❂ Park

@☽ Jung Hoseok *jeongguk giggles laughing as he scrunched his nose at the thought of all three of them getting old.* yeah that guy had hella long hair that covered his eyes for a load of time in university. I can see that. And you’d be the popular old guy with the whole country club as your friends. Maybe gossiping too *laughs* oh…And I’d be like the still physical active one haha…probs a player with the ladies, maybe even a sugar daddy? Turning from a baby to an actual Daddy- dat glow up doeee *snickers. Then his smile plateaued with realization* well, I guess, unlike most of our versions, we probs won’t be *he smirks before adding on* I’m pretty sure when I met V hyung, he was like so much more ing old than me. But even I was fooled at that time as a human. You’d think demons and vampires were like pale white with blood red lips like in all those books and in media but *snorts* he looked as human as anyone else. Just a ty awkward one…I don’t think even /he/ knew he wasn’t human at that time since he always smiled and laughed in the beginning with me, jimin and our original Hyung…or maybe he was always acting- kinda like how I have to act like my past self in that full on university place *smiles to you* once you marry him, if you still wanna, you’ll stay the same age with us, too yeah? *he asks hopefully*

Alzheimer’s *he snickers scrunching his nose at your joke* damn Hyung, you coming out with all sort of punches today *he laughs after the soft kiss as he nuzzled your cheek* yeahh damn that guy reallly loves his bats don’t he? It’s like the weirdest thing I still can’t understand *he says in a tone of disbelief* like he could pick any weapon but somehow he picked the worst one. A bat. You know why?

*he smiles just letting you guess since it’s not like you needed to know. Not like with V hyung* pft like in the movies huh *admires you before revealing an awe expression* spoken like a true hobie hyung… *he hugs you close in his muscular arms and kisses your neck appreciatively* thanks. Like thanks so much. Just tell us if you get tired of being that mediator. I feel like with our original Hyung that was the most fun part for him- to see how he could make us see each others’ side. But not sure what you’d call it- especially if maybe you /don’t/ call yourself a people person

*he giggles lightly before squeezing your pouting lips* cute, Hyung~ *then his smile fell to a weaker one* im fine Hyung. With love in my heart, I’d feel fine. But thanks. I think now, V Hyung’s the one you probs need to give more a reason to keep living- since you helped me a ton already. *he smiles as he caressed your furrowing brows* love to see you get determined and *grins with his own devious determined expression, mirroring yours. He really liked seeing you determined like that with fire; it always inspired him* shove the hope down his throat, you do your best, hwighting hyung *grins*

Should I leave you alone so you can go and do it? *smiles wiggling his brows encouragingly.*

@☽ Jeongguk He would have a cane, and a nice tailored suit, he would stand straight like a stick even if his back was killing him after years of ing me. His hair may be gray, but he would keep it a bit longer for me. He would be a typical grumpy old man with a soft spot for his partner. *Hoseok face lights up with a small smile.* Me, on the other hand, I think I would be a cool grandpa who likes to play tennis, probably with new titan knees and many popping joints. Oh, and I would be the most stylish old guy out there. *He looked up at your face.* And you? You would have gray hair as well, but still in shape. Trying to be young for as long as you could, cool bad boy grandpa. Probably with back pains as well. And stretched out ears! From all the earrings! *He touched the silver loops in your ear gently.*

Well, If I get Alzheimer's after so many years of bat swings you can only blame one person, and that’s not me. *He teased, pinching your side.* But I heard that music helps a lot, so I guess I need to connect you to the song just in case. Then I will be able to remember the hot baby forever. *Hoseok made a small, happy soft when he received the kiss, closing his eyes for a moment. It was nice that he could just stay like this for a moment.*

*A soft chuckle followed by a kiss on your shoulder.* Sorry, maybe a dream walker then? *His worried expression did not change. He moved up, cupping your face and rubbing your cheeks with his thumbs.* No Jeongguk. I will not stand by and watch you getting hurt. You may hate each other, but I am the bridge in between, and I can’t stand it.

