave Jongdae's member a long down the base. Minseok started to rubbed Jongdae's thighs, hoping that he would relax more but he was super happy that the other male also wanted him too.
After Minseok engulfed the hard length in his mouth, and he bobbed his head up down a few times; Minseok wanted more. He wanted to make love to this male. Never thinking that he would even want to 'make love', and not just . Minseok slid back up Jongdae's body, and he pecked his lips. "I hope you're ready for this." Minseok nodded and he placed two fingers in front of his mouth. " on these for a minute." The elder nodded again, and he smiled wide to himself.

@[f] kim minseok Chen's heart was pulsating rapidly against his chest. It was pounding so hard he was sure the elder could hear it- or at least feel it. Saying he was nervous was quite a big understatement. As his shirt was peeled off of him, he felt a bright blush infiltrate his cheeks. "Beautiful.." he heard the older say. He was beautiful?
'How can one be beautiful when they are covered in so many scars and marks?' He thought to himself. Sure, the nurses has said that the scars were completely gone but to him, he would always remember them. They filled his heart and his body, haunting him for the rest of his life. However, there was one scar that had never left. It was on his lower back. The one that caused him to be hospitalized for losing soo much blood.
The muted boy was snapped out of his thoughts when a warm hand was placed on his . Letting out a shaky breath and silent gasp, Jongdae shivered at the touch and opened his mouth as if to let out a moan but he couldn't make a sound. He was beyond frustrated but he felt eased when he was near Minseok. Everything felt okay when they were together. His frustration melting away, the muted boy tilted his head to the side, slightly, allowing the older male more access as he ran his hand through the chubby cheeked boy's hair. Because of his soundlessness, all he could do was to pant at the light friction that was created by the male on top of him.

@[f] kim jongdae Nodding slowly, Minseok was surprised that he would be Jongdae's first time. Minseok actually hated himself that he wasn't a . He did things in his pass that he isn't proud of, and what he has told this male wasn't even the whole story. "I'll be gentle.." Minseok said as he nodded and he pecked Jongdae's ear. He then sat slightly up so that he could take off his shirt. After he got his own shirt off, Minseok slid Jongdae's shirt off of him. "Beautiful.." Smiling wide to himself, Minseok then unbuckled his own pants and the male's underneath him. Though Minseok didn't take them off, he did slide his hand down Jongdae's pants. Biting down onto his bottom lip, because he was surprised that Jongdae was this hard already. Rubbing his hand up and down on Jongdae's length, he leaned down to peck his neck.

@[f] kim minseok "Tell me to stop if you don't want this." He heard the older say. He smiled and thought, 'I want this.. please don't stop.'
Kissing Minseok back, he felt no danger whatsoever. As he was laid back, he felt the rare gentleness that he had never encountered before. He loved it. He loved the feeling that he was taken care of. The feeling to know he had an option. As Chen's head rested onto the pillow, and the blanket over them, he felt satisfied to know that the workers wouldn't do anything to stop the man on top of him. Although they were watching they would never try to fix anything. For once, he was happy to know that they wouldn't.
Nodding with a soft blush, his eyes traced over the elder's bare chest, only to blush harder, before adverting his eyes back to Minseok's brown eyes.
Using his fingers again, he moved to trace his next message under the older male's collarbone. "Please go easy, it's my first time... you're my first."

@[f] kim jongdae Smiling wide when he felt the gentle fingers trace onto his skin, he nodded and starting to kiss the younger male again. "Tell me to stop if you don't want this." Minseok then gently laid Jongdae onto the floor. Minseok thank god that the gazebo had pillows, and blankets for people who wanted to picnic on the lawn or something like that. Grabbing a pillow and resting it under Jongdae's head, Minseok also grabbed a large and warm blanket to cover them up. Chucking to himself, Minseok broke the kiss for a minute. "Isn't it weird that they have these here?" Nodding again, Minseok took off his shirt and cupped the younger male's face.

@[f] kim minseok Shivering slightly, as the elder's fingers slipped under his shirt. Chen couldn't help but smile into the kiss, as his heart danced happily, after hearing those words. Jongdae moved his hand over to Minseok's arm and used his finger to trace the words, "Me too." On his skin, slowly. It felt nice and refreshing to feel liked, unlike how he's felt hated and useless his whole life before. It was a whole new experience, it being the first time he's felt this way. 'I'm so glad.' He thought as he moved his hand to rest it over Xiumin's shoulder again.

