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@「 jeongguk 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿ *Jungkook rock on his heels, pressing his fist against his eyes. His mind was blurry, thoughts after thoughts, chasing one another. Body tense. He was panicking, he realised. Slowly, step by step he looked up, relaxing his shoulders and took few deep breaths. In and out. The first thing he was taught during his very first hospital practice was to always keep breathing. Whatever trauma you are handling, no matter how much blood or how severe the injury or sickness, you need to keep breathing. If you stop, if you hold it,  with the lose of oxygen you will lose your clear mind. So Jungkook breaths. *

*Only when he deemed himself calm he analyses entire situation one more time.  Everything, from Hoseok words to your reaction. Everything. Gosh it hurts. It hurts so badly. He could only imagine his broken expression and total shock he was in in the first moment. That was brutal. Unexpected. Meant to hurt. Meant to push him away. Because Jeongguk did not know how to share bad things. No one ever wanted to be there. So it make sense. It hurt but made sense and he hopes his slow human brain could catch up on that fast enough.  He made his decision and then, gasped at the forein touch on his cheek and moved away instantly. His shocked eyes meet Taehyung's.* I said no! *He states firmly before you even finished your sentence, already looking away. Jungkook stood up abruptly, determinated.* Do not touch me! *He said once again, taking few steps back and then touching his throat. *

Jeongguk. *He calls, voice steady, loving and warm. /Your/ lover, calling /your/ name. Demanding you.* Jeongguk. *He repeats in a quiet, soft whisper.*


*When you appeared he was ready. Jungkook wrapped his arms around you, well aware that you could break free at any moment but that didn't matter. He pressed you tightly against his chest, resting his chin on your shoulder.* Stop running Guk. Stop running. I am here. You need to stop running away from me. *Was the first thing he said, and pressed the kiss to your hot cheek, pulling you even close.*  I am not done with you, you hear me?  Rules be dammed but I love you, do you hear me? I do. So stay. Breath for me and stay. *His embrance was warm, his heart beating fast, his chin lightoy digging into your shoulder, cheek presses against yours.  He was holding you as if to prevent you from breaking. * i love you. Please stay Jeongguk. *He repeats. It was important for you to know that your words did not change that. That despite the situation you still have his heart. *

*Taehyung watched the other cover his face before his fingers trailed to uncover jungkook’s face* either way it does not look like you two would ever last. As his roommate I would know what kind of person he is the best. That being said, *he began as his fingers gripped at your chin to look up into his eyes.* I would not mind comforting a pretty face as yours. *Compared to his roommate, his touch was cold. Apathetic and unfeeling. Yet his eyes were compelling. A sea green poisonous lake that usually humans had no way but to be entrapped by*

*not one time was it not jeongguk’s fault. Almost everytime you reached out to him it was his fault. And yet that was probably the main reason we lasted for so long. Because yes, he tends to give up quickly when things get too hard. That’s for anything, always the type to be a perfectionist at the things he’s good at yet gives up quickly on the things he doesn’t quickly pickup on. Even that mindset of his was a problem for others and another reason he never got anything stable. Because he gives up too easily on stuff he’s struggling with getting. So if it’s really affecting you much to finally not chase him and instead leave him alone for once, maybe that’s the best answer for your sanity as well as security.*

*with emotions, yes it’ll be messy. But when he’s calm? That fire in him would’ve already left enough to finalize his thoughts. If you left him in his still unsure firey state but then returned when the flames settled, all you’d return to is the damage done. It would become much more difficult to change or repair anything- very different from the way your patients worked since yes, the firey part is a state of uncertainty but at least a still fickle one as opposed to afterwards when all the ashes settled into a certain place.*

*that’s why now he’s going to his hobi Hyung as well. He was starting to reach that state when all his decisions had settled and he’d start from 0 all over again, having burnt all the bridges he’d once formed*

*This has nothing to do with accepting you at your worst, but how to handle this situation. If it was indeed Jungkook fault he would chase you down, ready to fix it. But this time he wasn't at fault here. He tried to help and you attacked him.  Now Jungkook didn't  know what to do.*

*If there was one thing that his patients  taught him was sometimes its better to give them time to calm down. Sometimes trying to put down a fire fueled by chemicals won't work and it's to wait till it burn down. Calm, you would be able to listen and talk. *

*Yet even with all this knowledge Jungkook didn't know what to do. He was in shock, speechless. You attacked him with everything you had and Jungkook was left shaken. He was only a human. Patient but just a human. *

