insert intense sobbing noises (not worth the read tbh)

so i was looking around at rps

on rpr, on aff, and on tumblr

and i felt like i found the one

the plot? highly intriguing

the aesthetics? ed me all the way up

the urge and desire to join? ever present

so i started plotting and planning what kind of character i might want, what kind of character i'd like and think others might like, i started developing ideas upon ideas

but then i checked the masterlist

clicked on a random character

and the muse i wanted and planned for?

:") they were taken

WHY MUST IT BE LIKE THIS IM ING WEEPING