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@saorsa:
@saorsa:
here you'll find my ooc notes, connections list and plots. some info has been carried over into his full profile.
What are some things we should know before we approach you to rp?
asked by

@Anonymous:
@Anonymous:
FOR PLOTTING. I am a roleplayer who prefers to have a plot or at least have a general idea in mind to roleplay. I am adaptable, I can certainly 'wing' plots(considering I have some plot drops all over the rp) but it's just not my preference.
I will almost always follow up in our conversation with questions like specific scenarios, scenes, an end goal(if applicable), etc., but you don't have to provide any if you don't want too.

TIME ZONE & PACE. I am a slow roleplayer and roleplay republic is not a top priority for me; it's a hobby.
My lifestyle can have some serious ups and downs in terms of busy-ness. Please, please, please, be understanding. I'm currently in a quiet period however Jungkook has a lot of ongoing threads, and I have two other characters; please be aware responses may come every day or two.
I accept nudges after 10 days of no contact as sometimes I do need a push or a reminder. I'll do my best to let you know if we need to pause our plot/re-work it/if I'll 

WRITING STYLE. I do everything from details first/second script to novella. However me whipping out the novella replies will probably be limited.
You may control my characters actions if it makes sense and helps move the story along. you can have limited control over his emotions(there will be times where it's obvious he would be angry in situation a or overjoyed during situation b, you know?) but you can't control Jungkook's speech or his decisions without my input.
Jungkook's characterisation is a constant work in progress, you'll have to forgive me if details change or he suddenly acts very out character; I overdeveloped him so I'm in the midst of refining everything. I apologise for anything that is random or out of the blue, but you can just blame it on him being an erratic person in general :')

OTHER NOTES. You are more then welcome to ask for a re-write if you're not satisfied with my reply; just be polite about it lmfao. If you would also like for me to change/include a certain scenario, conversation starter, etc., then also let me know and I will do my best to accomodate.
I will always check in regarding the more uncomfortable situations that our muses may find themselves in(likely caused by Jungkook) to make sure everything is safe, comfortable and consensual for you. If, at any point in our plot, you need us to stop or need me to change something immediately, please use the below safeword:
Safeword: Lovell.
All activity will immediately stop and if needed, I will delete my post and we can chat about it ooc to see what can be changed/done better moving forward.
I'm always open and accepting of constructive criticism and feedback.
Please note that the above image is temporary until I can find something more suited to Jungkook and that isn't generated by AI. Currently being used to showcase the feel and general mood of his room.
the warren
You may find Jungkooks's private room here.
Jungkook's bedroom, aptly named The Warren after his rabbit-themed alias', is a spectacle of comfortable luxury; decorated with the intent to entice and beckon visitors to stay forever. His room features a moody colour palette with Victorian-era design features alluding to a more opulent era. It's unexpectedly classy, for somebody like Jungkook, however it's the smaller details that will convince you that yes, this is the Bunnys den.
His furniture has been painstakingly chosen to ensure a high-end feel. His bed is the main attraction; with an impossible soft mattress and thick duvet covers that are usually clad in silk or bamboo sheets. It's a comfortable next to help clients feel they are in their own little bubble; free to touch and as they please. His room features an open floor area for activities that require a little more sturdiness than a mattress. Other furniture items or room include an integrated walk-in wardrobe/closet system, a velvet loveseat with two plush armchairs and portrait television, and other little pieces of furniture selected purely for their function for relaxing or as a  object.
You may notice that he has no personal objects. If asked, Jungkook will change the topic. His room is for two things: and sleep.
To the right of the bed, a door to his private ensuite can be found. Featuring an enclosed toilet, a sink with a shelf decorated with excessive skin, hair and bodycare products, a sunken bathtub and enclosed shower.
 