*He sighs, shaking his head.* No I did not meant that. Nevermind. I... *He hides his face in his hands.* I don't know what to do.  *He was indeed pathetic. He rubbed the tattoo on his neck wondering if calling you now would make a difference or make it even worse. He wanted to, but he was scared to do. Jungkook also knew that you needed Hoseok now. You needed your hyung. His forgivness and care.*

*He feel awful. Your words hurt so badly but you were also the only one that could do something about it. He was lost, in pain and alone and he just crumble.*

*he lifts a brow to jungkook* drink? I don’t usually drink my sorrows much. Unless that’s an invitation for intimacy? If so, I may be able to help with this. You are not my ideal type of slave but I would not mind the notion of comforting each other in hopes we have both recovered for the pain of that one

*still hurt, he scrolls through his phone to busy his deep thinking mind* go ahead and try to defend the other but I think you’ve tolerated too much. However…he’s right. I am only running from who I am. But I am truly a horrible person. I have only acted as a human to please others. I have tried to convince myself I do care. Was in complete denial, fervidly convincing myself as I acted and bonded with others here. But frankly… I don’t give even a damn if today the whole world dropped like flies in front of me. I suppose…that makes me a terrible human being.

*this scene has happened too many times for Jeongguk to count. The blowing up in peoples’ faces, renouncing ties, starting from 0. And each time, yes, everyone allows him to be left back at zero. No one would fight the very being who’d disrespect them like Jeongguk was doing now. They all didn’t want him at his worst. And now it seemed like you weren’t anything different. Even now Jungkook couldn’t truly handle the fire that was Jeongguk. Jeongguk knew how to make someone the happiest person but also the saddest by getting under their skin. Their bare emotions. You continued to believe in him, follow him. But the moment when jungkook decided not to chase after Jeongguk like he usually did, made everything become all the more real. The damage Jeongguk had done was irreparable. Fine. He didn’t deserve that happy ending for in the end. It was never his to keep anyways. All he ever truly needed was his hope anyways. His hobi Hyung.*

*Only people you actually love can truly hurt you, and Jungkook finally understands that saying. The impact of your words left him torn open. You did it with just a few words. Deep down he knew that it was an impulse and anger. That you were just hurt and wanted others to hurt as well but that didn't change the fact your words ruined weeks of progress. Tears weighed in his eyes but he did not let them fall. He didn't say anything. He didn’t know what. For the very first time, he didn't follow you to make you see a reason. Jungkook stayed, unmoving letting your words pick him apart, creating dents, then gaps before a piece of him fell to the ground.  Another follows close behind and he crumbles. Pathetic? Yes, he was Pathetic.*

*When you left, he took one shaky breath, then another, sniffing quietly as his shaky hands slipped into his hair and pulled, hard to ground himself. After what felt like ages but was only just a few seconds, he looked at Taehyung.*

No. That's not him. This is anger, panic, and hurt all mixed up. Sometimes he feels too much. He would say anything to make you feel bad, even if it's a lie. That's how he is. When he is hurting he wants others to hurt as well.  Only Hoseok can make him see a reason now. *He explained for an unknown reason. * With or without V's impact you are your person now, Taehyung. You make decisions. I don't think that you are horrible. Don't let his words make you doubt.  *Why he was trying to comfort you? He didn't know. He stood up.*

Do you want to go out with me for a drink? Or few? I... I want to... numb myself. *He proposes, not knowing what he should do with himself now. Part of him wanted to follow Jeongguk, but the other was scared. Of what else he would hear. How much more broken it would leave him.  Drinking his sadness away may be stupid but he was pathetic already, wasn't he? So what was stopping him now? You didn't need him now. You needed Hoseok.  *

*sighs as he watches his roommate leave. That hurt him where he was insecure about. He clears his throat* I suppose he’s revealed his true colors…

*jeongguk left the place alone, leaving destruction in his path*

*part of him knew exactly what he was doing was wrong. That he’d regret everything. And yet his tongue was slick with fire. There was no stopping his rampage. Burning bridges. Burning every tie he had because he deserved it. The two demons were similar. If V imploded, Jeongguk exploded*

*then he turned to jungkook with a softer burning glare. Like a fire that was leaving nothing untouched, he would burn jungkook too with his next words. He snorts smacking jungkook’s squeezing hands away* what, huh so just because we ed, you can’t ing think for yourself? *his eyes grew evil* are you /really/ that desperate to claim me? *snorts* pathetic. You look like a lovelorn while I’ve been ing others on the side and acting like you don’t exist until I actually wanna you *snorts hitting your insecurity right on the nail*

*And at Taehyung’s voice, he growled at Taehyung defensively* you, you’re turning into exactly his copy *snorts* what you can’t ing think for yourself? *he laughs. Rather than being quiet, he was only feeding the flame, just becoming worse and worse in the image he was given by hoseok and now reinforced by Taehyung. He snorts* what, so now you have black hair just cause you don’t wanna look like V Hyung all blonde and ? *snickers* no wonder no one ing loves you. You can’t even ing make up your mind. Even running from what you are ain’t really you and you ing know how ing horrible of a person you are!

