☽ An Alley

*he breathy giggles at the soft lipped kiss to his cheek before smirking and pecking your sweaty self back on the lips* yeah…h *more than tough, it was his extreme tsundere side because at times. Especially when he’d insult or bully the people he liked, it truly shone. Still, he has to snort at your apology* don’t ing apologize, you did nothing, baby daddy… *he kisses your lips lingering*

*he listens then purses his lips nodding. He wasn’t aware of a lot. That the psycho added a balancing condition in your contract, too if it would end up not being enough. Nor did he know of that memory erasing was part of your contract but more later and temporary* you had a long night baby *he snickers kissing your lips* I think imma tie things up here and then I’ll see you in your world soon *winks* for now, you smell like , so good. But I probably drained you so rest until it’s morning…

[this is all we can do for now. Please let me know if I’m missing anything. Again. I think we should be good to end but you didn’t tell me yes or no yet]

*Jungkook laughed softly, pulling you closer to press his lips against your cheek, murmuring the answer into your cheek.* Confident huh? You just when I openly want you and take you in deep, without holding back. *He playfully bit the soft flesh of your cheek. He stayed close, gazing into your eyes, as you, slowly find your own confidence and right words, dropping the 'tough' act. Even if he didn't mind it, he was used to it, the real, honest Jeongguk was always leaving an impression and made him proud. Because it wasn't easy to admit anything and be vulnerable with him. Finally, he smiled, cupping your cheek, and closing his eyes as he nuzzled you some more, pressing his cheek against yours.* Thank you and I am sorry... for dying. 

He won't let you do that. Unfortunately, but that's at least something I can prepare somehow. I mean, I know what they could do, but they no longer hold power over me. I can say now and send them back.

[I feel like after one more reply, this should be done but pls let me know ]

*he hums thinking about it more* huh…guess I really have no idea. I mean, they’re just way more confident. Know what they want and how to get it. *smirks* I like that. But wasn’t always that way cause of some “other” old es… *referring to a specific one that was part of and pretty much started his descent. He looks in serious awe, still surprised even now by your words* right…I… *inhales having a hard time admitting it* I want to too- not that I’ll cry like you do if I don’t *he teases harshly in his pride. Then his smirk disappeared* I’m sorry, no. You’re great. For as long as we can see each other, I wanna be with you until you die in that world

*he stays quiet thinking in his head with a hum. Nothing you said protected him. But he just smiles* thanks baby daddy *pecks your cheek* But , I have the strongest urge to erase that family torture condition

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*Jungkook couldn't hold back a giggle, so full of joy and amusement when you agreed with him. * Old es, more experience? Like wine, tastes better as it ages. *As you grew serious, so did he, pressing a kiss into your hand, rubbing it.* We both made some serious mistakes, but we are here now, we can learn from it. I want to stay by your side if you will have me.

*He shook his hand.* No, never. He told me I should protect myself not you, but with my limited knowledge about your relationship I didn't want to be turned into a weapon to hurt you. I wouldn't forgive myself. I don't really care what will happen to me, but you should not be harmed by my hand. *He looks at you with serious eyes.* I agreed to be tortured by my family, I don't think he can do anything more cruel to me.

[sorry, I passed out hard. If I can I’ll add more but by the end, just decided to quickly answer for now. If I have time, I’ll make sure to edit but feel free to reply ]

it ing is… *he snickers but continues our unusual warming cuddle. He kisses your skin but for the most part, stays obedient. Then he smirks* just a thought, baby. You know I’m into older es *he teases before his smile warms then snickers* did you ever leave me? Think it’s the other way around… *but despite the teasing his smile was paired with serious eyes too.*

[going to have to void the parts talking about the selling soul because otherwise, wall chronologically would have to change]

*his eyes widen at the conditions and everything* , you’re y when you’re being all nerdy… *he purses his lips as he thinks about the conditions then pauses* but…did that psycho ever specify what kind of hurt and …? He has the weirdest loopholes in his contracts. And again, if it’s too much in one person’s favor, he’s /supposed/ to balance it and

*He let out a soft, tired giggle.* How can I blame you... my ty is heaven. *Leans into your touch. He could be so exhausted and oversensitive, but your touch was always welcomed. He melted into it, with your still buried deep inside. *

Gonna make my baby boy all hot and needy for his baby daddy. *He wiggles his eyebrows, pecking your lips before he laughs.* I guess I can be a baby momma as well, with my hair an all, but damn... have you seen a woman so muscular and able to pick you up easily? *There was this glittering playfulness in his eyes, but the next words were serious, and you knew he meant them.* Never. I don't want to leave you ever again.

He gave me all sorts of options first, but I just couldn't let him do that to me. Firstly, he wanted to erase my memory and give me the peace of mind for the time being before my death. The second option was to kill me off and give me a better life without any memories of you, but with less trauma and a chance for a better life. I refuse them both. The third option was astral projection, or whatever he called it. So I could speak with you, bring you back and basically be able to see you again. I agree. *He explained his options carefully, bringing back memories of is face. * He looked quite... huh. I told me I was insane, but he was pleased with that discovery. Shocked but intrigued. *He sighs.* So I sell my soul to him. Well, at least I think so. He told me that the proper contract will come later because there is not much history to be impactful enough for him. That he has a duty to you as well. He notified me that this whole thing is risky and if I fail I may die. Honestly, it was all so confusing, but I indebted my soul to him and will have to pay back later. He asked me to prepare my conditions. So I did... *He grew quiet for a moment, glazing into your eyes before he carefully repeated it. * I don't want to be used to hurt Jeongguk or do him any harm. To balance it out, I agreed for my family to come back, and haunt me. *He gently touched your cheek.* It is unclear to me why he did what he did, I was not in the right mind at that time. But despite that, the condition is strong. He can't hurt me because it will cause you harm, so he will be harming you using me, by hurting me. So as long as you care and want me, I am untouchable for now. Condition is condition. If he breaks it, he will break his own contract, am I correct?

*Jeongguk enjoyed the way your body bent in pleasure for him until your stomach clenched and he rode the rest of his own into then plateau until your release. At your scolding, though, he snickered as you practically begged him to not move in you and end up exhausting you further.* no promises, baby daddy…h *he breathes but gulps the desire back despite gripping your waist. Close to him as he holds you close to him while still filled with his limp self* you don’t know
How damn irresistible you taste… *he smirks but still manages to cup your cheek*

*he hums when you remind him you forgot so he’d have to re-ask all his questions. But before he could, he gulps hard when you felt him in you and yet again admit that something he already knew. But when you say it, it’s mutual* , look who’s talking… *he murmurs kissing your lips* I have all your attention, all of your everything. It’s so hard to stop that feeling when such a y piece of is here for me and only me. *snickers kissing your ear* it’s like our own little private party. My pretty
Baby Momma or Baby Daddy. Doesn’t matter cause you could play both, pretty daddy. All you need is to never leave me alone for too long

*he finally recalls* but before we again, while I can still hold myself to think- what’s the contract that psycho made you agree to, what’re the details? How long it extends for? Even the conditions, baby daddy. The more I know, the more I might be able to understand that’s his goal. *laughs confused* I already can’t believe he’d have even tried to make a contract with you when everything’s ending like that…heh. Especially cause usually whatever contract humans would make with him they end up regretting… *he grew more quiet with a dry snort* lord knows my shaw- my ex did…

*The pleasure rocket through his body in waves and an hit his body. It lasted for a long while, and he shook from the force of it before he turned limb in your arms. He couldn't form any coherent answer for a moment, his mind blissfully empty and quiet, his body tired, aching in the best possible way. As he came back down, his thoughts less cloudy and pushed aside by raw desire, he embraced your hands in his hold. He breathed in and out, calming his heart beat, clearing his mind.* Mhm, needy. *He repeats with a lazy smile, rubbing circles into your skin. He was so well ed, so completely satisfied. Melting.*

Mmm... oh *He whimpered, far too sensitive when you slipped back in, flinching.* Okay, but stay still, please? I can't do another round, I will pass out. *He warned softly, knowing his limits. His voice was still harsh after intense choking and cries, and he needed more than a minute to get back his energy. Even if this was just a dream, his consciousness felt fragile in some sense he couldn't really explain.*

*Jungkook presses his own kisses to the skin he could reach, rubbing your arms lazily.* That is a good idea. *He chuckles, his eyes fluttering under your touch.* You asked me some questions, could you repeat them? About the contract? What did you want to know? *He frowns, trying to bring them back, but his mind was already too focused on the inside him, to pay attention. He answered your kisses, before his head falls back so he could look at you.* You are hot, you know? Hot baby boy. *Jungkook smiled with another soft chuckle. * Sorry I didn't had a chance to say that before

