@‡ Jackson /closes my eyes in silent prayer as if you could hear my thoughts, gripping onto the arm rest tight, unable to watch you walk away from me as I take a deep breath and slowly let it out, fighting to remaining as I lower my head, dropping my chin to my chest to block out the world around me/
@† Luhan *takes a deep breath in then out watching you leave me to sit down* Very well. Bye. *turns on my heels, a hand brushing through my hair as I fought so hard not to turn back*
@‡ Jackson /bites my tongue through it all, holding my breath as I finish listening to your words, wanting so badly to protest yet taking a step back instead to give you space/ that is for you to decide. /Shifts to sit down on the chair, gripping the arm rest until my knuckles begin to turn white/ you are free now. Go. I will not follow you this time.
@† Luhan All you've done to me... Hit me, shot me, drugged me even go as far as attempted murder, this was all because you want to see 'the real me'? The real me loved you. Loved you enough to put my life in harms way. I gave up so much for you because I thought that's what you wanted. To have me under your control and isloate me from others. I always walked on glass and egg shells for you to not be angery or upset with me. I loved you through all your crazy flaws and I fought for you to have me back in my arms. Was that all for this? Were you still playing games with me, Lu? When you left me on the couch to die, you kissed me bye and dropped "I love you". You never said the L word to be before then you had the nerve to kill me and say it right then. You're not human, aren't you? Because no human would ever do that to the person they love. It's true. Everything was true, you are a psychopath. , I can't even tell if you're lying or saying the truth right now.
@‡ Jackson You were too scared... You loved out of fear but now you see me for who I really am. /Reaches up to cup your cheeks in my hands, fingers brushing against your bottom lip, yearning for one last kiss/ I still loved you even when I thought you were dead. When I no longer had your body and all that was left was the memory of you. I love you. It will always be you. /breaks away to respect your wishes, blinking back the tears as I look upon you with an urgent sense of longing, forcing a broken smile/ even if I must wait a life time to see you again... I will never stop looking for you.
@† Luhan *arches a brow and my hands went out of my pockets to pry you off of me* Off. Get off. *doesn't want to hurt you, even if I did, I was still weak to do so* What the hell are you going on about now? Finally meet me? I've been here. Seriously get off of me, Lu.
@‡ Jackson This was the version of you, you couldn't see~ /presses my face into your chest, breathing in the family scent as I closed my eyes, willing to fight you just to stay against you for a second longer/ you're beautiful. So ing beautiful. /Breaks down trembling, clinging to you tightly/ every day I waited to finally meet you. /Lightly shakes my head/ not even in my wildest dreams could I have imagined something like this.
@† Luhan *studies your features, your face distracts me of your hand touching my cheek. your words sparked nothing but anger and I gently push your hand away from me* No. No. Stop this.
@‡ Jackson As am I. /reaches up to cup your cheek in my palm, a saddened smile painting across my lips/ one day you will understand. If you were ever meant to truly be mine.. I had to.
@† Luhan That is exactly it. you Luhan. *pushes you away from me as you were too close for comfort* I've suffered far too much from your hands alone. I don't need you in my head.
@‡ Jackson Thats not it... Is it. /breathes out slowly as if finally clicks that you're alive, hand starting to shake as I move even closer, curiously looking you over/ you couldn't stay away, could you?
@† Luhan *gives a short nod, not bothered by your tears* Possibly. *takes a few steps back some more until my back hits the wall whlist you stepped forwards. I pushed away your hand once again, a small growl leaving my throat* I said don't touch me. *shakes my head* I wanted to see you crumble when you saw me alive. Now that you have, stay away from me.
@‡ Jackson /allows a few tears to slip before my face hardens as I give you a look over/ then why have you come? To torment me? /Dismisses your words as I take a few steps closer until I'm mere inches away, eyeing the bruise wrapped delicately around your throat as my fingers reach out to ghost across it/ I couldn't breathe without you. You could have stayed dead and been free of me.
@† Luhan You didn't pludge the knife deep enough. Doctors said mere inches more would've done the job. *winces at the touch on my chest, I push your hand away from me as your jerked it away* Don't touch me. Never touch me again. *steps a couple steps back* You saw me lose consciousness. When you were gone, I barely woke up and managed call the ambulance to get me.
@‡ Jackson No. You're dead. /says sternly, confident this time as I move to stand before you, puffy eyes trailing upwards to meet your gaze/ I killed you. /whispers hoarsely as I reach out to press my hand through your chest to prove it to myself that you were only a figment of my imagination only to hault at the presence of flesh, forcing me to jerk my hand back/ I saw you die.
@† Luhan *squints at you as you thought I was a figment of your imagination* It's eating you up inside. Your love you have for me, your obsession. You think I'm a ghost to come back and hunt you, we'll think again, Luhan. I'm much more dangerous than any other ghost. I'm alive... You're very lucky I love you enough to not lock your crazy away. Ph no.. I'll get my revenge, Lu.
@‡ Jackson /gasps softly as I turn to face you, eyes wide with disbelief as I stare for what felt like an eternity before shaking my head/ you- you're dead. /takes a deep breath, taking a step back as if I had seen a ghost/ are my dreams not enough that I must see you here too?
@† Luhan *is angered by the two simplist words but still weak to lash out my emotions* You tried to kill me, Lu *gets my voice down to a whisper* You don't have one ounce of regret or guilt from you?
@‡ Jackson /tries to hide from the stranger at first before the sound of your voice feels oddly familiar, closing my eyes tighter when it suddenly begins to feel like I'm hearing and seeing you everywhere, lightly shaking my head/ what for? /Chokes on the words before taking a deep breath, trying to calm myself from breaking down/
@† Luhan *still recovering for your attack, I don't know what compelled me to come to the club knowing you'd be here. Maybe I wanted you to see me and how I survived. Comes across the tattoo room where I see you standing in the door frame. My eyes squint to see the display of emotions hunting over you*
Guilty?
/slips inside here, taking a deep breath before the emotions slam into me full force, leaning against the door frame as I close my eyes, caging the tears threatening to spill as my whole body begins to tremble, hugging myself tight as the silence of the room begins to consume me/
Hello, first I am so glad this rp.is still here! Secondly I was wondering how long some one has to be inactive by on hiatus before I can ask for that character? Thanks