*he bit his lower lip as his vision grew blurry. Hobi Hyung didn’t like him. Hobi Hyung thought he was insensitive when he was looking out for hobi Hyung, thought the people around hoseok wouldn’t judge him like Jeongguk didn’t. So why. Is he a bad friend? yeah, he’s always been a bad friend. He’s so insensitive what was he even thinking trying?*

Unknown reason? That’s weird. Usually it’s obvious. Last I know about him he doesn’t do like that. Either you gotta know why or it ain’t actually about you but something else. *his eyes looked down apologetically as his lip trembled. Hobi Hyung was disappointed in him. He could tell this much even if you called him your friend* s-sorry. O-okay Hyung…

*frowns at his nose being pinched by hoseok* that is partly why I have come to you. Because I had thought you may know better. But I assumed you have world hopped as well hoseok. I’m surprised you haven’t as we met in my world, not yours. *his eyes were hesitant yet he listened as you continued to explain about V Hyung.* are you sure? I truly think he’s only nicer because it is you. But…I do agree. He softens a bit due to just your presence.

*Jungkook stayed quiet, just letting the situation unfold. He didnt want to in any of this. His eyes observes as Hoseok slowly lose his smile, and fold into himself. Unconsciously you hit all the right buttons. He knew that you meant well and in your eagerness to help you completely forgot about the facts that Hoseok may not want to talk about it in public. He couldnt stop stop once you started. He slipped off your lap, sitting next to you and offering quiet comfort, pressing his legs against yours.*

*When Taehyung spoke he frowned and shake his head.* No. You are wrong Taehyung and do not say things like that you don't know single thing about Jeongguk. *He squeezed Guk's hands three times, giving you a reassuring smile.* I don't blame you. You meant well. You wanted to help just the execution of it was poor. Yet, I am sure Hoseok will forgive you later. Go on and talk to him. We will find each other later. *He smiles softly, giving you thumbs up.*

You wouldn't be able to know that. So I don't blame you for assuming he did. I mean, logically he should. I am his fiancé but for unknown reason he decided not to. I don't know why, but I will find out. *He shrugged because what else he could do. He was already feeling like he lost. That fact only make him feel worse, but he didnt allowed himself to think about it. He needed to be strong now. *

*That's exactly while he treated you all with careful politeness. It was easier to separate himself this way than be open and broken. Either way, you couldn't really comfort him. He also didnt want to burden you with that responsibility. This matter should be discussed in private. You had enough of your own problems. Especially Taehyung. Expecting anything would be just adding to it.*

*When Jeongguk stopped him. He looked up, patting your hand and offering a comfort.* I didn't say anything like that. You are still my friend. But don't talk about my issues in public next time, please.

*He then sighs* Now I need to go, find that .

To Taehyung:

He is right about that. *He frowns when you started to explain your reasoning and the sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose.* Next time before you base your opinion about him asking around people who dont know him, why not you reach out to me and ask? Jeongguk recommended him for a reason. *He pinched your cheek.* Silly boy. My Lord may pose as cold and unreachable but if you actually ask him about it he will answer. He did his best to take care of you before and Hobi. He is not a someone who will leave your questions unanswered. He will ask why, he will want reasons but thats his own curious nature. Just try. I can be around when you do, to make his edges softer.

*He looked coldly to jeongguk* I cannot speak for the professor jungkook. But yes, this was neither the time nor the place to bring up something serious- regardless if you knew the reasoning or not. Then again, I never expected anything more from you. it was expected of you to mess your relationships up again. Just as you hurt that last man of yours, Jeongguk hyung

*Taehyung stared at everything going down and hoseok breaking down. Abruptly, he had stood up, yearning to hold the other like hobi in his arms to comfort the other but then hoseok looked at Taehyung like a stranger, apologizing to him. He wanted to say nonsense, he doesn’t blame hoseok for his frustration and yet…those eyes regarding him as someone hoseok just inconvenienced rather than their stronger friendship bond? That made his voice stop in his throat.*

*when hoseok seems to excuse yourself, his lip has started to tremble, worrying if his Hyung is done with him. He reaches to grab hoseok’s arm* wait! *stops you with worried eyes and still trembling lip* d-do you not want to be my friend a-anymore? *he asks with scared doe eyes before hoseok walks out of his arms. He bites his lip trying not to cry as he turns to Taehyung then Jungkook* you blame me too huh, babe…? *he looks down before throwing a jacket on and briskly following hoseok out, not ready to give up, the type to fight for what he wants. Opposite of his roommate.*