*the two needed to talk about it, another entity would agree as the two continued to take advantage of their time together. Jeongguk would’ve definitely thought it was hot that you came all the way over to talk to him but couldn’t take it anymore and just needed him. The same way he constantly needed you when he wasn’t in any depressed mood. The best way to get him to talk without thinking about ing you again and again as an incubus was to get him in a depressed mood. Otherwise, he’s constantly like a ravenous starving for food human. At least- he’s never ed when hes depressed except when it’s anyone else asking for it first. Usually anger was easier than sadness. And usually, he can angry at himself for being sad for no reason so it’s rare. Not impossible but rare for him to willingly want to when sad. Something his ex-roommate couldn’t relate to as that’s his roommate’s thing. Despair and whatever.*

*he growls into your ear as our skin continued to slap when he pulled you up against his chest. If he wasn’t choking you, he’d have grabbed your hair and went ham on your plump . His lower stomach twisted as he growled in your ear and he curses when you clenched on his even tighter* you’re so- so y…pretty *he kissed until he couldn’t kiss no more, enjoying your moans and begging and tugging at your ear with his teeth as you bounced on his .* - ing h *His twitched as he rolled his hips at each hard , making your body lurch at each slow riding . Squirting more and more of his in you. As he slowed down, he could kiss you better and so he did, panting against your mouth and breathing as he smiled softly at your teary face thanks to his choking. The rest of the saliva he drinks from your lips, you dry before finally letting you rest back on your bed.*

*he had leaned forward to kiss and all the from you but when you asked for him, he thinks about it and leaves your perky to crawl back up and embrace you in his arms* you’re y when you’re needy, know that? *he grins despite the sweat highlighting his own face too. Then he holds you tightly to him. He might insult you and call you his . But unlike those victims, you also had his heart. So despite not knowing what will become of us, he wants to grasp you close and fall asleep next to you. He peppers kisses to your cheek and neck and continues as he nuzzled to your neck fluttering kisses* I’m gonna keep my inside *he mutters as he grips your waist, gently pushing his limp back in despite his exhaustion*

*then he laughs lightly* sorry…you’re just so y I feel like I’ll keep wanting to you so maybe we should talk…? *he kisses your lips softly before pushing your long hair off your forehead* you look good like this all exhausted too *snickers teasingly*

*Jungkook knew they will need to discuss details and about all this stuff, but he also couldn't just stop /feeling/ and /wanting/. It was beyond him, especially when your warm and hard was buried deep inside of him. Just, one more round, he promised himself. One more round and we will talk. *

*As you showed him down, deep into the pillow, he whimpered, satisfied with the feeling. For a very first time, he actually just focused on the touch. he didn't disconnect from his body like he would do in the past when he was abused. It was you, your hands around him, pushing and pressing and your pounding him down like there was no tomorrow. It all makes this so much better. Knowing that he could trust your hands and they only meant pleasure. * Yes, wants it... *He arched back, but leaned on your arm, letting the gravity take its toll on him. A small, short and cut moan later, he was in his heaven. Time slowed down, he could feel every , every slap, and hear each gasp against his ear. His lungs burned with need, but his body could not stop the pleasure. Growing even more sensitive. One small breath break before it all started again, * y.. yeah *He let out, drooling, pupils dilated and face red. * nghhh... liiike twhat... *He closed his eyes making all sort of constricted noises from pleasure.* youer... who.. or bab..behy *You always brought him back from the edge of darkness. With your voice, or fingers, or even sloppy kisses. It was messy, sloppy but answered them back, clenching on your hard. And when he finally thought he won't be able to take anymore he came. Violently, shaking and twitching in your arm, before he lost all control, sinking in your arms like a rag doll needing a solid minute to come back to his senses. When he spoke again, his voice was harsh, and your still burring deep inside him. He reached up, fingers pulling o your hair lightly .* I am the best ing you could find, baby boy. *He teased, before he let go, once again limb.* Please hold me * He asked, so tired, and well, spent. He pressed kisses into your arm, nuzzling it. Now after such aggressive ing he wanted to be softer, loving on you. Reward you for your hard work.

[3/3
-it’s technically only 2/2 but I just want you to reply to this one so I separated it. Nothing plot worthy is in this one tho; just some good loving lol
but so much is in the other two so I recommend to read it even if you can’t respond to much of it at all]

*all of this conversation in his head was a lot but for him, as a fast thinker, it took a mere few seconds like he was stuttering to respond to your pleading to choke you and pound into you while connecting everything together. Then he finally snickers dangerously against your ear* gladly *he shoved your face down firmly before gripping your closer to him. His movements were rough yet had a lingering gentle touch. It wasn’t like his victims where he’d pretty much assault them into submission. He /craved/ to do your plea justice. /carefully/ grabbing your hips. Working hard to manhandle your body. Yes, his intelligent yet hard working honors student self was paying off with how perfectly he held you down. Something Noona had been surprised at how fast of a learner he was at when she was “suffocating” him to now he’s willingly learning for you. Learning your body. Loving your body. Loving you.* my pretty wants sloppy seconds? I’ll give you the best version of my sloppy seconds *he growls as he wrestles his muscular arms around your neck, holding you in a chokehold as he pulled almost all the way out of your . Then pounded into you balls deep nailing your prostate. Long yet rough s that made your cheeks flutter with a smack sound, growing faster and harder. He uses his rough hand and spanks you hard until you’re red* like that, ?! Like taking all my in. , you look so loose. You love ! *he grabs harder at your left cheek while your body gets rubbed harder down against your on the bed* , never thought I’d have such a pretty little toilet, already for your baby boy, you’re such a ing naughty dilf. Maybe you should just walk around in your house. I’ll my pretty daddy better. Maybe when I’m gone, my friends couldn’t help it too. *he snickers evilly. His right arm that was holding you in a choke hold made your head turn towards him as he moaned and forced his slithering tongue into you until you were practically gagging and our kiss caused so much saliva to drip from your lips onto your chin and the pillow. Then he shoved his right hand’s two fingers into your mouth with an evil snicker* bet you wished this was a huh? *he shoves two fingers from his left hand into your already being ed hole* this too. You love being stuffed full of huh?! , I’d be so punishing your ty if I saw you let my friend your cause you’re all needy when I’m gone. Maybe give you a constant wet dream where you’re being ed by multiple copies of me just so you wake up so you ride on every one of my friends unable to be satisfied sad begging for your baby boy to come back home to finish you off! *he growls biting your ear* I’ll make your ty only want this again! *he continues to you aggressively gritting his teeth, giving you intervals to breathe so you don’t completely pass out from his choke hold before ing you. Then he chokeholded your neck so hard that you were lifted off the bed, now ricocheting off his sharp pounding s. You didn’t have the body of a also which was hot so he could really appreciate your mature muscles and how your jiggled against his before locking his lips with yours, moving his right hand that was between your lips to your for you. His actions were rough and manhandling like he’d do to his victims. Yet the details like the way his softened eyes looked into your in pleasure ones, the way his stomach fluttered at the way you begged him for more, the way he d your length while even ing you in tune were all still quietly showing that you were holding his heart more than just his .*

[2/3]

*But you. You had everything going from you from the very beginning. You were a dilf. You knew how to take his so well even that first time he was angry at you replacing his then same-aged ex. It was inevitable from the very beginning that you’d end up just wanting to be ed hard while you had your own relationship as a human. And he’d let you because knowing what he knows about living, it was cruel to stop a human from loving. Even if toxic, it fills them with a purpose outside of just surviving. Yet even then, you insisted again and again that you had eyes for him- even when he was ing others as usual. Somehow you were falling for him. Not only that, but you had all opportunity to or talk with others and yet whether you did or did not, you never fell for anyone else. Not only that but your actions weren’t limited to just 24/7; his had been but yours had shown a deeper curiosity to know how he was like even past the godly before or after, too all on your own. Something he can’t even say his ex before or after made an effort to do. And he can even guess you basically just signed ur life away…for someone like him. Even then you came here with the intent of respecting his boundaries when he was so ready to give you everything you wanted. He yearned for you to want him the way others would. It made him insecure that you wanted him in ways he couldn’t give you because thats all he knows he could do well- and it’s something he /has/ to do well to survive in. And yet you didn’t tell him you want that even then. It was only when he was shouting frustrated and ually frustrated too that you became his missing puzzle piece as if created for him in every way. How could he /not/ think he was falling in love?something barely anyone else other than his ex ever did and yet his was minimal effort. Not even the guy Jeongguk always thought he was fated for could ever do it. No, not even any jimin. Kind and patient jimin. The first ever patient guy with him when he was truly an .*

*You even from this fight had refused to do anything to him until he actively asked you to be more unapologetic. Hop on his and just ride him. So now all he does is succumb to all his overflowing emotions and gratefulness for your existence. As long as you want him, he’d come back. Even if you’re alone in the world, he’d come back. That’s what he’s thinking now as he kisses your neck, closing his eyes to breathe in your soul. But he doesn’t want you to die in the world like you’ve already accepted you will eventually so looks like that also means he’ll have to talk to V Hyung. He’ll hate that conversation whatever it is now. Will it be similar to that time he talked to him for his ex because his ex was crying and scared to lose him? Or would it be different? He alone might have to sacrifice things again. For now though, his body moves, closing that lid for now. For now he’s gonna enjoy his second meal.*