let's talk about , baby!
format + some kinks credited to kai.
✶ ⁞   Kinks & Desires.
As a toy, Jungkook doesn't say no. He didn't get to where he is in The Venus Lounge by being a poor sport and refusing client requests(he did this once, the consequences weren't good). To break down his personal kinks, let's separate them into two different categories. Note that all of these are both giving and receiving. I have specific scenarios/kinks I'd like to do so just ask and I'll let you know. If it's not listed here but it's also not listed in my limits; then it's a kink i'm happy to do!
  • General Kinks: receiving and giving
    • aftercare
    • aphrodisiacs (will take in any form)
    • barebacking
    • blindfolds
    • bodily fluids (excluding /piss/vomit)
    • body oil
    • body worship
    • breeding
    • cockwarming
    • cowgirl & cowboy
    • crossdressing
    • inflation
    • d/s
    • daddy/mommy
    • degradation
    • dubious consent
    • edging
    • excessive biting
    • face sitting
    • felching
    • feminisation
    • frottage
    • hands & fingers
    • kissing
    • lingerie
    • massage
    • ion
    • mirrors, reflections, windows, etc.
    • mutual ion
    • play
    • control
    • overstimulation
    • pet names
    • positive humiliation
    • power play
    • praise kink
    • public
    • restraints & bodily restriction
    • rimming &
    • roleplay (esp corruption & taboo)
    • romance
    • somnophilia
    • sounds (moans, whimpers, squelching, etc.)
    • tantric
    • teasing
    • temperature play (wax, ice, etc)
    • thigh riding
    • threesomes &
    • voyeurism & exhibitionism
  • General Kinks: giving
    • none for now
  • General Kinks: receiving
    • chastity & controlled
    • hypnosis
    • man-handling
    • sensory deprivation
    • size queen (genuinely doesn't care about the size of whichever he's sitting on but if it's big... he'll go wild.)
    • subspace
    • stomach bulge (related to being a size queen)
  • Turn Ons: come crossover with kink list
    • touching or playing with his s
    • sweet or
    • touching his waist, placing your hand on the base of his spine or his lower stomach
    • touching his inner thighs
    • being handfed
    • if in a submissive headspace, being 'kabedon'-ed
    • getting undressed (doesn't matter if he's undressed himself, the other person or the other person is undressing him) and, in a similar vein, being
    • watching himself / being watched
✶ ⁞   Triggers & Limits.
Soft limits are the kinks that i'm open to doing but honestly can do without. I'm not super into them as a concept ooc but ok to rp them. Jungkook will ofc do these behind the scenes.
Hard limits are my 100% no's ic or ooc. not debatable. Same as with soft limits, these are done behind the scenes but I will never roleplay these. The only kink that he 100% does not partake in, even behind the scenes, is /piss/vomit play.
Triggers are for Jungkook IC only. I will happily roleplay them and the ensuing fallout for the drama.
If you have any comments or concerns, then please do let me know!
  • Soft Limits:
    • bloodplay
    • breathplay
    • pet play (see hard limits)
  • Hard Limits:
    • cages
    • and ball torture
    • extreme pet play (i won't be doing the barking/meowing, crawling on all fours, eating from an actual animal bowl pet play thing. you do you but it's not me)
    • extreme play
    • extreme pain play
    • feederism
    • mummification
    • needles
    • non-consent / cnc /
    • objectification
    • prolapse
    • and piss play
    • sounding
    • suction
    • vomit
  • Triggers:
    • s. His issue is primarily with giving; he will do it as his job but will dissociate the entire time. can cause him to flashback and regress to his trauma as a teenager. usually brought on by men who resemble Father Kim. It's uncommon for him to be triggered on the receiving end unless already in a precarious mental state.
    • using the terms 'father' or 'sir' when submissive or in subspace. Father Kim would make him use these names when they were together.
    • middle-aged and older men with stocky, overweight builds, excessive body hair and bad body odour.
    • christianity, catholicism, religion in general. Jungkook, despite what he insists, is still a believer. He struggles with his faith because he can't reconcile a 'loving' God having been ok with what happened to him as a child but then if God exists, this must have been his plan all along; and how is that fair?
✶ ⁞   Other Notes.
This is just for some extra character lore and roleplay assistance for myself and you.
  • Position Preference: True Switch
    • although his headspace (usually determined by me irl before any encounters or by your ooc request) can affect what he feels like doing, this is his job and even if Jungkook is feeling dominant, if he has a client that wants him submissive, that's what he'll do and vice versa. It can with him mentally but he's good at what he does and will get the job done at his own detriment. He gets stressed if he stays in one 'headspace' for too long.
  • Aftercare:
    • Jungkook tends to have clients that don't bother with giving adequate aftercare to him and it can make him drop, bringing him back(mentally and emotionally) to his younger years where his trauma was still fresh. This can sometimes cause erratic behaviour but I'm hoping to have some Pearl connections that, while they may not know his trauma, at least understand how to handle/take care of him when he's dropping.
  • Praise Kink:
    • His praise kink is also a double-edged sword; if he's in a precarious mental state, it can absolutely trigger him but it also can be empowering for him, speaking to his inherent need to be 'perfect'. Generally, it depends on the person. His least favourite clients are men who look like Father Kim and they tend to put him on edge; these are usually the ones who cause him to struggle.
money talks
so let's get down to business
ion Fee
First Time Client ⋮ $250 p/h or $2,000 for the night.
Limited to services including protected penetration. Excludes hardcore . One time deal only for new clients.
 