@[f] kim jongdae He couldn't stop. 'Stop Minseok..You should stop this.' He kept telling himself that in this head, but his heart kept screaming no. Slipping his hands down towards the hem of Jongdae's shirt, he gripped tightly onto it. He couldn't pull them away, nor did he lift the shirt off of him. Tugging on the shirt with out realizing that Minseok was doing that to the smaller male. "Jongdae.." He kept mumbling in between kisses. This was the first time in Minseok's life that he felt something so strong for someone. "I..Like..You.." Minseok said those three words in between kisses, and he then slipped some fingers underneath Jongdae's shirt.

@[f] kim minseok As they kissed, Jongdae felt his heart pulse go faster with each passing second. He felt genuinely happy for the first time in so long. He didn't want Minseok to stop, he didn't want to stop. Letting the kiss grow deeper, Chen wrapped his arms around the older males neck and allowed it to drape from his shoulders. Jongdae knew, by doing this, meant that he was giving into the unknown feeling that beat inside his heart. He knew that whatever he was feeling could be either a bad or good thing for him. He knew that he could be terribly hurt as well, but he also knew that he was going to be ready for what the feeling brought him. Then he realized... 'what if he doesn't feel the way I do? What would I do then?'

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok tilted his head, before he got any closer to the mute boy. The older male chuckled to himself, and he ruffled Jongdae's hair. "You're so cute, I hope you know that." Nodding slowly, Minseok so close that their lips were not brushing each other. Oh how Minseok loved the taste of this male in front of him. He knew that he had to protect, and not let anyone touch his person. Minseok smiled as he was now fully pressing his lips on Jongdae's again. "If you want me to stop, just push me away.." Minseok mumbled against the mute male's lips. He then pushed even closer, and made the kiss deeper than before.

@[f] kim minseok Hearing the elder panic a bit, he moved his hands and rubbed Minseok's shoulders in a calming manner, before placing his hands in his lap. As soon as Xiumin moved his hand away, he suddenly and immediately missed the warmth that radiated from the skin contact. Looking away slightly, a blush appeared on Jongdae's cheeks as he nodded slowly. Chen didn't know what to feel nor do. He didn't move away as Xiumin leaned in closer. He stayed still and calm as his heart raced a thousand miles per hour. He wanted to get closer but he was mildly afraid that his heart would pop at the pace of its beats. Gathering up his courage, he looked back at the elder in the eyes and smiled sincerely yet shyly, waiting for a response from the elder.

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@[f] kim jongdae Gripping slightly tighter on the back of Jongdae's neck, he wanted to make this kiss go deeper. Though he slightly pouted when he felt the other male pull away from his lips. Minseok tilted his head and he started to actually freak out slightly. "I'm so sorry, Jongdae. I didn't mean to. Well I did, but I mean.." Minseok sighed and he let go of the other male's neck. He took a drink of water, and he looked Jongdae in the eyes. "..Did you like it as much as I did?" Minseok asked as he slightly leaned in, but he wasn't going for a kiss. All he wanted to do was be close with this male, and he didn't know why. He has never felt like this with anyone.

@[f] kim minseok Nodding as Minseok spoke, he agreed that the elder wouldn't be able to control his liking for younger boys but it didn't mean that he couldn't overcome his drug addiction. Jongdae's eyes widened and his body tensed slightly. He knew if they were caught doing this it would lead to a cruel and unusual punishment from the church. However, he didn't care quite frankly. He began to relax and close his eyes as he kissed the elder back. As he placed his hands on Minseok's chest, he could feel the cold stares of the workers that were 'in hiding for our safety'.
Although it was his first kiss, Chen's lips moved, following the elder's lead, as if they'd been doing it forever. No wait... rewind that... it was his first kiss. He knew that a normal person would have felt a upsetting shock that his first was taken by someone he had just met but he didn't. There wasn't a single drop of anger for the man who had just stolen the chance to be his first. Pulling away slightly, only when the older male did, he smiled softly.