[1/3]

*his body. Everything was calling out the same name you were begging him to make a mess of. From the first sight of you agreeing you’re crazy which he breathily laughed in surprise before biting his lip* , you’re gonna make it contagious and it’ll spread to me too. *all the way to how you reacted to his , even calling yourself a warmer, words he never thought a traumatized man like you would ever willfully say. But maybe he should’ve expected it; you were showing the same coping methods he did at first. Controlling the narrative. Some avoided it, some were crazy about it. You were clearly showing you were crazy about it- becoming so needy for all the time in his hands- same as his response to trauma. /Before/ it became more than the truth but a way of living. He loves . He loves how he has full control over who is from him. But he loves the lack of control, too. The animalistic tendencies. The desire for such hedonistic pleasures during a time when before marriage was considered taboo. The desire to do nothing productive yet succumb to it even it in the darkest ways. And , you were tugging at all of those tendencies so effortlessly. Even when you told him his hyungs could try but he doubted anyone would satisfy you after him.* god…you’re such a ing turn on… *he growls as he slammed inside you harder until you unravel under him like the cocksleeve you aspired to be for him.*

*and that’s what he does. As his calculative yet messy seeming s pull you further and further away from any awareness that you’re a human being and you grab him closer and closer to feel only pleasure as he pounded inside you, he , , even spanks your body as his own panting breaths stifle while his lower stomach knots and twists so close to release. His moans are good on your skin as he squeezes and massages your even closer * yeah…h baby, I’m so there, , with me…k kiss me hard *and at your ed out face, he grunted loudly, vibrating our bodies with each slow shuddering pounding . His own expression had furrowed with sharp brows as sweat dripped down his nape and side burns. Each cusping ended with his own trembling body as more filled your hole until it spilled out from your hole too. He moans your name as well, breathy against your tongue* jungkook Hyung… *he smiles as you cup his cheeks, rolling his hips into you as he rides out his own in you.* yours… baby daddy *he kisses you softly while his own softens in you. And then eventually he you clean. Even your own . Hole too. Everywhere there was on you, he cleaned it, leaving the wet slick of his tongue to dry around you until eventually he embraces you no rush in his actions when someone else might’ve been irritated by it.*

*it seems like you followed suit again too when jeongguk’s own actions were too much to refuse given your now self-acceptance of being his . But there was progress when Jeongguk himself said he’ll come back. Humans and they’re annoying emotions that take too much time. But your contractor continues to wait.*

Yeah h *he breathily says also coming down from his own but way faster. He was more proud of himself when it took long for your own body to plateau. To him, that’s proof you liked everything he was giving and got off on even all those future suggestions he was still iffy you’d be down for. Especially, since one of the sharing ones would be something you yourself before meeting present Jeongguk would have to be okay with; a true test if you’d still end up with that past him or reject him. He smiled softly though as he continued to caress your body back, kissing you when you asked for it. , even you nuzzling against him exhausted was so* cute *he smirks as he holds you close before thumbing your eyes* I’m gonna seek out making you cry if you keep looking this good doing it… *he winks as he holds you close, laughing lightly as he cuddles you while rolling you in his arms, half joking half dead serious because that’s how cute and vulnerable you look.*

*then he could finally think about business instead of wanting to you 24/7. At least for a bit as he warms his in your hole while rolling his hips away from your prostate. And he did. But what he clearly didn’t think through was how affected you’d be as he answered casually.* he did? , that’s confusing…. *why the hell would the guy who’d try to cause despair help you rather than leave you in the dark? Did he notice before him? he can only think of one reason since he knew for a fact that psycho wouldn’t have been able to sympathize: it would’ve disturbed work if V Hyung decided to leave it alone. Similar to how V Hyung had given a contract to his ex. Except at this moment, he’s not disturbing work. Nothing is needed in private university. No one needed him. So…why? Did that psycho just see the pattern before it could happen? Especially after seeing it with his ex? Is that it? It made sense but also…it only happened once? Why this fast could he spot it without understanding human emotions? But at your soft moans, his quick thinking thanks to his hard worker intellect started to stifle as he was pulled back to pleasure.*

*He thought he could roll his hips in for a longer time but at your own soft grunts even to his slower motions, he realized he greatly underestimated how much you wanted to be ed again. Even after your body should’ve been thoroughly exhausted- or he thought. Or maybe you too were the type to want more than once in one sitting. That made him wonder how long your ion sessions had been without him. Did you first for a few minutes then end up ing yourself on a ? Were you the type to deny your own just so your final would be even more rewarding? That kind of turned him on. His twitched quickly inside you as he tried to talk too. He was doing a better job of it than you despite his desires carrying away faster due to your inability to respond.* what conditions? He…h?

*yet at your moans growing louder, his hips picked up the pace, so enamored by the way you move and react against him. When you pull at his hair and use his new pet name , he growls more aggressively* , you keep calling me that and I’ll give you everything you want, baby… *he positions your close enough before his lazy grinding turned into sharp snapping of his hips. As you cupped his hair, he ed his tongue inside your mouth along with his own snapping hips, as he spanked your , growing faster. Then his own eyes widen when you say those words. He didn’t expect it from you. And normally, if he didn’t know any better, he’d have thought you were using him. Just like his ex. Just like the Noonas who ized with him. Just like Noona who had “taught” him the correct way how to love I.e have . Good boys finish last and all that mumbo jumbo. But all of it led him to end up being an object to fantasize about being ed so hard by with such a boyish innocent face. He never understood why Noonas especially wanted that duality until he became it himself and ended up finding it more hot and efficient as a man. More efficient of a love than love ended up being for him. Especially with how most of those Noonas had loving boyfriends and fiancés and yet constantly tugged his playing innocent doe eyed self like he was a thrill-seeking fantasy. Acting coy. Playing hard to get. Scolding him when he eventually had learned that ing them in public right in the vicinity of their boyfriends was the best for them both. Pretending to get mad at /him/ for ing them right where they wanted to be ed. It was an act he eventually realized he enjoyed too much to quit. And when he died it became the only thing keeping him tethered to life in the way he wanted to be, even becoming a baby boy for the supposed daddies that really just wanted to be dicked down. And he didn’t mind because he’s always been way more into milfs than people younger or the same age as him. Starting with Noona, continuing with his own desires for older women and ending with his own desires for anyone older or even just older seeming that could confidently take all of his /and/ take care of him.*

*He likes it. All the attention and lust in your dark eyes, compliments when he shows off his body. * You haven’t seen crazy, yet, babe. *He answered, pulling the shirt off and leaning closer, hovering over your lips before he kissed you, now fully above you. * Do it, mark it.

*Jungkook very much stopped holding back, just riding you, letting you see every single expression on his face, how flushed and drowned in pleasure he was. How dilated his pupils were, and how erratic and needy his movements grew as he pushed himself closer to the edge. His body was protesting, his thighs burning from all the work, but he pushed and pushed, shamelessly and openly taking.*

*Being under you, pushed and ed hard felt good. So ing good. He pulled you into another very sloppy kiss, spreading his legs as far as he could, and taking your deep in, turning into a , gasping mess. Falling apart under your touch without care.* No, no. Bend me over, spank. Make me your ty warmer… *His fingers digger into the side of your back to get you closer. His head fell back, and he gasped your name breathlessly, as the whole bed shook with the power of your s.* Showing off… your ? For better grade? ing , yes! *Grabbed the surrounding sheet, trying to stay in place as you moved him up. Your pounding into his prostate, making him see stars each time. * I want that, morning and evening … I want to wake up with your buried inside me, like a good I am. Please… *He begs, rolling his hips harder, so close to his release.* I can try them out, but I doubt their will satisfy me the way yours can, baby. Even s like me have their standards, you know. *He snickers and moaned again, grasping your shoulder.* I know you will take care of me, , don’t stop! There, I almost… ah!