Bronze Tier ⋮ $350 p/h or $4,000 for the night.
Limited to services that include oral penetration.
 
Silver Tier ⋮ $450 p/h or $5,000 for the night.
Limited to services that include oral and self-penetration.
 
Gold Tier ⋮ $550 p/h or $6,000 for the night.
Limited to services that include protected penetration.
 
Platinum Tier ⋮ $650 p/h or $7,000 for the night.
All services that include unprotected penetration and exclude hardcore /kink.
 
Diamond Tier ⋮ $750 p/h or $8,000 for the night.
No limits or restrictions. Client to use the session time entirely at their discretion.
Session Extension Fee: Sessions exceeding the standard 12 hour will incur a flat hourly fee of $150. Clients that require a 24 hour session will be required to pay a flat fee of $18,000; a 50% deposit is required upon booking. The remaining balance to be paid after the session.
 
**a night is considered 12 hours from the beginning of a session. Jungkook will waive, lower or raise his fees depending on client. Pricing is entirely at his discretion.
Intimacy Fee
First Time Client ⋮ $70 p/h or $900 for the night.
Limited to the amenities available at the Venus Lounge and excludes ual intimacy. Only available for clients who have never hired Jungkook for escorting.
 
Date Tier ⋮ $90 p/h or $950 for the night.
Limited to the amenities available at the Venus Lounge and external locations in the Gangnam local area. Excludes ual intimacy.
 
Lover Tier ⋮ $100 p/h or $1,000 for the night.
Limited to the amenities available at the Venus Lounge and external locations in Seoul. Excludes ual intimacy unless requested.
 
Boyfriend Tier ⋮ $150 p/h or $1,500 for the night.
Recommended for clients looking to hire for high-end external events or the 'true romance' experience. Limited to South Korea. Includes ual intimacy, protection required.
 
Husband Tier ⋮ $200 p/h or $2,000 for the night.
Recommended for clients looking to hire for high-end external events or the 'true romance' experience. Can be taken to locations outside of South Korea. Includes ual intimacy, protection not required.
 
ual Intimacy ⋮ +$50 per hour.
Unless purchasing the boyfriend or husband package, clients will be required to pay an additional $50 per hour for ual intimacy. Does not include hardcore kinks or .
 
