Rant? idk...

So I've felt like giving up roleplaying for a while now. I was gonna give up near the end of summer when my roleplay account on Facebook got reported for the third time in the same roleplay. This was at the beginning of September. I feel that it was no coincidence and someone deliberately wanted me gone. I never really had closure from leaving it, I never got answers, and it just pent up inside me the more I heard from it from others. it reached a point where I broke and did something I'm not proud of. Reporting accounts in it. I wouldn't say I finally showed my true colors, but my anger did get the best of me. Since then I haven't exactly been close to anyone in my roleplays. And those I was close to, ive completely shut out. I just choose to keep things ic, and any interests shown ooc in regards to being my friend I shut down immediately. I feel so broken now. I dont know if I should keep roleplaying. Its gotten me to build up a lot of confidence and is a big part of my life now. But I just feel so scared all the time. Scared of people who are just talking to me through a screen. Scared of being close to them as I once felt I was to a large bunch of people. I feel like if I slowly stop coming on they'll just eventually forget about me and I can slip away.