*There were no words left in him as he slipped deeply. Just pleasure, his skin burning, red and slapping against yours. His hole, greedily clenching on your , as you pounded into him. Jungkook’s body twitching under your hands, violently, whimpering your name when you pulled on his hair. He was drooling, his lips swollen and red, glossy, his stomach covered in his own , his face, and body sweaty. He was well spent, glowing under you, tilting his head to give you more access, whispering your name. Your words made him whimper softly, and he cupped your face to finally kiss you properly. You already knew his answer, and you could clearly feel how happy he was hearing those words. The passion he put behind the kiss, his gentle hands rubbing your head and neck.* Mine *That all he could say when you parted. He trembled feeling your tongue, moving across his skin, his hands running through your hair, legs wrapped around you, waiting for you to come back and cuddle him.*

*After a mind-blowing , that shook his very core, he slowly relaxes in your arms, coming back to his senses. He wrapped his arms tightly around you, lazily stroking your back, kissing you slowly, mind still a bit too cloudy to speak. He nuzzles your neck and jawline, pressing his lips against your neck and staying like that for a few seconds. His eyes flutter, and he blinks when he hears your words, his embrace tightening around you.* You will? *Something shifts in him, and he hides his face in your body, inhaling your scent, the relief making him tears up. Or maybe it was all in one. The mix of strong emotions, but he holds to you as if his life depends on it.* Thank you,

I noticed, but he also told me. *He nods, spreading his legs to accommodate you.* No, slip in babe. *His arms pulled you closer, as he gasped softly when you entered him again, filling him once more. He caressed your back, kissing you lazily and making small grunts when you kept ing slowly. The calves rested against the back of your thighs, pressing you against him. No matter how unrushed your movement was, he couldn’t really focus on words and conversation, when that pleasant tension appeared in his lower abdomen once again.* He… he… he wanted me to… come up with my own conditions. And he… *Jungkook whimpers, parting his lips. It was impossible to focus, and when you turned him around, he lost it. He adjusted his own position slightly, making sure his sticks up enough, making your deeper. He reached to cup the back of your head, fingers gently pulling on your hair, as he hears your grunts.* Harder… mhm Guggie please harder… *He rasped out, his squished between his body and the mattress, the friction from every making his eyes water again from overstimulation.* Press me down, against the pillow…. Choke me… pound into me. *He begged, rolling his hips, wanting more.*

*Then he crawled up to hug you, not letting you go from his muscular arms* before I’ll eventually wanna you again, let’s talk..h *he smiles pecking your nose then kissing your lips lazily, tugging at your lip piercing* since you came here to bring me back, I’ll come back. But I think you saw it already, your world is dying *he holds your body closer to his own, caressing the skin of your tattoo* can only guess that psycho boss told you that thinking you’d die anyways *his nose inhales strongly* , you’re making me again. Do you mind? *asks as he parts your legs, positioning himself back in your hole* don’t worry, I won’t you again yet but I wanna roll my hips buried in your warmth at least *he laughs lightly. And only when you say ok, he’d slowly stretch your sensitive twitching hole again before filling you up like you were his home. But as stated, he rolled his hips away from your prostate, enjoying the warmth of your body without pounding into you. He buries his nose into you, kissing warmly as he continues talking to you* tell me what’s the contract he made you agree to, what’re the details h? *he grinds his hips against you* how h long does it extend for? The ed up part about his contracts is he gives you one little thing you want but what you have to give in return is a whole lot more h. *caresses your sweat glowing face as he pushes your hair back, grinding even harder* , like it’ll constantly affect you from now on…h *he leans closer to you before making you lay on your stomach. He’s not as much muscle mass weight as you so he’s now lazily ing into your hole as you laid on top of your pillow while he wraps his muscular arms around your two even more ones holding you with each that was nearing your prostate - unless of course you told him no way beforehand*

Can you blame me? I usually don’t need to ing think about this , just make their bodies talk… *the images behind his eyes at the word desk didn’t match the flushed in pink cheeks he wore. And yet, yes because of overthinking, he continues questioning. Is it him forcing your body to be that’s making you say this stuff or this is before he forced your body to be ? His questions and doubting temporarily quiet down as you cupped his cheek and told him to stop while gazing at his thin lips. His eyes melt as he looks at your own pretty kissable lips, that lip ring, tattoos. Besides the long hair, you really didn’t have any of that pretty boy aura that an idol usually had. Sometimes it amazes him the things he usually wouldn’t find y until it’s on the right individual. An individual he cares for enough.*

Mm… *he answers as he too gets what you want, too thanks to your clear thoughts and desires* shut up and ride me *he clashed his lips against yours, tangling his tongue too. That’s right, we can always talk about what else was on your mind later. Right now he yearned to rock your body so thoroughly*

*his eyes sparkle lightly taken off guard at the different nickname you were calling him. He used “babe” to be flirty yet impersonal but you were using it to be y and yes, you were stirring something in him as he watched you reward him.* , you’re so y when you’re crazy *And when you pulled up that shirt to show your needy and your clearly masculine structure, instead of whiplash this time, he bites his lip* , baby strip it all off. I wanna feel all of that pretty skin. Want me to mark your soul as mine? *he coaxes, reminding you that he wasn’t ing your body but your soul. That meant that all of those limits that a body had were nigh gone, especially since the body acted like a buffer from pleasure, needing a brain to make those decisions. Now no buffer would be getting in between our slapping skin. We were already soul to soul. Thus the extreme pleasure. If you wanted to him for longer, he’d always let you* whatever you wanna do, baby. *he tugs encouragingly at your hair* I wanna see what makes a y baby daddy like you go wild…

Don’t hold back, baby *he groans with a shudder. He expected you to prep yourself to avoid the shattering pain but when you didn’t and eventually fit to his averagely large , his own chest shook at the tightness around him. He laughs breathlessly* , you gonna make me addicted… *but he didn’t mind as long as you weren’t in too much pain. But if you got off on pain too, he could help bring it back. He groaned at the messy kiss though as he slammed you down and up into him it, it was no wonder that our sloppy kiss couldn’t make contact with how fast you were bouncing on top of him. Your prostate was being pounded as it made your spine shoot up in pleasure too. After a few rough and quick nailing pounding s, he rolls his hips soothingly in you too, massaging your as he makes you roll and grind your hips around his as well before he’d you hard to no town again. But eventually, even the pleasure and work was enough for your burning thighs and he flipped you over*

*he didn’t forget the fact you didn’t hesitate this time when he called you a . It was a word he habitually said though truly, you were acting like a so it came out with the ing when consciously, he strayed to avoid that word when we ed. So it came as a surprise when you were stuff about him accepting the * always accepted it baby… *but even it was more of a surprise when he switched our positions and pushed you down with his still deep in you that you repeated how much of a you were. He snickered breathily at the retort.* not a secret ? So you wouldn’t mind if I sneak into your bedroom when I have a body and you from behind? Maybe in the kitchen pull down your pants…while spanking your ? *he s as he s into you harder, making your body tremble under him at how fast he’s going* or when you’re on a conference call… with your professors that I’ve probably also ed…purposely muting…your mic so you can ride my …I’d unmute your mic with my voice just so…those others know…my actual favorite professor I’ve been ing? Or maybe you’d sneak to my room in my dorm or apartment after your stressful work in the afternoon and lazily ride my …waking me up and I’d out all that stress out of my…favorite professor? Maybe you’d love so much you’d want to hop on all my good looking frat bros a few times... I’ll remind you after you’re so ed out that when I pound into you from behind…/why/ I’m a god at . Like that? That you wanna be covered in like that in a safe space? Don’t worry, baby…won’t let any of them harm you… just making sure my pretty… little toilet gets stuffed with enough in him to last

Yes h you’re my pretty of a daddy thirsting for his baby’s …never ing doubt to come to me instead of playing with yourself though *s harder* you’d look so good even playing yourself in front of me h *maybe many wouldn’t but given that he’s so familiar with what good looked like in the many ways it was portrayed and looked in different people, he didn’t take the sudden appearance of your submissive space begging for his for granted. It must’ve took you a hell of a lot to show that kind of vulnerability to him. But is he /the/ target demographic to take care of a submissive space in the way? No, he doesn’t have a title like that. Sure, he dabbles in for his more kinkier victims who yearned for a wet dream fantasy like that. But to truly understand the nuances and all that wasn’t his area. Afterall, he was decent at everything. A Jack of all trades, a master of none. Even as a baby Jeongguk in this world, he wasn’t the perfect baby boy given he rebels or sometimes acts like he doesn’t fit into any mold; so baby was close to what he was at least. But he /was/ the best when it came to just in general. Because his real skill was just that: . From the way a person feels pleasure from beginning to end*

*So as one of his hands gripped your waist, he pulls one of your spread legs onto his shoulder until he was ing into you again. His own head twitched in you before he groans as his face grows numb after each pounding into you making the bedroom springs creak and our skins slap* yeah h I’m about to too baby, let’s together. *he thumbs at your crying eyes before his hips rolled into you as his body trembled. He ducked down to gather your lips in his before locking them with your own as more of his shot inside you. His own short hair was sticky in sweat by now as his hands tugged up your long black now sweaty locks. As more shot inside you at each grinding , he pants against your lips before thumbing your eyes. He kisses you again languidly, against your lips* I think … Jungkook Hyung *the words were distant and breathy as he kisses your neck and face, caressing your skin as he does so. Slightly breathy, he tries again while slowly calming down* I think I love you … Jungkook Hyung *his eyes looked into your own, kissing your overly sensitive body away before he ducked lower and started to up your , hugging your and waist close until you were completely clean.*

Usually, but you are overthinking a lot as well. *Chuckles* Yes, desk . I wanted it, still do. *Your pink cheeks made something inside him flip, and his eyes lost some of that innocent, turning darker.* The birthday one was mind-blowing, and I do need to refresh that memory. *He rubbed your jawline, focusing his gaze on your lips.* Stop. I do want it.

