☾ University for V

@☽ Jung Hoseok *he stares with crying eyes before his breath stops in his throat. He watches the only person he truly cares about be adamant to never change. His eyes grow colder before his hands reach for you* that is correct, beautiful… *he lifts you up in bridal style.* No one matters but you. No mortal matters but you, hoseok. No mortal can ever understand me but you. We will have our marriage. Whether those humans dislike it or not. We will rewrite our fates. I still have much plenty to plan with you. I will do my due diligence but you are mine. Taehyung will do much better as the face of this place. I have my beloved, beautiful to focus on. To love. To marry *and with that he carried you to the other world*

@☾ V *Surprisingly, Hoseok took it rather calmly. This was something somehow very familiar, something he struggled a lot after the debut. Meeting people's expectations, changing himself to make it work. But you were the last person he expected to be haunted by that, and he sat down on your lap, just watching you.* Why? Why do you keep pretending? I never asked you to do that. I don't want you to do that. You shouldn't do that. The Multiverse was supposed to be a place where we could be free. Yet, you created handcuffs for yourself. You need to stop. *He shook his head, expression serious, almost dangerously calm.* I can just give up on that place so quickly. And I can't let you feel like you can be yourself. So stop. Stop pretending there. Stop hiding yourself. You don't need to be likeable. You don't need to pretend in front of them. I picked you for a reason. I wanted to marry you for a reason and I always wanted our wedding to be small, with just us because you are the most important person to me. *His fingers moved down your cheek slowly.* Let's give it a try, the more people, the easier it will be to blend with everyone. Be hidden. But we need to get those souls first. But if we fail, I will close it, and keep it just for us, I can give you that. *He removes the hair from your forehead, pressing a kiss there.* I love you just the way you are and I always will be. Why do you care about others when our time together is not yet over. I learned the hard way that you can't satisfy everyone. You just can't, instead you need to keep going. Stop being so careful, stop pushing yourself, changing yourself for people so insignificant. I am the only person you should concern yourself with, and I am asking you to stop. I love my Lord, his unhinged, non-filtered version, his dark aura, and cold glaring eyes you gave everyone but me. You know I do, you watched me put them into my ring because I love them so much. I am now your past, present, and future. If you have to? Lie. Just lie to them. Lie about your age and don't care. Who cares about what they want? Not me, and certainly not you. You are a demon Lord who tries to please mortals? Just stop, take a deep breath and remind yourself who you are, what's your status, and remind yourself that you are not alone. I will follow you to the end of this world and any other we shall cross.

@☽ Jung Hoseok *you hit in nail in the center as his lip trembled* you don’t understand hoseok. For as long as that place is open to the public, I shall continuously be accommodating others’ tastes. Growing conscience of it going wrong. Being misunderstood. Is this really what we want? Do we want to share our wedding? Our multiverse under such conditions? It started with my servant yes. His death age. It transferred to be. To my ruling. I forced the one to change without any forewarning. I had to be particularly more nicer than I was in private university when I did not need to care about other souls but ours. At one point the stress and the overly conscientious feelings started to truly self-question what I am doing. What are we doing for others. Why am I laughing when I would never laugh? Why would I give anyone any choice to change me? Just because I am frightened this place will not do well if I do not? If my servant doesn’t constantly remind others in each sentence of writing he is older now just to justify what occurred in our past? I have seen how it affected my servant. It is one thing to aid in his age increase for you like he had done himself in private university to 18. But it is another to do it for public approval when it directly conflicts with his story. Because of it he is constantly questioning his lover if he looks alright. Acts alright. *his eyes fell* I am burdened with his existence to the point I think his time is done in public. I think my time is coming too, Hoseok. Even if I am of age, I may have to be 20 as well. Which conflicts with my story as well. Continuing to be different than I am to others only grits at me. I used to enjoy my time here, Hoseok. But being so overly conscious…it may just be we were already out of time…

@☾ V *Hoseok face showed pure concern, confusion all mixed, and he moved closer, cupping your cheeks and lifting your face up.* What's wrong? What made you feel like it? Is it Taehyung? *Your words kept on confusing him further, yet he listens, patiently. Letting you voice out your concerns.*It's like you are waiting for something bad to happen each moment. Analyzing even the smallest change. But what makes you feel that way? I am safe in your arms, I am safe in Taehyung's as well.I am protected. I do not desire to seek other people. *He rubbed your cheeks.* You never felt that way in private university because you didn't have to pretend. You could be just yourself, but still can. It's people's problem, not yours, and you do not need to accommodate anyone. Not in that world. There is no reason to walk on the glass because I want you there. I want my phantom to be there. *He presses a kiss to your forehead, and both eyelids.* My sweet heart, my dear lover, my made to be soulmate. What is making you so insecure?