**a night is considered 12 hours from the beginning of a session. Jungkook will waive, lower or raise his fees depending on client. Pricing is entirely at his discretion.
 
tier labels and phrasing credited to kai.
threads
semi-regularly updated
obsession
kim taehyung
Relationship Level ⠀ ★★★★★★☆
Jungkook has had his eye on Taehyung for months, falling deliriously in obsession with the other man from afar. After weeks of burning with jealous anger at other pearls taking his toy away from him, Jungkook finally makes the decision to do something about it.
mentee
huh yunjin
Relationship Level ⠀ ★★★★★☆☆
Relationship to be determined as still plotting. Likely a positive one. Jungkook will be quite protective of Yunjin, though he stresses that she doesn't know what she's gotten herself into.
drug buddies
huening kai
Relationship Level ⠀★★★★☆☆☆
A previous client-pearl relationship turned mutually destructive. With Kai coming into his life when he did, Jungkook finds himself failing to keep up with his sobriety. It's not his fault, it was bound to happen, Jungkook just needed a reason to slip and he's latched onto the one person who shares his vices.
carer
emilia clarke
Relationship Level ⠀★★★★★☆☆
The mother figure that Jungkook lacked growing up. Although she may not know everything, Jungkook has poured his heart- and emotions- out to her many times. His main source of platonic comfort. Would die for her.
ex-best friend
cha eunwoo
Relationship Level ⠀★★☆☆☆☆☆
Once upon a time, these two were ride or dies, but when an unexpected confession during a vulnerable moment results in heart break, the two can barely stand to be in the same room as each other. Is it time for reconciliation or does forgiveness seem out of reach?
enemy
kim jongin
Relationship Level ⠀★☆☆☆☆☆☆
Relationship to be determined. Hate-ing, let's go.
first-timer
kang yeosang
Relationship Level ⠀★★★★☆☆☆
A lost lamb that has found it's way into the lions den. Yeosang would do well to remember that the club is a fantasy, and tread lightly.
femme client
cho miyeon
Relationship Level ⠀★★★★☆☆☆
A lost lamb that has found it's way into the lions den. Yeosang would do well to remember that the club is a fantasy, and tread lightly.
fresh face
lee taeyeob
Relationship Level ⠀★★★☆☆☆☆
Relationship to be determined.