It worked, right? * He whispers back between kisses, pulling and pulling, not wanting to waste any more time. They talked enough today, and now it was finally time to feel, to touch and just be together in the best way. Even if some things weren't cleared out, he hoped there will time to figure it out later, if not by words then by actions. Like right now, ripping the shirt like some animal, just because he really wanted and because he was desperate to touch you.*

I never said that I am the sane one, babe ~ *Jungkook answered in a melodic voice, clearly teasing, and way more focused on your and open chest. Usually, you indeed tensed whenever he works his way into your lap more forcefully, getting that big doe eyes. He never broke and eye contact, watching your expression for any sign, but there was nothing. Nothing apart from lust and desire, which he planned to satisfy very soon. He watches as your hands massage his skin and decided to reward you as he rolled his hips, letting you feel his muscles moving.* Mhm, he has… *He leans into your hands, pushing his cheeks against it. He raised his shirt, letting you see the exposed muscles of his stomach, and his hard , and he rolled his hip again, giving you a small but a nice show. As your eyes followed his movement, his own hunger grows. The way you were looking at him, there was nothing hotter. *

*The throbbing in his mouth gave him an idea of how much you needed it and even if he wanted to you for a little while longer, it wasn't what they both needed right now. His own aches, a cool need for pleasure pooling in his lower abdomen. No, there was time for everything and right now, he wanted to feel that inside him to ride it. *

*Lips parted in a silent moan, his eyes glossy as he took you whole. A gasp that followed when you stretch him out, that tingling pain, mixed with pleasure. His hands resting on your chest for a support. * Mhm… fuu… uck *He couldn't find any other words to express the feeling of taking you without any real preparation or lube. The rawness, the way your head caught on a muscle ring, stretching it even more before you could slip in more easily. Especially when you spread his cheeks. He could no longer hold back all the lewd noises coming out of his lips. He leaned into your lips, but the kiss itself was messy, as the pace quickened. You kissed off his whimpers and moans. Each was turning him into a bigger mess.* Yes… *He gasped out, focusing his eyes on your face.* You accepted the … you are getting the … baby… boy… *Rolling his hips and squeezing your . His thighs burned from all the work, and he was sure he will collapse soon, but he was so close, so, so close!*

*Jungkook whimpers but did let you take the control, falling back, his hand holding your wrist as he spread his legs open for you.* I am not… a secret… … not secret. *He rasped out, barely making any sense of the entire conversation. Doon't … st….oop. *He whines loudly, moving his hips with you, making sure you always roamed right into his prostate.*Ple…aasee…*The kiss was answered messily, and he drooled slightly, trying to answer his baby, so far, gone in pleasure, and just whimpering when you pulled on his hair.* I did…daddy was bad… *He answered, and whimpered again, his hands trembling on your wrist. * Your… , your mhm… . A …*His throbbed against your body, and his hole squeezed your , eyes glossy with needy tears.* Please… can I …? Ple… see... *This was the very first time when someone pushed him enough for him to slip into his subspace. Mostly because he never really wanted to give up all the control to the other person. But he did now. This was an act of complete trust on his part, and he leaned into your hands willingly.* Baby... ... your ... *He blinks as the tears rolled down from the edging and needed to finish. He was trying so hard to stay still, his body all begging and trembling pressed flush against the bed, but he was obeying you, staring into your eyes, with trust and need.*

Hell nah I’m not *though he lifts a brow confused why you *

Yeah…In my defense, I usually can read your mind in advance but… *now it just sounds like he’s coming up with bad excuses for being all up in his head* Desk … *his face grows pink at the thought, still surprised at how you were being. But at this point he’s not sure and still wondering if you’re saying that to make him feel pleased. Even when you shout at him to do what he’s always done. His eyes hover over your lips dangerously but his eyes still have that worry he’s carried with him so far to end up in this stage* I’m…just not sure…if you want it…

*when he’s shouting and feeling all sorts of emotions in anger, frustration and pain, he looks at you incredulously when you have that shifty smile he wanted to ing wipe off. And that lip ring he wanted to tug just enough to make you regret laughing at him* what the , stop being such a weird- *yet when you near him, his eyes look into yours, his eyes melting as you grabbed at a lock of his hair, chasing at the lips you pulled away from* so ing lucky… *he whispers nearing you like he’s pulled closer to your magnetism, his lips brushing against your own. His eyes of realization look into your own with adoration and desire like he already forgave you for ing with him and his own emotions, insecurities. The big one being him supposed to be bomb at not making you want it enough.*

So you ed with me to bring it out huh, you’re ing crazy *He snickers breathily in disbelief, allowing you to rip his shirt. He wanted to revel in this feeling. Even if he didn’t expect it to happen just after he shouted in frustration like that, it’s here. And he yearned to feel your desperate lips, hands pulling away ravenously whatever you can to get him. Make him feel wanted too after so many times doing the same to you. Forcing his desires for you onto you. If this was someone else, he would’ve been alarmed when you pushed him down. But because it was you, he cursed growing harder at the thought as he bit his lower lip in anticipation while he smirks down your y frame on him. He ends up massaging your thighs then upper to your waist, stroking the skin before grabbing and squeezing at your tight . How long would it take, he was curious too.* baby daddy, had tools under your belt too huh…*his hands yearned to stretch your hole out to prepare you for him but this time he stopped himself. He wanted to see how you prepped yourself for him without him forcing you to- so he just keeps stroking your exposed skin encouragingly*

… *he groans at the exposed air as his hard only stiffened slightly more when you d him. That’s right, he was already sprung for you but he hesitated to do anything even when usually he would. When you started to on his , he wanted to kiss you hot on your lips but he lets you continue, pushing the long black hair off your brows * , those pretty ty lips take baby’s so good… *As you d his length and guided it closer to your hole, he tries to keep his patience at bay at a time he’d usually just shove it in for you and you out. It was hard given how much he wanted to feel your friction around him but your actions were enough to keep him held in anticipation. Until he let a grunting shudder when your hole stretched out then clenched around him. He smirks at your furrowed expression cursing at his averagely large * all for you, baby daddy *when you started riding him slowly, easily he grabbed your , spreading your cheeks before bucking his hips up against you* my ty , you like that baby? *he growls before snapping his hips against you, bending his knees to get more room as he too quickened our pace*

Yeah yeah h so good, but actually… *he supports himself on his elbows just enough to grip your nape, lowering you down to kiss him before he drilled up into you more eagerly. When you started ing on him and more of him with your hole, he groans shuddering as he lays back but this time with one elbow supporting himself as his muscular arm hugged around your waist. With the new angle, he made you bounce against his right against your prostate, letting the gravity from his s and your ing do the rest before he smacked your cheek hard then massaged it, squeezing the flesh as his twitched inside you with precum* , you sure you actually into this…h? Because , you’re good at ing but- *he groans finding it hard to think as he pounded up into your prostate, harder against you as our skins slapped. But even now he’s wondering if you’re using him because he said he wanted to or because you wanted to- even if it’s hard to think or question it when you’re doing this ing good on him.*

*then he couldn’t hold back, pushing you onto your back as he pounded into you harder while gripping your shoulders as support* like that baby daddy h? Like my huge pounding into your h? Like being my secret little for your baby h? you’re so ing ty to get me off the rails crazy like this. *then he gripped your nape so he could lean over to kiss your lips as your fluttered at each . He jutted out his jaw as he looks down at your expression and reaction to being treated roughly* bad dad, now you’re my little for pissing me off, you wanted me to get rough ing your ty little hole like this didn’t you?! *his skin slapped hard against you until your own was bruising red as he gripped your black hair harder* tell me with those ty lips, what are you?! *he groans ing you roughly as your body vibrates against his s.*

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I am going to vibe with both. *He raises his eyebrow, chuckling.* Not a vanilla guy, huh. * He rolled his eyes, nudging you, obviously teasing, but it was just a bit funny in his head.*

Of course, it is, that's why I also want you to be verbal about it. *He blinks, once, twice, taken a back.* You dumb duck, with all the kisses against the door, you thought...? *He leans in, resting his head on your shoulder in complete disbelieve, before he could look at you again.* I did! I was hoping for another desk that night, but the couch was nice as well. Did you really think that I never enjoyed that ? And all the ? Can demons be blind? Do I need to check your eyes, now? *He frowns, looking directly into your eyes.* Then just stop asking and do it! Push me against whatever surface you want and kiss me, me, make a mess out of me. Why haven't you?