@☽ Jung Hoseok *his eyes stare as you seem to break down and even doubt yourself. Usually, he would consider it a great opportunity to delve into despair, to, as you said so accurately, take care of his beautiful slave of a queen. But this time because of his sadness that could not be likened to despair but just sadness itself, he shakes his vehemently.* No…No. beautiful, believe me. I want that wedding. Our universal wedding *he attempts to give you a smile only for his eyes to fall down slightly* just not an open world to others… *he purses his lips as he tries* there was a time when I desired to show that to the world. marry you in front of everyone… But now… it has grown to become that constant feeling of stepping on glass. Every single moment I am unnecessarily too conscientous Of. I would prefer to marry you and keep our world closed for only us *he tries not to break down with a trembling lower lip. As if indicating he was being pushed into such a decision helplessly than actively seeing it from the beginning. Afterall how eager he was for the world to open to now desire the complete opposite? Whatever occurred had made whatever strong motivation finish. Something powerful. That feeling of stepping on glass must have been that powerful to cause a complete helpless shift. Like a child with eager eyes jaded by reality. Similarly, a psychopathic lover who didn’t care about what others did and only did whatever he desired to accomplish his own goals only to be broken down into a fake personality of a lover, masking of an individual, self-justifying his psychopathic actions to others.*

@☾ V *He blinks and pulled back, confused. * We have a world to run, world you wanted for us. I wont just close it because you got bored. *His eyes narrowed in anger.* You put me through hell and back so we could open it up. You pushed me aside like a ing toy. A nd now when I finally did everything, you want to close it. *He moves away, needing a space. * After your actions during your birthday I wanted to dissapear in unvillage so you would never see me again. You broke so many things in me that day, but small part of me kept on believing in us. Kept on pushing. Thanks to Taehyung I was able to somehow stand on my own two feet, no thanks to you. I worked so hard, so, so hard to bring everyone there, to bring us together. To create a space for us all and you just want is to close it? Why? Didnt you wanted us to have our universal wedding there? Or maybe you changed your mind about that too? Do you want your ring back? Do you even care about me? Do you even see me V? Because lately I feel like I am invisible to you. You are just pushing me around without care, to get what you want.i thought you wanted a Queen. But all you are getting is a weak, broken slave.

@☽ Jung Hoseok *nods slowly, yet staying quiet when he realized you didn’t understand why he said that.* yes no more of the public

@☾ V I told you that already. I am staying. You are not alone. You wont be ever again. *He said quietly, rubbing circles into your skin. *

@☽ Jung Hoseok *unlike his servant, his ability to feel emotions are not tied to his love as you seemed to assume when he kissed you but did it in despair. He was sad. You can’t expect he can combine such opposite feelings unless he’s in despair- which he’s not. He’s only in sadness. He holds you hard to him* I love you…please do not ever leave me…

@☾ V *He was happy you kissed him, and he wanted you to forget about all the worries for a moment but even that didnt not worked. He could feel the switch, the pull back and he stopped feeling rejected He his lips and closed his eyes, going back to his previous position in your arms but not longer speaking. Useless, thats what he was. No matter how hard he tried he couldnt help. His heart aches, wanting to comfort you.*

@☽ Jung Hoseok *this was not related to the reason he was filled with sadness but because his beautiful begged, he turned off his emotions and kisses you to please you- especially when he was not holding back but just terribly helpless and sad. But with his emotions turned off, his kiss is filled with despair as he resolved himself to do what you desire from him instead.*

@☾ V Kiss me... *He begged* I want you to lose control and kiss me. Stop holding back. I wanted that for a long time.* Hoseok looked up his eyes an ocean of love for you, swaying,*

