not too long ago. my now ex-boyfriend and i broke up. um... and i
honestly, i feel like a piece of . he actually dumped me for uh.
my ex-best friend. and truthfully, i feel like i'm not enough anymore.
i try to hide myself from looking or sounding upset in front of my friends.
i don't like to be a burden. i don't like people seeing me sad because it's like
nothing's the same if i'm sad. people pity me and i hate that feeling. i don't
like crying anymore because i've done it so many times that i'm sick of it..
i run away in the rain because i can clear my thoughts. i feel something.
i get sick because that's all i want to be right now. my family is having
troubles ever since i had to come to boarding school. i don't want to be
so far away from my brother because he needs my help. he never asks
for it, but i offer him my help all the time. i don't know what to do...
not anymore.
so how do i feel...?
"are you ok?" i'm fine. ( i'm not fine, help me. )
"how are you?" i'm just tired. ( i can't take it anymore. )
"want some?" i already ate. ( kidding, i starve myself. )
"what's wrong?" just go away. ( a lot. do you care enough to stay? )
"it's spring. why are you wearing a jacket?" i'm just cold. ( nope. i just don't want you to see my scars. )
"do you need help?" i'm better, i promise. ( it's never been so hard. )
"are you sure you're fine?" i'm okay. ( i feel like dying, sometimes. )
can i just get a hug...? or advice.
i want one so bad.
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