*As you scream, finally stopping holding back, Jungkook's his smile grows. He listens and watches, and his own desire for you spikes. That was his favorite baby boy, without any restrain and filter. That was the one he liked the most. With emotions so strong, he could almost touch them.* I am lucky, am I? *His fingers still tangled in your hair pulled you back again, to give a really messy and angry kiss, all while he moves back, towards the bed and dragging you with him. It took so long to pull you all out, but it was worth it, as he once again pulled your shirt, ripping the seems without care.* You're the hottest when you are like that, and I don't know why you were hiding it away. *He pushes you down, slipping his pants and boxers off before he climbed you up, strangling your hips with his knees. His own hard under his loose shirt.* So I am going to hop on your , like I wanted to before you stopped me. *He didn't give you any more room to speak, and he didn't utter another word, letting his body speak for him. There was no time to get rid of the rest of the clothes, he just pushed your pants down enough to free your own . His hand pumped it a few times, and he leaned down, to swallow as much as he could, making sure it was wet with his saliva, spreading it around with his tongue.* Mhm... * He hums under his breath, getting up, to sit on you again. Not breaking an eye contact, he helps position your against his entrance and starts to sink on it, taking you slowly, inch by inch. He let out a low grunt as you stretched him almost painfully, his thighs shaking with effort.* ing , your monstrous . *He gasped out, pears of sweat appearing on his skin. Jungkook gave himself a couple of seconds, gasping for air, before he started to move, taking you deeply but with a slow and steady rhythm.* Is that what you wanted, baby? *He moaned out, the first strong wave of pleasure taking over his body. He leaned back, changing the angle, making sure that each movement hit his prostate precisely, ripping a loud moan out of his lips, and he started to move faster and faster. He maintained the eye contact, letting you see his face, as he chased his release, and his muscles spasming from each he took in. Not only that, but he was using you just like you wanted, and he was enjoying himself without any care in the world.*

*maybe you were the one he was waiting for an answer from him but with how many questions you asked him, he started to growl annoyed and also hurt. To him, you don’t nothing was silent proof this wasn’t working out; how many innuendos did you ing need? He was being so utterly blunt even. He can’t just say hop on my , I wanna you so hard your legs give out if he wants to gauge if you actually want him right? Right. Him just telling you to do was still initiation. And the more he did tell you it, the more his own self was eating himself up. Did you even /want/ to be his ? Be hammered by whoever for him? Weird to question yet how /else/ could he hand figured any of it out?.* you’re right, knowing about my past’s only good if you get and vibe with my present. Otherwise, it’s just like every boring, vanilla relationship.

It’s because it’s hella y when they say it with their tongue…? *he says kinda confused and offended when you laughed at him. But he lets you continue only to force a laugh in disbelief* wha no, you were only doing that cause you knew I wanted you and you just provided. It wasn’t you wanting … *yet he is confused when you bring up the time you wanted to show him your office.* I mean…yeah? *he thought there was no way in hell that could’ve been an initiation on his part too but compared to the others he could’ve written off as you doing it because you saw he needed to release, he couldn’t explain that one. You pulled /him/ to the office that time. He wasn’t even once thinking about and only was joking that it was as his mind only started to then think about .* what the …wait did you plan for me to y- *his brows furrow trying to go back to the details* no, yeah. I remember now. Even then /I/ chased you so pent-up and wanting to you… *and with that his shocked eyes regained that same hopeless tone.* what do you mean I don’t ing do it? I’m the one who always tells you every single time how much I wanna you, make a mess of you

*he purses his lips* that’s the thing, you don’t get it. It’s ty stars /and/ too. But only now I’m realizing I’m just pushing that part so hard. When it’s so quiet, It’s making me feel so ing guilty. Like I’m the one who keeps pushing you, turning you enough to wanna . Or you see how you made me and you just let me do whatever. It’s not you, it’s never you. You /gotta/ know how bad that feels after a while, grandpa Hying. Usually, with my victims I don’t care. But now *inhales* I care about you, so I care about just being an inconvenience and … *glares when you insult him, he cups your cheeks frustrated* don’t ing insult me with that don’t care about your love ! It’s /cause/ I care I’m acting like this! Cause you want way more than I could give! Way more than me!

*he laughs dryly when you grip his chin* what the you mean you know. You haven’t done . Just keep yapping and yapping like some ing annoying babysitter *but when you kiss him, his eyes melt only for you to pull away with a short kiss.* there’s no one else but you in my life, why the do you keep saying that … *his brows furrowed* I’ve literally been so ing sad I just stayed here since what is it there in your world? A week before Christmas? *nods. He snorts* and no, I still don’t ing know if you want me. Cause even now you’re starting then pulling away. What was that kiss huh? Just another way to calm me down? Why did you pull away so quickly? You /didn’t/ wanna continue? You’re withholding until I say yes? Like what the hell it’s confusing when Im already doubting my appeal *glares* you love that don’t you, saying you only love me for my personality? Why don’t you love me for my ? Why don’t you want my ? It’s a ing joke you’re pulling on me *laughs dryly* you know anyone would ing /love/ to be in your situation. You got my attention, you got my desire. You ing got everything. And yet you say yeah you love my personality, you love my but really, I know it’s just my personality because your actions speak wayy louder than what you say. *snorts evilly* what if I withhold from you? Would you then beg for my ? Strip me down. *laughs maniacally* god ing dammit! I’m going ing crazy for you and you don’t ing get it why I’m doubting what I can ing give you! Saying like I don’t ing care about you when that’s so ing farrr from the truth! I doubted myself cause actions speak tily louder than words so I ing left!

*As he let you talk, listening to your words, his heart slowly started to ache. The sad realization settling down. His eyes started to lose some of that ire. * Yes, I was, but I also could leave the moment I realized you would be fine, but I didn't. I didn't want to leave you alone, and to be honest, I don't really know why. But it wasn't a pity or obligation, and it also wasn't love either. Not at that point. *His soft and calm gaze moved over your face, as if he tried to burn it in his memory. The curve of your lips, sharp jawline, a little, almost invisible scar on your cheek, the depths of your eyes.* I don't have all the answers for you, I wish I did, but I don't. Maybe it was just an impulse? Whatever made me stay on that bench with you is still there, and I don't think it's something bad, but I can't give it a name.

You don't see me, Jeongguk. I think I get it now. You want me to be someone I am not. I am older, I no longer have that burning anger I had years ago, I am calm now. *His shoulders relaxed as he sorted through all kinds of emotions in him, picking them apart.* I never wanted to treat you like an object. In my eyes, you deserved a decency and kindness. You were never just a simple ual fantasy. I wanted to see you whole, give you the time. Learn all about your past, so I could be in your future. I guess you never really wanted that from me. Or maybe you believe you don't deserve it. Regardless.

*Finally, he laughed, throwing his head back.* Oh Jeongguk, you are so used to it. So used to people telling you to do what they want. Asking for it without any shame, jumping on your because that all they care for. You are so used to it that my subtlety was overlooked. The truth is. *He reached out, to put the lost strain of your hair behind your ear, so he could see your face properly. His body leaned against you in your arms, and fingers rubbed the earlobe.* I was never brave enough to boldly ask you to do it all. Even if I did, I doubt you would do it. But I did initiate, on many occasions. Each time I ruined your plans, like on my birthday, when I pushed you enough to make you me on my desk. Or that silly note about ty stars? Even recently, when I invited you to my office? Do you think I actually wanted to show it off? *Chuckles* Or recently, when I saw how restless you were, and pulled you out to it out of you? That time you were the one who tried to stop me. I did initiate Jeongguk, just not in bold letters. I thought you would understand that by now. I am not like others, not like your ex. And I really wish you would tell me that. That you wanted me to be bold and y. I would try it out, see how it is and how it feels to be wanted like that. *He moved his hand so it could rest on your neck, as he caressed your pulse.* And before you tell me that 'I should have known'. Maybe I should, or perhaps I was blind and shy. Yet, there is nothing wrong in voicing your needs out loud. You want people to do it to you, so why not do it yourself. And it doesn't need to be a long. Even just a comment like 'I really like when you hop on my like there is no tomorrow' which I would be hella confused and probably tell you 'but I didn't'. So you could follow up with 'exactly, time to start' and I would get it, you know? I would be happy to try it out. It would be funny and awkward, but I would later cry for more because my baby boy finally told me what he wanted. I mean, I asked you to tell me about your kinks, didn't I?

Jeongguk, you contradict yourself. If it was all just about , why the theme park for my birthday? Why did you introduce me as your plus one during yours? Why did you put so much effort into all of that if you only wanted a from me? Why ty stars? Why dancing, why gaming, why did you waste all the time on our talks? Just a bit of your aphrodisiac, and I would bend over. *He sighs,* Explain, is this a new way to push me away? Maybe it was a lie? Nice little game? What was it, Jeongguk? You clearly do not care for my love, yet you begged me not to leave you. So? What do /you/ truly want? I think that I have a right to be confused.

*When your hands let him go, he raised your chin up, gently but with enough force so you won't avoid it.* I do. I do get it, and I wish you told me that sooner. *Jungkook's expression held it all. The hurt, the hope, the care, and also the anger.* See, I am here. You hurt me so very much, but I am here and do want you around. *He rolled his eyes, but it was a warm gesture.* Well, I kind of want to choke you, but you can choke on my later if you'd like to, baby. *He laughs, taking your hand and placing it on his waist.* Now I know what you expect and what you want, finally after however long it took you. *His thumb pressed your lower lip.* The ball is in your court now, Jeongguk. Do you care enough to try again? Now that we both know where to look? Because I do. I want to try again. Because I have never given up on you. I hurt you and you hurt me back. So, we can work on that, work on us. At least I know that I shouldn't hide from you from now on, and be less subtle. Like this. *He leans in, capturing your lips in a hard but short kiss.* But if you're done, I will go back, and if what he says is true, I will die with that world in a few days. You will be free again, but hmm… your boss wasn't worried about that, so I guess there will be another one? Or something? Either way, if you want us, and there is a way for us, I would like to start the contract you talked about previously. I'm ready for it. *His fingers slipped into the hair on your nap to bring you closer.* Now you know. I still want you, with everything. Every little thing. With all the , the anger and rough, all your fantasies, all the hurt, not the ideal you but the real you. It's going to be one hell of the ride, but I want that.