jeon jungkook
pearl • 27 • 4 star

 
posted by

@saorsa:
@saorsa:
( 23.09.17 ) open for plotting and connecting! please refrain from posting in my wall.
@swtbun
seoul, south korea
swtbun
Pretty with no effort, so imagine when I apply pressure.
@swtbun
seoul, south korea
swtbun
So...
general information
open invitation.
✶ ⁞   Basic Notes.
  • Name: Jeon Jungkook ('Jeon' is the surname that Jungkook has chosen after being disowned by his family. His real last name is unknown for family related plots and connections)
  • Alias(es): Kookie (friends only, primarily by other Pearls) — Bunny (VL moniker #1; used almost exclusively by favoured/regular clients or as a joke by other pearls) — White Rabbit (VL Moniker #2; his name for new, irregular or clients that he dislikes).
  • Age: 27 years old.
  • Date of Birth: 13th September.
  • Zodiac Sign: Virgo, Fire Ox.
  • Place of Birth: Busan, Yeongnam Province, South Korea.
  • Hometown: Haneung Village, Yeongnam Province, South Korea. Fictional Town
  • Current Location: Seoul, South Korea.
  • Known Languages: Korean (Mother Tongue) — English (Fluent).
  • Occupation: Employee at The Venus Lounge.
  • Time employed: 7 years.
  • Clientele: Services both men and woman.
  • Specialty: Escorting, ion.
  • Romantic Orientation: Homoromantic.
  • ual Orientation: Homoual.
  • Relationship Status: Are you kidding?
  • Love Language: words of affirmation, receiving gifts, physical touch
  • SNS: @swtbun (private, only open to VL employees).
✶ ⁞   Appearance and Style Notes.
  • Height: 178 cm.
  • Build: Muscular and lean, Jungkook puts an extraordinary effort into keeping his body at peak condition. His shoulders are broad while his waist small, abdomen decorated by a washboard 8 pack(ooc note; fairly certain JK has an 8 pack but it could be a 6, may have counted wrong). He keeps his hair long and stylishly messy, currently worn as a curly mullet. His thighs are sinful, begging to sat on or to bite into.
  • Hair Color: Currently dyed a warm, chocolate brown.
  • Eye Color: Café brown.
  • Piercings: Has all his irl piercings. His s are pierced but, along with his facial piercings, he will take them out if his client wants a more submissive/vanilla look.
  • Tattoos: Jungkook has almost all of his irl tattoo's except for a few. I have listed the ones he does not have below.
    • Army / BTS symbol / Crown across his fingers and hand are replaced by : nothing. his hand is bare for now.
    • The 7 behind his earlobe is replaced by : a stylish bunny outline.
  • Distinguishing Physical Characteristics: Has somewhat of a gender neutral face, it's easy for him to make himself look more feminine or masculine depending on his make up style — A mole on his neck — A faint scar across his left cheekbone, the only flaw in his perfect face. It's hard to see it unless he isn't wearing makeup or you're in the right lighting situation.
  • Preferred VL Uniform: Jungkook often sticks to one uniform style; he prefers the classic, somewhat dishevelled look of tapered black pants(that have been purposefully altered to be too tight in the crotch and area for clients), smart leather shoes and a simple, white button down that typically has the sleeves rolled up and the top 3-4 buttons undone. Only by request will he wear a sheer button down or the skirt variation but otherwise, never. He does not wear the vest or the suit jacket. Jungkook will rarely wear underwear under his uniform but if he does; it will be simple, luxury brand cotton boxer-briefs. He's found over the years that he enjoys wearing lacy 'feminine' lingerie and will treat himself occasionally; it's usually a nice surprise for his male clientele.
  • Personal Style & Aesthetic: VL Jungkook wears what real life Jungkook wears although he'll dress in a more revealing manner.
✶ ⁞   Muse's Notable Relationships.
  • Parents:
    • Unnamed ( Father ) — an office worker back in his village, works in accounting and finance. Relationship is violently antagonistic; Jungkook does not speak to his father nor does he attempt too. The last time they spoke, Jungkook left his home bloodied and bruised. It was not the first time. name left blank, not a connection I want filled.
    • Unnamed ( Mother ) — a stay at home mother. Relationship is very antagonistic but is not violent(yet); Jungkooks mother pretends that he does not exist and has rebuffed any attempt at contact by him.  name left blank, not a connection I want filled.
  • Siblings:
    • ____ ( Brother/Sister ) — works at their fathers office. Their relationship is also highly antagonistic although not to the point of violence; but Jungkook does not doubt that his sibling would be violent with him if provoked due to the circumstances of his leaving. His sibling is the only family member that he would like to reconcile with. name left blank as i'd like to fill this in as a connection and maybe work towards reconciliation. whether this connection is older or younger does not matter.
  • Favoured Clients:
    • Client #1: male only. regardless of whether this connection has been established for months or years, you are the most consistent and enjoyable jungkook has had the pleasure of working with. You generally only seek him out for one or two services but you've developed a relationship that has slowly dissolved from business to friends. Maybe something more? (0/1)
    • Client #2: taken by cho miyeon. while your relationship is based off of business, you have an unspoken understanding, a connection that feels more... personal. Regardless of whether you use his services for , conversation, or something else, you and Jungkook enjoy each others company.  ok with this; please note that there is no chance of romance between our muses. (1/1)
    • Client #3: open to male or female, new regular. honestly, Jungkook never actually expected you to come back after your first time at the lounge; you didn't really give the impression that this was more then a one time thing. Whatever happened between Jungkook and you in their first session, it's enticed you to come back to seek him out. Jungkook can't say he's entirely displeased. (0/1)
  • Friends:
    • Pearl #1: open to male or female. his best friend in the Venus Lounge and the longest (mostly) platonic friendship he's ever had. If male and willing, you've probably messed around or at some point dated each other; it didn't work out for whatever reason but you've never been closer. (0/1)
    • Pearls #2-4: open to male or female. friendship development to be determined. (0/2)
    • Pearl #5: taken by huh yunjin. 0pen to male or female, one star only. Somebody that has ended up under the mentorship of Jungkook, you're new(ish) to the Venus Lounge and were in desperate need of a guiding hand when starting out; Jungkook has ended up being that guide. (1/1)
  • Enemies:
    • To be determined.
a peek at his
personality
MBTI — ESTP
Entrepreneurs always have an impact on their immediate surroundings – the best way to spot them at a party is to look for the whirling eddy of people flitting about them as they move from group to group. Laughing and entertaining with a blunt and earthy humor, Entrepreneur personalities love to be the center of attention. If an audience member is asked to come on stage, Entrepreneurs volunteer – or volunteer a shy friend.
If Entrepreneurs aren’t careful though, they may get too caught in the moment, take things too far, and run roughshod over more sensitive people, or forget to take care of their own health and safety. Making up only four percent of the population, there are just enough Entrepreneurs out there to keep things spicy and competitive, and not so many as to cause a systemic risk.
Also challenging is that to Entrepreneurs, it makes more sense to use their own moral compass than someone else’s. Rules were made to be broken. This is a sentiment few high school instructors or corporate supervisors are likely to share, and can earn Entrepreneur personalities a certain reputation.
Moral Alignment — Neutral Evil
A Neutral Evil character is only out for themself. Whatever they want – power, wealth, reputation – they won’t follow someone else’s codes to get it. If they want something, they will take it.
If that means betraying a friend, they will do it. They don’t believe that following laws and traditions makes anyone a better person. Law and order props up and protects the weak and holds the strongest back. But law and order does have its use as a tool to manipulate people who believe in honour, loyalty and promises.
Neutral Evil characters make allegiances with others to further their own agenda but will quickly hurt, desert or betray allies when they are no longer useful.
Positives
Strengths: Social — Direct — Charming — Bold — Observant — Adaptable and Flexible — Influential — Action Oriented — Humorous — Confident — Capable.

