To the man who I loved for 9 years

I miss you.

Please come back soon.

Please don't give up. Keep fighting. You're a warrior. 

Come back to your mom, your sister, Jinki, Minho, Kibum, Taemin, shinee world and everyone else who loves you.

You and the other four shinee members are the reason why I didn't go yet, and I will once SHINee disbands in the future. You mean so much to me

I spent most of my life loving you.

It pained me when I found out you have depression. I was worried sick. I wanted to tell you many things like... you're not alone, I'm here for you. Lets struggle, cry, fight and recover together. You're not alone. 

But I never had the opportunity. I saw you in concert in my hometown. You were so close but so far away still.

Take me with you, so I can tell you these things.