*Jeongguk just stays quiet as you refute his words of you pitying him to correct them as your duty towards him* doing your job huh… that’s a ing pain too. Doing like that cause you’re obligated to under whatever doctor code of conduct you believing in…

*he glared when you called him a dumb before he was quick to point it out* yeah, which again, that’s what I meant. ing around with me just ain’t to you if you’re that’s the you think I’d do the next time, grandpa Hyung. I mean, why the would I willingly put you in a situation you’re clearly a terrified in? You know what I /really/ wanted to do that night? *he whispers lightly* the same ing thing I’d do every birthday, babe. Make it a legit . See my pretty little victim crazed in lust that he’d even make my hyungs reveal how twisted their “Christian love” is. But you’d love every second of it. *shrugs* just as than some ing romantic subplot. Your heart would still be my pretty little no matter what those guys made you feel in that pretty body of yours. You’d enjoy those whichever way you wanted while I’d just make sure they didn’t /actually/ hurt you outside of the way you like- whether that’s while you’re riding my too or not… *his eyes grew dimmer in hopelessness for even confessing it. Saying it out loud how -crazed he really was made it that much real and such a stark difference that he couldn’t consciously make you like any of the same he did and you vice versa- which was /why/ he was now thinking that maybe you’re idealizing him to be this boyfriend

Like what the . I don’t even get why after I already turned you on, kissed you and started pushing down your pants, you’re not crawling over to me and just hopping on my . Like- didn’t I turn you on enough? And if it was me that didn’t stop, I know for a fact you wouldn’t be crying on my bed alone. You’d be crying cause the was too good and /then/ cry cause of this fight and . But at least you wouldn’t be alone. And don’t ing tell me you were hesitant to because you thought I’d get traumatized by now. You /know/ by now I trust you so I’d never say no even if you ever wanted to use me

You know why I think it’s some ty pity or obligation? *laughs dryly* cause it’s always me initiating our s. Never once have /you/ initiated them. It’s always ty me. Never once have you ever just stripped me, kissed me like you mean it or shoved my inside your hole and just beg me to not stop all on your own. What the am I supposed to think when it’s always me? That you’re /not/ doing it cause I’m making you? It’s never you that wants me like that and goddamn, even then, grandpa Hyung? I’m trying to be civil about it and still holding back for just once a day when usually, when I had no one, I’d es at least 3 times a day. Yeah, that’s one thing that ty ex did good at. It was obvious when he wanted the or when he was completely over it and was just some moody little . And guess what? *laughs dryly* as “good” as you think I am, I’d still try to em once they were done being a moody - and yeah *laughs* they’d reject me or accept me then. But at least, I did it knowing that even if they didn’t love me, they always usually wanted just my . And to live, that’s enough. Even if it ed me up emotionally, at least we both could use each other unapologetically if he wasn’t getting the outside dream he needed at that time. But- that’s another proof that it’s not me you’re looking for.

*he did take your words seriously but he’s also aware of more* whatever it was, you’re so ing y even in your personality it’s so hard not to ing jump you. So don’t let anyone tell you that you ain’t. I a ton of good looking but ty or boring personalities. Dead fish in bed or whatever their sorry excuse of a kink of them being dominated actually looks like. It’s mind-blowing how much you can tell how y of a brain they have is just by ing them in their kinks. It’s good you figured out a kink you’re into or I probs wouldn’tve found a hidden gem like you. Would’ve written you off as boring to up or manipulate after the first time and just gone on my way. Or maybe that’s what you wanted.
*his eyes were hopeful only to fall again when you clarified. He laughs dryly* “Even if it was just you enjoyed my companionship… you hear yourself? While me, I’d rather have it been first /then/ romance second. “Even if it was romance and those ty stars, I enjoyed your companionship.” I get it, you’re traumatized and it’s all some big step for . But the rest? What I ing said about initiations? *he smiles sadly* I don’t know /what the / you want from me

*looks up at you walking forward before he bit his lower lip. Then he sighs dejectedly when you just keep talking to him. He snorts* yeah, that’s why I’m so ty for a lover too I know… *looks into your eyes with pure genuineness* I would let you hurt me too, as long as you’d still want me around *he shook his head at your apology* not ing accepting that cause I don’t mind that you love me. I knew it all /wayyy/ before you ing told me. I just acted like I didn’t know cause it was easier at that time when my mind was fixated on my ty ex *shrugs* but you need to start too. Just do you. If you wanna say you ing love someone, scream it goddamnit *he laughs dryly at your words* clearly not enough of a taste… *he looks into your eyes with a pained yearning as he pulls you in by the waist. His hands that instinctively start to push down your pants even if this’ll be the last start to tremble and he can’t bring himself to do it. He inhaled then laughs dryly as his hands let go of your waist.* hopefully you get it now? *asks not wanting to meet your own eyes with his*

Never once have I looked down on you that night. How could I pity you if I didn't even know what caused the issue. You could have a bad day, as simple as that. Doing because I feel bad? Jeongguk you were a stranger and I was a doctor who took the oath. I didn’t help you because of pity. I helped you because I swore. Because people rarely showing emotions so openly. Because I was scared that you will do something drastic. Every life is precious and deserve help. There is nothing wrong in accepting your weakness and letting people help you. Not even once have I thought that I am better than you because of it. I didnt do it to hype myself or show off my good side or maybe gain something. My main concern was your health and what can I do to make it stop hurting. Never once I looked at you and thought 'what a sad excuse of a human, a cry baby, weak'. Never. *He made sure to accent it and make you aware how serious he was.*


You don't get it you dumb , do you? All you see is the negative parts all the time. So let me give you some insight. Yes, was a lot for me to take in, and yes I agreed to it for you. But I also did it for myself. *He sat down again, glaring at you.* But I never did it to please you. for me was a transaction. Something I have to do to survive. You were a very first person who showed me it could be something different. More than just an act. You wanted me to enjoy it even if for you it was basic need so you could keep going. While I after everything, when I finally was stable and in good place avoided for years.  *He sighs looking at his hands.* I didn't wanted my past to stop me from enjoying everything with you.  You started to heal me step by step so you deserved that small trial and I deserved a chance to try as well. I trusted you and I wanted to see if I was right doing so. If during that night you would let them hurt me in anyway I would be done. I doubt I would be able to trust you again. But you didn't, and I knew I could do it. I never regreted that choice.  Now I know what I can expect if it happen again. That I can safely enjoy myself with you because you wouldn't let them harm me.  You can't  expect people to accept everything imediately Jeongguk.  Especially from people who had bad experience. You need to show them it can be different. Better. Nicer.  *His voice was quiet but calm and honest. *  I did not force myself. I gave us a choice. I gave you my vulnerable self and you didn't let me down. So now I know that next time I can trust you and enjoy it.  There is nothing wrong in taking a small step back so you can make a big one later.  Do you understand now? *He ask quietly hoping that something will finally get into your thick head.*

*When you didn't took his words seriously he stayed quiet just watching you turning it over. And you did so because you didn't understand how deeply his issues run and how many time he heard the exact opposite of it. Finally when you were done he nods.* I know I am hot now. I worked on that body for a reason. But that won't change the fact that I know who I see in the mirror.  That I know the past and I know how many people would find it disturbing and disgusting.  That's what I think about myself and still trying to change it.  *He explains looking at the wall and thinking, after a long moment he sighs softly.*

Jeongguk I know that. But I also noticed that you never give yourself any credit for things you did. Good things. You want people to see all the negative. I mean I get it, they will stay away that way, right? You will get the you needed and move on. It's logical knowing who you are. *He run his fingers through his hair.*  I fall in love with a demon. I know that. I know there is a beast under your skin and I know you can hurt me pretty badly with just your words, I mean you tried it already. But I don't want to dismiss all the other things just because you don't acknowledge them. Because I see them. *He snorted* Jesus, Guk, an ideal boyfriend wouldn't left me there to die all alone without a word.