Likes: black tea with a splash of milk — early mornings — fog, mist, light rain showers — kimchi soondubu jjigae — dark coloured alcohol — the beach — black truffle instant ramen — having his hair played with — hand holding — animals, especially dogs — pizza crusts — the burnt chip(s) in a packet — thriller and horror movies — the scent of sandalwood, ylang ylang and iris flowers — mid-century modern design — silk bed sheets — sleeping .
Negatives
Weaknesses: Self Destructive — Materialistic — Impulsive — Insensitive — Easily Bored — Obsessive — Vindictive — Commitment Issues — Stubborn — Selfish.

Dislikes: poor quality or bland food and drink — unnecessary violence — confined spaces — awkward small talk — movies and tv shows that are too dark (like, literally too dark.) — religion, churches, god-related conversation — acne — holidays — bad breath and body odour — neon colours — clams, snails, and other mollusks — being ignored(could use this against him in just fyi) — coffee — giving s — extreme/dirty/untamed body haie.
Character Quirks
Appearace Quirks: Wears glasses too read or when it's dark — Can't seem to grow a moustache or beard(not that he wants too) — Undergoes fortnightly whole body waxes and 'maintenance' grooming(you will not find a single hair on his body below his neck that hasn't been waxes, plucked or trimmed) — Does not wear the colour brown and doesn't wear stripes.

Personality Quirks: Will sometimes be heard counting to the number 12 over and over again(if he's rubbing his fingers together- see habits- then friends will know he's in an agitated state) — Has a very confident stride and is usually a fast walker — Generally keeps his body language open unless upset — Is negatively agnostic — highly prefers depressant and opioid drugs over stimulants.
 
