I’ve reached a point

In my life, where everything feels like it's falling apart beyond repair. This is one of the longest and most difficult relapses I ever had. 

I wish these could be good news and tell you all that I've reached an amazing point in my life where I don't need to rely on rpr anymore. But it's on the opposite. 
 

i feel like I don't have anything good to give to this place, I'm completely drained, sad and tired. And it's been like this for weeks, yesterday I spent the whole day crying. Because of life and things happening at rps. It was just one after the other, it feels endless still. 
 

i need to somehow break this cycle, my real emotions are bleeding into rp even if I don't intended; and my words and actions are hurting others. Rping doesn't bring happiness to me anymore which adds to my bad mood and so on, it's and endless cycle and I'm tired.

i wont be answering kakao for the time being, so please don't text me. And for those who have my instagram, i'm also taking a break from there.

it's been hard, even now I'm doubting about doing this, but I think it's for the best. Right now it doesn't feel like it but maybe in the long way... it's really hard. I'll be permanently deleting my newest account which is already a year old. And I'll also be deleting this one. It holds a lot of memories, but I think it's time to let it go. Holding onto this... is also holding onto that weight that's crushing me down.

thank you for everything, I'll cherish the good memories.