*He pouted, hard, moving away to glare at you. * Naughty little brat, I guess you should look for a new ideal hyung. *He huffed, pretending to be mad, but it was hard to do with your next words. * Oh Guggie, I really wish I could do something for you, heal your heart. Give the reason to keep on living.

*The fire started to fill his eyes slowly, there was determination and energy.* As soon as possible, I will scold him, and show him who is the ing boss. He is getting that hope one way or another. And so do you.

@☽ Jung Hoseok Pft! *snorts loudly* oh ! I just pictured that as a grandpa still telling peeps to not anger him *laughs at the image as he hugs you back with all your giggles, securing his arms around you and now a leg* well even if you turn gray, you’ll be rocking that look too. But I’ll get real ing mad if you forget me cause of old age. *hums* I don’t see what’s the problem there *grins* usually I ain’t the type to easily give my actual affection either outside of but you da special one so *kisses your cheek while hugging you* but don’t forget *winks* I’m the hot baby

*scoffs showing a hurt expression* no way! *gasps* after all I’ve done for ya, I’ve been reduced to a ing dream stalker! *complains. But then when you worry about him getting hurt because of you, his smile softness caressing your cheek* it ain’t the first time, Hyung…and it sure won’t be the last…I’d do it all over again if I could save someone the world needs more. Hope *he says suddenly being randomly serious. Then he pokes a smile out of his lips*

* a brow as if to say “try me .” You tell him not to do something, he’d do it* all of you Hyung, I ing dislike all of it *he waits with a serious expression before eventually breaking out into a -eating grin and laughing* nah Hyung, kidding kidding. I don’t know what to hate or love cause right now, you’re just…everything to me *he smiles thumbing your cheek* but if you’re that hopeful, no lies? Think you might even be better than our Hyung was. Well…we’d have to see. It’s time, really *he smiles and your hair* when do you think you planning to tell that by the way?

@☽ Jeongguk *He nuzzled your shoulder.* He is ancient. *That was his attempt to light up the mood.* Yah, kid. I am not old, I just have two babies to take care off. One very unpredictable demon, and one silly, goofy, impulsive brat. *He pinched your side, giggling under his breath.* I will turn gray soon because of you. *There was a chuckle.* Oh, you will pay taxes, in the form of many hugs I will steal from you.
You are a dream stalker, are you not? You are luckily it's not a wet one. *His hand found your face and pulled on your cheek lightly.* You won't be able to stop him. I don't want to risk you getting hurt. You've had enough. *He sighs deeply.* Nah, just make sure to wait for me in my dreams then.
*Lightly hit your shoulder.* That's good. Me as me will not change. Unless you think I should? Which part of me you now dislike? I will kick your if you say all. I am surely not that bad. *He joked, not letting this make him feel sad.* He expects me to fail at some point. Wants despair to consume me, but I will it all up and be the hope he never expected me to be.

@☽ Jung Hoseok *snorts softly in your head* definitely ain’t as old as V Hyung, that’s for sure. If he even /ever/ was a human…no clue…eh think you’re the old soul here, Hyung. I still go out get drunk and party, it’s just fun *laughs* maybe when I was a human, I could’ve been but that’s my freedom to /not/ gotta worry bout those adulting concepts like taxes *smirks* eh but I guess I work though…or more like exist *laughs dryly before scoffing*
Whatchu callin me a stalker for?! I’m not like that psycho ! *pouts then nods* you sure Hyung? If he makes you forget…you’d forget me until you come back to this state you’re in right now…
*rubs your shoulders. He wasn’t even sure what kinda hope you wanted to show him* I’ll be here either way. What’re you gonna show doe? You…don’t really act that different… *looks up and down you*

@☽ Jeongguk Am I? Hmm *He hummed under his breath, bone deep exhaustion settled down.* The face could be young, but is your soul? You call me hyung, but I am probably younger than you. *He pinched your side gently.* You will be there regardless, little stalker. I am not scared of him, but he will feel threatened most likely. Maybe he will swing his bat at me and make me forget. But he won't be able to make me forget who I am. We will see if he will accept the hope and still want me. *He hoped he would.* I am not abandoning you, why would I?