Miscellaneous Quirks: Keeps a piece of tied string in his bedside table and doesn't allow anyone to touch it or know why it's there in the first place — Texts with one thumb — Has incredibly neat handwriting — Could almost be considered ambidextrous — Is a lowkey hoarder — His phone lock screen and wallpaper is just the colour black and is always on silent. — He believes in karma — Doesn't use a wallet — Can tie a cherry stem into a knot with his tongue — Is unmatched in making Espresso Martini's — He is really bad at solving maths problems outside of simple addition, subtraction, etc. — He holds his cups/mugs from the top(think of L from Death Note but the quirk/habit didn't come from him) — Eats his food in the following order: vegetables, carbs/fats, meats — He doesn't know how to drive.
Hobbies & Habits
Hobbies: exercising; loves swimming and weight lifting — dancing, not the stripping kind, and singing — playing board games with his friends and coworkers — tidying, especially sweeping and dusting — sleeping — visiting Ambrosia — reading webtoons, manhwa and comics — admiring himself in the mirror — skin/hair/bodycare.

Good Habits: While he may not prioritise his mental and emotional health, Jungkook will always make a point to take care of his physical body and listen to what it needs — Is consistent with his routines — Eats well — Dedicates himself to his projects/activities 110% — Has an open door policy for newer Pearls and his friends.
 
Character Habits: Constantly touches his hair — Cannot walk past a reflection without checking himself out — Rubbing his thumb and index finger on his right hand when feeling nervous, agitated or anxious — Is a fiddler if holding something — Straightening or smoothing out his clothes — Sniffs quite frequently.

Bad Habits: Using exercise or overbooking himself with clients as a distraction if his mental health spirals — Guards his emotions a little too well(could be considered somewhat of a lie, however Jungkook has crafted a careful public persona that is just the right amount of real and fake. Only those closest to him get to know his thoughts and feelings) — Indulging in destructive activities or risky behaviour when bored — Ignoring others if bored by what they're saying — Constantly on his phone, scrolling through social media — has a nicotine addiction that ramps up when upset or stressed — His go-to crutch when things are too difficult to deal is valium, morphine or heroin.
Secrets & Fears
Secrets He'll Share: He wears glasses(other pearls know this but he won't tell clients; he unreasonably fears it'll ruin the fantasy if they find out).

Secrets Kept to Himself: Jungkook is unlikely to ever reveal what happened to him as a child — He did not graduate from middle school, Jungkook was kicked out in 9th grade — He was homeless by age 16 and was so until he was employed at the Venus Lounge.

Known Fears: Rejection and being isolated from his social circle — Crossing paths with his family somewhere in Seoul or, somehow, they end up at the Venus Lounge and find him there — Being fired from the Venus Lounge if they suddenly deem him 'too old'.

Unrecognized Fears: Realising that he is actually worth something and perhaps he didn't need to make the choices he did; not that he'll ever recognise that they were exactly that, choices. And not life just ing him over constantly — Confronting what happened in his past and admitting that it wasn't his fault.
recalling history
Background.
✶ ⁞   Chapter One.