@☽ Jung Hoseok *he eventually calmed down enough to talk but barely* Hyung are you not sleepy? Please don’t pay me no mind, you should sleep…ve done enough

@☾ V *He couldnt see what exacly you did to his shoulder, all he could feel was pain and a great amount of it as he stiffen in your arms. But he didnt screamed or pushed you away, he kept still, holding you close. It was probably big bloody mess that stained his and yours clothes but he didnt mind. After you healed him he leaned on your chest, closing his eyes and pressing kisses to your skin whispering sweet words, soothing you.*

@☽ Jung Hoseok *if it was a bite, maybe that would have been better. But he is not a vampire but a demon. Meaning he could feed on mortal flesh too. Luckily, that nawimg on your body was stopped by your warm essence and your voice. streaks now fell down his face as his other hand went to caress and heal your tearing shoulder. He almost broke the only love of his life that stayed for him. This time not even on purpose but through his sadness. Then he burrowed his head in your hair, resting his chin on your head with quiet sniffles when you soothe him.*

@☾ V *The bite hurts way more than usuall and his fingers twisted in your shirt but he managed to not make a single noise. He relaxed slowly, his hand rubbing the back of your head and neck, comforting you.* Shhh, it's alright I am here, you are not alone. You will never be alone ever again.

@☽ Jung Hoseok *was crying and crying in his thoughts silently yet is confused when his head is turned to skin. No…his thirst for blood has faded almost completely. But on habit while still crying as if he wanted to destroy everything he touched, he bit down to kill. To break. To control. Something to keep him tethered as he’s breaking down around himself. Suddenly your body was his to destroy. If it wasn’t for your warmth which made his stop nawing and continue crying. This time in admittance of that helpless feeling.*

@☾ V *You were inconsolable and unable to ralk and you needed to calm down first. He combed your hair, rubbed your back, pressed kisses to your face head, neck and shoulder but it simply wasnt enough. He pulled back, ing his shirt and exposing his neck and shoulder.* Bite me and drink. You need more than this. You need my essence to fill you, my love. *This time it wasnt ual, it was Hoseok offering himself. Reminding you he was yours entirely. Trusting you with his fragile life.* Whatever it's haunting you we will face together but first drink and calm down. *He tilted he head to the side, giving you even more access and gently guiding you down towards it.*

@☽ Jung Hoseok *No. This is not despair. This was the worst feeling that could occur to him. Pure sadness.*

@☽ Jung Hoseok *you kept asking questions while he continued crying helplessly in your shoulder, not able to think or feel except despair. It was overwhelming him as his breathing fell in and out sharply.*

@☾ V *Blinks even more confused, as he rocks your in his arms quiet for a moment. He was at lost and he didnt understand what happened. What caused this strong reaction from you.* But didn't you want people there? To marry me...? Forgive me my love but It seems like I can follow up. We are there aren't we? Together.

@☽ Jung Hoseok I did. But *glares trembling coldly crying* no one deserves it but us. You did nothing. You are perfect. You are beautiful with your faults. *when you sit on his lap, his tear-soaked hair still covering his eyes, his lip trembled as he buried his head into your shoulder*

@☾ V Why? Didn't you wanted that place? *He tried to look up to see your face and expression.* Talk to me, what changed? Why do you, my proud Lord want to run away? What do you mean we are stepping on a glass? Did I do something, please talk to me. *He was truly concerned and he forced you to change the position he could sit in your lap, see your face as he holds it in his hands.*

@☽ Jung Hoseok Let’s close everything down hoseok. Let’s run away to our own place. Where we do not need to keep feeling like we’re stepping on glass… *grips tightly*

@☾ V *Hoseok definitely did not expect that as he allowed you to shift the position. He rested his head on your chest, somehow twisting enough in your hold to wrap one arm around your middle. The other cupped your cheek, wiping the tears.* Oh, dear, what's wrong? Why are you crying my Lord? I am here.