@☽ Jung Hoseok Nah Hyung you’re hella strong *holds your waist and hugs it. Notices what you said and blinks* hey whaddaya mean I’m old *pouts* my face’s literally still the same- my age too.. but huh. You want me to be there with him when you wanna? *his eyes widened at your words and bites his lower lip.* you got this, hyung. I’m here. No matter what happens, I’m riding wit you. So you go and show him up for once, babe *continues to massage you before sniffing your hair* please don’t abandon me… *says softly*

@☽ Jeongguk *If there was any anger left in Hoseok, he couldn't find it and use it against you to actually punch you.* I don't think I have anything left to give today, Jeongguk. *He gave in, sinking in your arms and resting his head on yours.*
Strong? You are so old and yet so silly sometimes, Gukkie. There is nothing strong about me today. It will be later. When I face him.
*He sighs, turning in your arms to wrap his arms around your waist, finding a way to turn you both into tangled mess of legs and arms, pressing his face into your neck.* I am going to be hope. That's who I am.

@☽ Jung Hoseok *a soft sigh echoes between your ear on the ground before you feel a pair of very warm muscular arms wrapping around you* sorry, you can punch me later *it mumbled as it caresses your head* you’re so strong. Forreal…it’s why I’m strong today…but …if I had no idea, now I really know Hyung… *laughs lightly before kissing your head* I’m gonna keep holding you like this for a while…

*It felt nice to be lost, now that he was out of the apartment. He didn't know the city, passing streets after streets, looking for a place to hide away from them. Away from anyone. After months, he finally reached the breaking point. Finally, he found a park, which he crossed rather quickly, but at the very end, he saw a cemetery in the distance. Small but well-maintained, squeezed between one street and a park fence. Hidden in the trees. Quiet and peaceful. He didn't even know what was pulling him there, but a few minutes later he found himself there, walking from tombstone to tombstone, reading the names of people he didn't know. He picked one, in the middle of it, with a small bench when he sat down. 'Kim Jaeseong' he read, brave soldier, beloved husband, died on 27.08.1950. Korean War he realized, as he looked at the gray photography. He saluted him by bowing his head and apologizing for disturbing his soul, but the tears were already in his eyes, and he sobbed loudly. The dam inside him finally broke.*

*He rocked himself, back and through, as violent spasms hit his body one by one. He wrapped his arms around himself tightly, and let everything go. He mourned, his village and the friends he lost, he mourned Yoongi and Jimin. His dear Seokjin and Yixing, which he never allowed himself to do. He mourned his Taetae, his soft smiles, his soft kisses, precious boxed smile. Their love and their end. He cried for his Lord, mourned their lost time, and the pain he caused him before they found each other again. He mourned the despair he had so often been the source of, though he had tried so hard to be the hope. He mourned Jeongguk and his unhappy love, heartbreak, and pain. He cried over Jimin, over his soft, poor heart. And at the very end, when it seemed like he ran out of tears, he cried over himself. How inferior he felt. How despite his best efforts he could never meet the requirements. How he could never be the hyung he aspired to be. He cried over how unneeded he was feeling and how hard it was to endure being constantly compared. He cried over his nasty jealousy, weaknesses. He cried and cried as his body shook. It took a long, long while, but eventually, it all calmed down. The sobs turned into quiet sniffs, and spasms into self—comforting rocking. Hoseok's face was red and messy, eyes swollen and bloodshot, lips bitten and red. *