CW/TW: IMPLIED CHILD S3X ABUSE.
  • Jungkook grew up in an isolated, socially conservative village located deep within the alps found in Yeongnam Province; Haneung Village boasted a tiny population of 183 by the time Jungkook was born, and at its largest, approx 345 people when he was a young boy. The village itself was so isolated that the nearest town was close to a two hour drive away. Though small, Haneung had a rich cultural history that was thanks to a tightknit community that spanned generations. If you were born in Haneung, you would die in Haneung. Everybody knew everybody. The downside to such a small community; there was little to challenge societal expectations and mindsets, which trended towards the extreme end of conservatism in Haneung. A western comparison, that Jungkook frequently uses, would be radical evangical towns found in the United States.
  • Because of this lifestyle, Jungkook would grow up to be a very happy, sensible young boy who only ever wanted to make his parents and community proud. He was smart as a whip and funny, even as a child, and loved to participate in community activities such as public vegetable gardens, assisting his neighbours with chores and, of course, devoting himself to the church and Christian faith. Jungkook was the darling of Haneung, and many believed that he'd go far in their town; he'd marry a beautiful young woman right out of high school, they'd have at least five charming children(the first must be a boy, they'd tut to him, it's the only way.) and he'd have a respectable career in the church or his family business in financial advice and accounting.
  • For Jungkook, the local parish was his happy place; a safe location where he could sit and pray to God, whispering prayers under his breath about his personal struggles(like why didn't he want to kiss girls like the other boys? was there something wrong with him?) and devoting himself to his faith. He was the favoured choir boy and on his 13th birthday, Jungkook was offered a more official role in the church under his favourite person in the whole world; Father Kim.
  • Father Kim was his friend, his honourary father, his guide through lifes struggles. He would trust his mentor enough to divulge his most personal struggles to the man without fear of judgement; Father Kim would listen, silently, with a kind smile whether it was in his office or in the confessional. He always knew it was Jungkook, he'd say with a friendly pat to the head, but it was ok. Father Kim would keep his secrets.
  • So what was one little secret from Father Kim? Jungkook was asked one afternoon when helping organise some files in the priests office. Of course he'd nod, promise that he'd keep whatever Father Kim told him private. Jungkook would take it to the grave! Father Kim would laugh at that, and give him that familiar head pat that Jungkook had come to love. Although this time, Father Kim wouldn't let go of his hair.
  • He wouldn't remembering leaving Father Kims office that day. Jungkooks memory fuzzy until his mother pointed out the sauce he'd gotten on the corner of his lips from dinner; although when he it off, it was far too salty to be the sweet vinegar served with that nights grilled beef.
  • Jungkook enjoyed the adoration he received, almost as much as he enjoyed actually earning it. Being a good boy was so important to young Jungkook, that he would do anything to please others. Even if it meant continuing spending time with Father Kim, doing things that he didn't like, it would be worth it when he'd be called a good boy, a special boy. And Jungkook was the most special boy, right? Right?
✶ ⁞   Chapter Two.
  • They were caught sometime after Jungkook had turned 15. By now, he'd learned to 'turn off' his brain when Father Kim called him into his office after sermon and typically, the church-goers wouldn't linger and instead congregrate to the local diner for a community breakfast. It was the old Auntie who ran a tiny tteokkbokki stand near the school; she had had questions regarding the mornings service and hadn't thought to knock. She'd find Jungkook on his knees and Father Kim with his robes hoisted around his pot belly.
  • She ran, screeching of what she'd seen, and the news spread around the village like wildfire. Jungkook had come to accept that he was gay a few months earlier, believed that he and Father Kim were in love, and they would be together forever. He thought that perhaps having a messenger of God as his one true love, they could change the attitude of their town and people would be happy for them.
  • Imagine his surprise when instead of defending their relationship, Father Kim would publically demonise him; damning him as a sodomiser, that he was possessed by the devil, he'd become an unholy temptation that had tricked Father Kim into committing sin.
  • And who would believe a silly teenagers tearful plea over a man of God? In the blink of an eye, Jungkook was despised by the people he loved, treated like he was covered in infectious disease. It got so bad that at one point, he considered ending it all just to stop the pain. But before he could, something in him snapped. If Jungkook was going to be treated like the town pariah, then he'd do his ing best to become what they wanted him to be.
  • Running away after thoroughly driving his reputation into the ground was the next logical move. Jungkook was homeless at that point, with nothing to keep him tethered to Haneung, so one night, at 17, he up and left; never to be seen again.
  • He'd resurface eventually in Seoul after a three year haze of drug-induced stupor, and perhaps the one good thing in his life; gaining employment in the elusive Venus Lounge. The details of this part of his life? ... Well, that's a story for another time.
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