@☽ Jung Hoseok *when you answered the call, for once in a rare moment, his eyes broke into tears* hoseok… *he doesn’t let you backhug him and holds you close to his chest, resting his chin on your head as he cries silently. Caressing your head of hair and kissing it softly*

@☾ V *Hoseok gasped when he first felt the tug. It was faint and he could almost mistook it as something else. He was the one using the bond all the time. You barely even acknowledged it, not using it even once. Even complained when the hurt transferred back so Hoseok did his best to minimize things to the bare minimum to not make it hard. He didn't want it to be a burden. In some moments he almost didn't feel it and now for you to tug on it out of the blue. He was speechless for a moment before he answered the call. *

What you are doing here all alone in the darkness? *Hoseok whispered against your ear, as he slowly materialized behind you, wrapping his arms around your frame and back hugging you, leaning closer, and engulfing you in his warm body.* It took you quite some time to finally use it. *He points to the bracelet, pressing a kiss to your temple.* I am happy you did

@☽ Jung Hoseok *Taehyung entered and sat back down to the meal with slightly despairing eyes. It hurt to think what may occur if his own multiverse he worked so hard on with you had to be scrapped. But also part of him just desired for it to happen quickly. He doesn’t want to be the one held in suspense and would rather close it. That way he would not need to focus on anyone else. It was tasking as it is trying to continue to be V in their eyes when he preferred being cold to any and everyone. Taehyung of private university could come and go recognizing that he had to balance the two worlds. But V only hoped, yearned there would be a time he could only need to talk to his hoseok. It was straining even if he’s more able to balance his hodgepodge of tasks than Taehyung could.*

*now he exhales in sits in the dark in quiet silence, pressing the warm bracelet against his cheek and closing his eyes* hoseok…if you can hear me. Feel me, please come to me. Beautiful *he calls softly with closed eyes. It was clear everything he had recognized needing to be updating, the whole opening of the multiverse, so much more. It was taking a toll on him to be unusually conscience of himself. Now he yearned to stay with his beautiful. Stay with his beautiful and eat the quiet meal alone in the dark. He never enjoyed rushing things so this week was intense there as well, always walking out to greet and eat lunch with the occupants he still had no way of knowing he could trust yet slightly having to in order to communicate better*

*with strained tired eyes lacking sleep, he sipped his coke and ate a bit of the food he paused in freshness off his plate.*

@☽ Jung Hoseok No it’s not that, I’d do it in a heartbeat if I needed to too. Cause hyung…you deserve everything so ing good to happen to you so what’s one night of hot steamy ? I’ve always wondered how you’d taste *snickers* but yeah, nah I probs shouldn’t when you and I both have that someone- even if he’s a ing jerk… and I’d normally taken people too if they asked for it…

You’re a ing /great/ Hyung. *he nods as he thinks* okay, I think I know the conditions. It’s enough. I think it is. We’ll see. , im trying to act like im not scared when im almost ting *laughs dryly then gets up in the dream still*

Come with me, Hyung. You never saw how I travel between worlds huh? *winks. He grabs you by the waist then pulls out a tablet* put your game face on, time to make a deal with the devil *snickers*

*he taps a few keys, showing you as he does it before it shows private university on his tablet. Exhales. Then you feel your conscious slipping* Lego together *grins walking you with him* don’t worry, it won’t hurt you cause you have a body here and a body there but once we meet there, I’ll be gone cause I’m dead already just here I can be seen as a demon ish *smirks*

*the both are then transported to their respective bodies as soon as our conscious dematerialize*

@☽ Jeongguk Yes I know. I don't want to mess up either, even if he was the one who put a pause on us not me. He could only blame himself. *He says, relaxing back.* I don't want to use you because I am needy. It's not fair you don't deserve this.

Any help will be good at this point, and he can actually show me if he cares about me enough to make my best friend happy. I will fight alongside you. *He nods, confident.* Right now, think about the condition you want the most and one that you can let go just in case, so we know on which we should insist. *He thinks for a moment.* I think that at this point I sacrificed enough, it's time to take and take like he was doing all this time. He wanted a queen, and he will be getting a queen, and I will demand.*Knowing that you will help him escape it was great and it calmed his heart.* You will be with me from the beginning to end, I doubt we will . I am way too angry and hurt to let him touch me. I just really want to slap him hard. That's what I want to do.

I love you to baby Gukkie, and I am your ally, always. I may be weak as human, but I can fight. *He kisses your forehead.* I don't know about other Hoseok, but I am a great hyung.