Sometimes...

( This is something I have to get out of my chest. )

I have realized throughout my life that I suddenly fade myself away with friends.

However, this depends.

I realized that I would not talk to friends because I don't know how to have a conversation with them or it just feels awkward.

I realized that I would be so awkward just talking to them because maybe they would reply just one word or one liner or maybe interests are different.

I am very comfortable talking to people who are outgoing towards me.

People who would talk anything to me.

I feel like I just lost a few friends.

Even the friend who was my "sister", we don't even talk anymore.

It's really sad to have friends leaving me or me leaving them.

It's just my comfort zone that I can't even get out.

I don't know how to talk that aren't even my interests.

Sighs.