[] I’ll reply assuming this happebed before he left! ]

*Jeongguk blinked slightly when hoseok seemed to tremble, starting to doubt what he was saying. Was he…hurting you? His words? He wanted to tug you back, grab you by the waist and hug the other as your feelings seemed like you were breaking down. To his thought process, he was telling it to you bluntly what he’s thinking in hopes of being a great friend. But it seemed like somewhere along his real talk he was hurting you?* s-sorry Hyung…I-i didn’t know. That he was legit not talking to you. The only times I remember him not being around’s those times when he’d be shut down in our original world. So I-I didn’t think he’d treat even you like that. H-he might hate me but I’d never seen him purposely ignore anyone he loves- even when that person’s directly hurting him. Even that ing furry…all because of his ty despair he lets whatever hurt carry on…

Thank you hoseok, I should shouldn’t I…? *he smiles lightly as if hesitant* I did bring it up to Jeongguk and he recommended V Hyung instead. But both my multiverse friend chaewon and I we both agreed that, it would be difficult traveling with that man. We’d prefer Jeongguk as he’s easier to get along with. Just…his circumstances with not having a body would make it so that world hopping with him would prove difficult if you understand what I mean?

*Hoseok slowly deflates with every word you said.  By the end of your monolog he wasn't even looking at you. His good mood was gone, as he plays with the hem of his shirt. Picking at the loose thread. He felt attacked and small, especially when you said all of in public. No only infront of Jungkook but Taehyung as well. His eyes burn and he bit his lips to keep himself together, avoiding everyone's gaze.  *

How would I know if he is not talking to me? I was hoping he would. Or at least call for me. Do anything but no. It's always on me. *Hoseok sighs heavily, observing the thread snapping under his fingers. At that moment he felt so tired and so alone. His mind was loud and it started to be painful. He battles his thoughts, he battles his drying heart, leaving nothing behind. Suddenly he misses Hobi. Being locked in his body with him, the comforting presence of other emotions, the affention and love he was receiving via him. Oh, how nice it would be to sink into that comfort. He sighs once again before he slowly stood up.* I will go look for him. He is probably in the mansion, lurking somewhere in his demonic way. *He snorted without a trace of amusement, looking at Jeongguk.* Thanks, but next time I would very much appreciate if you talk about this stuff with me in private.  *He looked over at Jungkook and Taehyung, bowing.* My apologies. 

Now, forgive me. I have demon to find and baby him out of his slumber. *He nods, leaving the room.*

Unfortunately Taehyung my knowledge about this is not enough. I won't be able to help you. You should ask Lord V or Jeongguk, they should be able to help you. *He points to your roommate.* But you are right. Maybe it will help you.

*hears his watch beeping* oh excuse me ladies *winks with phone* gotta leave, don’t miss me too much

*snorts* I’ll do whatever the I want whenever I want. And it don’t ing matter how scary he ing is. What, so just because you made one temp contract with him, you’re terrified of him? You’re mine baby, you should in reality be ing scared of me. Cause if I really wanted to, I could make you do whatever I want. Besides *he grips jungkook’s chin* I was asking about if someone other than my precious Hyung was in my lap. That if you say you mind, that means I can’t have that huh? *he smirks as his eyes flash red with a growl curdling in his throat* so I’ll and call your name in front of them but after you finger yourself, you’d let me my load in you? *he massages your arms, looking at you with the opposite of loving eyes as his brows furrowed in desire* , you do put in the work on that good body. Would be a shame if all you did was finger yourself. Yeah… *he growls* I’ll empty in you at the end then. y enough? *his voice whispered just a tad softer*

Nope. But that’s kinda why. Kinda thought you’d know *ends up snorting at hoseok’s logic* …no wonder you two are engaged. You both got some ty logic. Riiight so you’d rather never talk to your fiancé than at least see him without getting all handsy. *snorts* ing amazing logic you two got. And here I thought it was cause he might’ve overhead what that cat girl said about him being too scary… *snickers under his breath, shaking head* whatever it is, don’t you think then you’re waiting for nothing? *he blinks at the kiss but smirks and kisses back* Hyung~ you in a kissy mood? *snickers biting your neck* what about a ing mood? Not pretty *frowns because he really disliked being called that in general but tolerated it with one other person* I’m hot…

*he almost goes cross-eyed as his eyes followed your finger to tap his nose before he hums* maybe…do you know anything about world hopping? I want to first get to explore the worlds. Maybe then I can get to learn others. After first learning who I am