*laughs* well, I mean, I would take us with my motorcycle, but I don't think driving after drinking is safe.
Even if it was only a glass or two, I don't want to take the chance.
@Billy Patchanon /so many memories flash back when hearing the beach and he can't help the mocking smiles playing on his lips at how ironic he always end up going there. Nodding his head as he catch the bus with the younger male./
I'm surprised you take me somewhere by bus actually. I think this is the first time I'm on a bus what is not filled with children.
@Heechul Well, the only place we can really go with no city lights is kind of far away, but the beach is the next best place
*he smiles and catches a bus with you to get to the destination*
*looks around at the almost empty bus and hums* I'm half surprised there's not that many people here. Then again, it is pretty late
@Heechul but it seems like it actually, I didn't mean to offend you!
I don't want you to be sorry, okay? I just...I'm just ing hurt and upset since I didn't think this all would turn out like that I thought once I'll open up about how I felt... ugh, forget it, okay? I'm sorry for leaving but I just can't do this right now
/runs off before he starts crying in the restaurant and gets home somehow/
@Choi Yeonjun I'm not reflecting anything but thank for clarifying
/sighs and listen but before he answer, seeing the younger stood up so he change his wording/
I'm sorry for everything then. Sorry for this even, you can leave, no need to worry about any feeling, scare of anything. Let's just forget everything.
@Heechul Right but that made me feel like you are reflecting those negative thoughts onto me so I wanted to clarify
/sighs and rubs his eye/
You know, I am also scared to get hurt and to start anything but I wanted to take a step towards you knowing that you like me as well since that thought was reassuring to me... You seem like you only want to torture yourself and with that, you're also torturing me... You're not even giving me the chance to show you that this could have maybe worked out or that we are fitting for each other! ugh I knew I should have never given into those stupid feelings
/stands up suddenly, not looking at the other anymore, trying to hide his tears/
@Choi Yeonjun You didn't. I did.
/sighs and rubs his face/
I did want to make this a date with you when I remembered you don't want anything associated with emotional, it make me feel safe you won't want to start anything between us. It's safe for me, I won't get to be fearful of what will be between us. I know I may get my emotion involve in this game I'm playing but I can always pull away if it's just one side from me. It get hard for me when I know you are trying something with me because that is when all the fear come, fears that would drown me with every single breath I take. Just even the hint of a possible for someone to be a couple with me is enough.
@Heechul I didn't say that, I said it's one of your charming points, hinting that there are also other qualities about you I enjoy
/shakes his head fast/
No, of course not!! A-and that is true that I said that...and I really said I don't do emotions and I don't feel things but I do, okay?
/tries not to tear up/
I do like you, I mean I notice it with how much it hurt when you said you don't want it to be a date because yes, I at feelings and being open about everything...but I'd try to be better, you know...? And I don't want us two be a couple immediately or whatever, I just... thought I'd give in to what the human part of me says and... try to wanna date you... with baby steps and all but I do wanna get to know you better as a person and not just for or stuff like that
@Choi Yeonjun Yeah, it's only fun and charming to hang out with me
/he sighs and leaning back on his chair
Yeonjun. You are the person whom said you didn't want or expect anything emotionally involved and here you are asking if there is a chance for us. Are you playing with me?
@Heechul I know, you tease everyone, that's part of what's so fun and charming about you.
/sighs and debates himself if he should call it quits already before looking at the older/
...is there even the slightest chance you'd want something to develop between us...? Like something that's not just physical?
@Choi Yeonjun you would get teased by me nonetheless whether or not you like me though-
/sighs and doesn't know why the event turn this way, chewing his lower lip and debate to end this early than his plan
@Heechul I mean sure, I can like you, you can't forbid me from doing so but why would I wanna like you if I get nothing back except for getting teased?
/doesn't play along and shifts to a colder tone and pokes more in his soup as well/
yeah, can see that
@Choi Yeonjun ......
/poking the soup
I didn't meant to say you can't like me, you can.... and....
/chewing his cheek before shifting his tone
of course, I love to see people suffer
@Heechul well, now you know, hehe
/sighs and looks at him, getting more upset/
well you just ripped it off by not wanting me to like you! So you really just like watching me suffer, hm?
@Choi Yeonjun I don't know-
/shaking his head
why would there be band aid to rip off? and I don't want you to like me, never have said that, I am just stating that you do like me but won't admit it, and....
@Heechul I guess that's true but I rarely doubt that, you know
/stops eating his soup then and takes a sip of his water/
why is there no bandaid to rip off? You always want me to like you and say it and you said you liked me and when I just lean in a little bit to show interest, you suddenly don't want it
@Choi Yeonjun well that is because I am nice
/take a bite of the soup and seeing the younger lack of enthusiastic
I am not sure... and there is no bandaid to rip off
@Heechul I'm glad you take care of them so well and pick out staff that appreciates the kids and treats them well!
/looks down, and eats the soup way less enthusiastically as before, only taking small bites from time to time/
but I wanna know why it shouldn't be...you should just...rip the bandaid off, you know...
@Choi Yeonjun well, they can just stay in the orphanage too if they can't find a home, I make sure the staff were children loving people
/shrugging his shoulders
I really don't know, I feel like it is a date but also shouldn't be, just let not discuss this anymore, eat your soup
@Heechul That's so many! I hope they'll find a good home forever!
/looks at him with a somewhat hurt expression but tries ro play it down/
What do you mean by that? You should know if you wanted an answer from me
@Choi Yeonjun eh.... I don't remember- a lot? hundred? eh.... maybe more
/try to think but can't remember and shake head to toss the problem away
I don't know- maybe yes, maybe no
@Choi Yeonjun of course, if you can dealt with 5 then a groups would be fine with you
it doesn't matter what I sound like, it matter what it is, and what you think it is