im a ty person

i can't make friends on this site anymore. im actually tired of most of yall and if you're insecure and feel like it's you 50% chance it probably is. i can't be feeling something over some of y'all cause most of y'all aren't trying to improve or accept or reaching out when people are begging you to grab their hand. im no saint either but i can't be surrounded by others who easily give up and give in and i have to encourage them when i  can't do it for myself or i have no one there for me. So don't think we're friends cause we got along in an rp anymore. i've exhausted my usefulness and now im more useless than ever. i can't be asking and checking if blank is okay because we're close but in reality we're not and i just gave a stranger 50 bucks. You think it's mean but it hurts me more than anything. i feel like a monster saying this but i gotta better myself by dropping the dead weight. i only get on rpr for entertainment. at this rate every rp i join i know someone or a few people and it's easily a 50:50 chance to ruin that whole rp for me depending on who it is  very easily. this site it's ing depressing me more than it's fun. maybe i'll stick to video games or something now a days.