I am not even real, yet I can feel so much, how is that fair? *He asked the tombstone. Voice harsh and quiet. The emotions left him, leaving an ash in his soul. Vast tracts of scorched earth. As fertilizer, so that he could build himself up again, brick by brick. Grow new crops of hope. * It's not I supposed. This world is not that easy. *The evening settled down, The last rays of sunshine disappearing, leaving a place for comfortable darkness, which hugged his body close and hiding him from everything. He wasn't able to see the words on the stone anymore, but it did not matter. Hoseok didn't want to move. Didn't want to be found, despite the cold and numbness. He needed this to rest. To be alone. There was a tiny hope that his bond didn't betray him and send all of this to his Lord because he wouldn't even know how to explain it. He would rather not put Jeongguk in trouble as well, because who knew what his Lord would do. Yet right now, there was no time to worry about it. He stood up and on shaky legs moved over to sit on the ground, squeezing himself between two stones. One pressing against his back, the other on the right side and tucking his legs under his chin, and wrapping his arms around it. He hid his face in his knees and kept on rocking himself.*

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@☾ Taecyeon Mnnn~
*moans softly into the kiss and blushes, not expecting to make that noise just from kissing you*

@☽ Niel *he slips his tongue out as well, starting another passionate kiss*

@☾ Taecyeon Good.
*slightly parts my lips and runs my tongue over your lower lip before retreating it back into my mouth playfully, smiling against your lips*

@☽ Niel I am too
*he continues to kiss your lips, his hands drifting back down to your waist once again*

@☾ Taecyeon I'm glad though~
*wraps my arms tightly around your neck and slightly deepening the kiss*

@☽ Niel Mm..~
*he just hums with contempt as he returns the kiss, slowly forming a smile*

@☾ Taecyeon Just making sure~
*chuckles and presses my lips to yours, making sure I'm as close to you as I can possibly be*

@☽ Niel Well, we'll see. For now, I don't regret it.
*he just leans up, puckering his lips out*

@☾ Taecyeon You might regret saying that in the future, you know.
*laughs again and snuggles closer to you*
Hmm, what about now?
Though I just kissed you, I wanna kiss you again.

@☽ Niel Mmhm, even in the middle of the night
*he puts his arms back around your waist, pulling you back to his chest*
Whenever you want

@☾ Taecyeon *chuckles against your lips and returns the kiss happily, giving you two more pecks as you pull away*
Even in the middle of the night?
*laughs and kisses your cheeks*
You're too kissable.

@☽ Niel *he pulls you in for a more proper kiss, holding his lips to yours for a few seconds before pulling away*
That's perfectly fine with me. That's an addiction I'll gladly deal with

@☾ Taecyeon *smiles sheepishly and nods, gently squeezing your hand*
Yeah I can, don't worry.
It was mostly because it was a bit of a distraction, but I know you like me back now, so we're all good.
*pecks your lips a few times*
I think you've gotten me addicted to kissing you.

@☽ Niel Hm- I hope you can still speak from now on without your hands, well, you get it
*he teases slightly, but now takes your hand in his, intertwining their fingers*
And I really like you too

@☾ Taecyeon *laughs and blushes a little*
I was less nervous that way, but I can repeat it.
*keeps my hands to myself this time*
I really like you; I like you a lot.

@☽ Niel *he can't help but chuckle slightly, reaching down with his free hand and pulling yours away*
Mm- say that again but without your hand on my crotch. It'll be a little more romantic at least

@☾ Taecyeon *smiles softly and continues rubbing like that for a little while*
Thank you.
*lays my cheek on your hand and nuzzles it a little*
I really like you, Taec.

@☽ Niel *he takes his hand and bring it up to your head, softly caressing your cheek with his thumb*
That's better.. you're doing so well

@☾ Taecyeon *shivers a little bit and blushes lightly*
S-Sorry, too excited.
*rubs you gentler this time, pressing kisses to your cheeks in apology*
Is this better, Taec?

(Oh you're fine, don't worry~)