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok slightly jumped when he felt Jongdae rub and pat his back. This was the first time in his life that he felt like someone actually cared for him. The older male shook his head, and he looked down at the empty plates. "I remember it all..I can't help it that I love younger people.." He then looked over at the slightly younger male. Minseok took the note pad and he read it closely. He just nodded, while smiling. Minseok then set the note pad down on the table slowly. Lifting his hands up, Minseok set his hands on Jongdae's cheeks. "I like you..You're the nicest person I've met in here.." Minseok nodded and he leaned slightly closer to the younger male. "I'm going to do something, that you might not like but I just need to do it." Nodding slowly, and he his own lips. After leaning even closer, Minseok finally planted his lips on Jongdae's lips.

@[f] kim minseok Jongdae blinked and frowned as he heard the elder tell his story. Quickly writing down, "You're not a disgusting pig. You were just under the influence of drugs. I don't blame you^^" before getting up and sitting next to the elder. Lightly rubbing Minseok's back, he showed him his message and gave him a small smile.
Sure, after hearing that, Chen should have been engrossed by the elder but weird enough, he wasn't. Giving him a light hug, he knew that the workers were watching them but he could care less. He knew because they were being watched, they would be reported right away but he just wanted to make sure that the elder thought better of himself and was okay.
Pulling away slightly, he wrote, "You've done this once and you ralized it was wrong. It's better than most people who do it for their own satisfaction. Plus you weren't even really sober. I know you can get through your addictions, hyung. Believe in yourself^^ I'll even help you if there's any way I could." He smiled sincerely at Minseok as he showed him his message, hoping that he comforted the elder in some way.

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok handed the note pad back to the younger male, so that he didn't have to mouth anymore. The elder rubbed his temple when he noticed some guards and doctors watching him eat with this younger male. "I was just wondering. I'm not going to hurt you." Minseok whispered the last part. "I'm in here for having with a 12 year old when I was 21.." Minseok started to tell his story, and he didn't even notice that he was. "..I don't even remember the night. I must have been on drugs, but when I woke up I was . My friends younger brother was standing, but then I saw him limping away when he saw that I was up." The older male covered his eyes with his hands and he sighed. "Ever since then, I realized that I'm a disgusting pig that likes to have with younger people while I'm on drugs.."

@[f] kim minseok Jongdae looked back at Minseok in wonderment. He didn't even have to think to answer that question. "Of course not, hyung." Was he crazy? No. Even if he knew that the elder could be a danger to him, he believed that Minseok wouldn't harm him in any way. "Even if you were, I wouldn't be scared of you." He mouthed, since he still didn't get his notepad back yet. To be honest, Chen liked hanging with Minseok. e and or not, Minseok was Minseok. He for some unknown reason felt safe. He could be himself without a fear of being beat. Shaking off the thought of his past, he continued mouthing, "Why do you ask?", as he tilted his head.

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok took the note pad while he had a smile on his face. He read the pad carefully and he chuckled to himself. Shaking his head and responding with a soft face. "It's just my baby face..I wish I didn't have one, but it actually works." Minseok then wanted to slap himself when he actually started to think ed things about Jongdae. He started to picture what he would like underneath him, or even on top of himself. Minseok looked at the younger male, and he sighed. "Do you think I'm dangerous?" Minseok asked all of sudden, but he asked in such a gentle voice.

@[f] kim minseok Jongdae blushed harder and smiled when the elder ruffled his hair. Pouting a bit, but then smiled, he fixed his hair before eating again. He wrote as he ate. "Really? If I look that young, you do know that you look younger right? If I were a stranger taking a one glance at you, I would've thought you were 13 or 15." When he was finished with most of the fruits and grain, he started feeling full. Pushing his food aside, he looked around, enjoying the peace and nature.

@[f] kim jongdae Minseok chuckled and he shook his head. "Around 16." He nodded slowly, but he then tilted his head to think to himself. 'Did I find this male attractive only because I thought he was 16?' Minseok thought to himself. Though he then shook it off when he felt someone's leg touch his. Minseok chuckled and he shook his head "Nah it's okay." He the reached over and ruffled the younger male's hair. "So cute." Minseok said softly, but it was loud enough for the other male to hear him. He then went back to eat his fruit.

@[f] kim minseok Jongdae pouted. "How old do I look?" He wrote and showed the elder before starting to eat some food. Taking back his notebook he wrote. "Have you looked in the mirror? You're more baby faced than I am." As he handed Minseok the notepad again, he began eating the fruits, meats, and grain, ignoring the veggies. Chen shifted in his seat slightly and felt his foot brush by Minseok's calves. Jumping slightly, as his foot traced up the elder's calf, he motioned "sorry" while a faint blush appeared on his face.