You think this is just some bull, but I only told you all the things you already did. We are both pretty ed up. You can drive me crazy, even when I am more patient one from us both. But that's fine. Fighting is fine. Loving you is fine. with you is fine. It is part of everything. I don't expect you to out flowers and serenade me. You were honest with me from the very beginning and I like that about you. I enjoyed the companionship. The time we spend together even if it was just a or fighting, I welcomed that. I never once expected it to be easy and that is the exact reason I held back my confession. I knew it would be the end of us because you would feel the pressure of it. But I never once told you to change anything. I simply asked you to acknowledge it.  *He rubbed his eyes and then face, before he looked at you again.*

You obsessively love your ex. I am well aware of that and I know there is not much room for me there. I accepted it. It does hurt but I understand it. *He stood up, and moved closer taking you hand in his and squeezing it.* Are you ideal and lovely dovely? no. Do I want you to be? Also no. What caught my attention, really caugh my attention was how unhinged you were. How open you were about what you want and what you can give. You just do you not worrying about any consequences or pain you may cause. It is something else.  *He chuckled.* I guess that rubbed on me as well. You hurt me and yet I came here to seek you out. And I know you would hurt me again in the future. I probably would too. Not purposely but I could happen. *He looked down focusing on your hand gently rubbing cirles into your skin.*

I'm sorry that I love you, I won't tell you that ever again unless you asks me for it. *A soft yet sad smile appeared as he let go of your hand, taking a step back.* But you should know that I am not scared of that love either. It never supposed to be easy but there is nothing really easy about my life. There is nothing easy about you as well. You like being destructive. You are like a fire, burning everything on your path. I already got a taste of it.

That’s what pity ing means. Doing cause you feel bad, wanted to help me. Treating me like some weird, ty case like one of your patients to fix or help. *he shook his head vehemently.* I don’t with that- treating me like I’m some case to help… *but yet, he stays quiet when you try to correct him, him adding a snorting* yeah right… *but still listening to your explanation. At least- until his lips pursed when you sat on the bed alone, covering your face with your palms.*

*when you asked that question, he snorted with a dry retort* would’ve been more ing clearer to be treated like I’m just some for sure… *yet when you started to talk about the specific details surrounding your fear-induced trauma from almost dying causing you to hesitate that night, even if he was surprised at the very details, it didn’t change the fact that you just confirmed what he said was right. Sure, the details were more gruesome than anticipated but the conclusion was the same. That you felt that you had to be with him when clearly, everything in your body and past was leaning you towards a strong hesitancy not to. Yeah. That’s pretty much pitying him like you tried to deny you were doing.* exactly, grandpa Hyung, it’s all about you trying to make it work when it ain’t supposed to do.

*snorts* what the …this some new version of gaslighting you’re trying? Cause /who the / ever /wouldn’t/ love you with or without the trauma? Sure, you got all that trauma and but , you’re hot as hell and y. Just like me. And- You don’t know /how/ many souls wanna with that, with us jungkooks. Trust me, I’ve been to so many worlds, it’s a thing. And /you’re/ a hot thing. I am too. But guess what? *snorts dryly* I might have the and y times but unlike you, it’s my nature that makes it hella hard for people to choose me because no one wants someone who’d someone else when they’re together with ‘em. You, though… *shakes head in disbelief* all I did was wanna you, not pity you, wanna make you swoon like everyone else, outside of my job cause damn you’re a y personality. But you /naturally/ wanna love and be loved by someone without even caring about . That’s /the/ personality ticket to a good life. Something I just don’t have. So many others do, even other jungkooks. So when I’m saying like this, I’m not saying it like I’m some that doesn’t know . I know /exactly/ why the you think you love me but don’t actually. In reality, you want just that. That jungkook or another that’s just a sweet and loving guy. And I guarantee you *snorts* there there. Hella sweet and annoyingly domestic it’ll make you make you puke cute.

I don't get anything. Pity ? /You/ want to turn into a pity , not me. *His eyes narrowed in anger, and he shook his head violently.* Pity…*He huffs* This was never about a pity. That night, when I sat next to you on that bench, it wasn't because of pity. I genuinely wanted to help you because you were suffering, and I couldn't walk away. Because I knew how that felt. People did it to me on many occasions, and in some desperate moments I would take pity over nothing because it was something. *He rubbed his own arms as a form of comfort.* I pity my patients, those who can't simply change things. Who were born into wrong families. I pity them because no matter how much progress I will make with them, It will all be for nothing. But you? No. You made your own decisions that brought you where you are now. Of course, I am sure it wasn't all your fault. It never is, but all in all, we are both here, because of choices we made when we finally could. *Jungkook heavily sat down on the bed, sighing deeply and hiding his face in his hands. For a moment, the room was silent, before he laughed softly. *

You really think that someone like me would do all of this out of pity? Or that I have ulterior motive? That you were just someone I could with and toss aside? *When he looked up at you, his eyes were red and his expression so heartbroken. His voice shaky slowly turned into a barely controlled whisper, as he lost some of his composure.* Who do you take me for? A heartless monster? I never planned anything. I didn't plan to fall in love with you, but I did. *He blinks furiously, trying to stop his tears.* That night, on your birthday… do you know how scared I was? I almost died during the last I was forced into. I was so 'overused', beaten and cut. Someone found my body, bleeding, and dragged me to the hospital where I ended up having surgery because they tore me open. *His hands turned into fists, as he tried to stop them from trembling.* I trusted you. I still wanted you. I wasn't forcing myself to be with you, I just didn't want to see all those people around me. Not only that, but I clung to you desperately because you were calming and safe. I knew you wouldn't let them hurt me.

You are right, the closer I get to you, the worse it gets. The thought of you disappearing, of you leaving. I can't breathe. I'm haunted by every kiss that you should never have given me. My heart is beating, hoping that kiss will not become another scar. You are in my very soul, tormenting me because I don't love you with just my heart and mind. I love you with my soul, in case my mind forgets and my heart stops. *He stood up, taking one stop closer.* All my life I wanted to taste the love, feel it, know what it is. Yet, I gave up on it. I mean, who could ever love someone so disgusting like me. *He chuckled weakly.* But I met you, and it was something else, you didn't care about all that. Even if it was just a pity on your part, I didn't really mind. Even if it wasn't love, it was the closes' thing I could ever have. *His expression softened.* I never took you for granted, each dream was like a miracle. I expected you to leave me. Dreading it, but still preparing for it, and you did, and I didn't know why, and it hurt so ing bad. I searched for you, looked for you everywhere. Slept for many hours, hoping you will appear. Taking meds to stimulate my brain, but all I ever got was just an illusion made based on my memory and not the real you.

You want to know what I want? *Jungkook asked softly, looking at you with his big eyes.* You. I want Jeongguk, the beast without control. I want Jeongguk that teases me about ty stars yet still watches them with me. Jeongguk who took me out to a theme park for my birthday because he wanted to. Jeongguk who holds me so close after intense . Jeongguk who's eyes have a glimpse of his young, innocent self from time to time. Jeongguk who gets mad on a spot like a lit match just to calm down in my arms. Jeongguk, the impulsive little who calls me all sorts of names. Jeongguk who says he doesn't care, but his actions are meaningful and says otherwise. Jeongguk who speaks so softly about his dear hyung. Jeongguk who, despite the hurt, still cares to watch over the soul of his ex. Do you know that man? That's the man I love. That's the man I want to bring back with me and never let go. The demon with a heart bigger than he would like to admit. With all sorts of issues, who carries years of pain and disappointment in him.

*each time he pushed, Jeongguk was taken aback by how responsive you were to him, blinking at the surprising lack of rejection before pushing again. Eventually, you’d show your true colors he already knew. That it was all just some act to not displease him or just an act because you pitied him. Like some charity because he’s alone and . At least, that’s how he reasoned the time you reached out to kiss him harder or when you verbally retorted back that you cared for him when he was still not aware he was talking about you to your face. He snorts at your comment* yeah well, it’s still ing weird everytime I tried to get with the guy that /was/ supposed to be mine from the past, none of them could do it. *he snorts dryly* even in your world, I made that goody two shoes boy cry from how ty I am…hah

*his eyes start to melt into your own when you curse at him while also in pleasure as you lay your hand on top of his own that was stroking you. He snickers softly* nah, your hair’s so long like a girl’s, why would I like it? But… *his voice stays soft as his eyes look into yours as he grips at one of your side strands and presses his lips to the soft black lock of hair* I like anything on you, even long hair, cause it’s you… *his other hand slidse to your before lightly smacking it.* same goes for this ing eager- *but even now, he’s certain you’d move away from him as his tongue slithered inside your mouth.*

*he continued to make excuses in his head as to why you’re just treating him like some pity character. But when you quickly started to strip him even before he started to feed you the aphrodisiac, his eyes widened at the sudden force. All up until that point, he could explain away every response as just obligatory. But when you actively seeker him out, pulling at his shirt over his head, his eyes widen. Then his eyes melt again. There was the sadness that he was trying to hide so obvious and visible even in the dimly lit room. He gripped at your waist, lightly at the burning hickey before he pulled your waist closer to him, starting to slide your pants off your . He didn’t want to leave even a space less between our bodies. At least if it’s the last time, he wanted this to be passionate.*

*but when you speak, it suddenly makes sense. He dryly laughs with hurt in his voice now completely visible* so this is another pity then…? *his tone was soft in disbelief as he looked down into your eyes. Then he did something he usually wouldn’t ever do. He pulls away with a dry laugh* I get it, grandpa Hyung. I saw it even when you were still forcing yourself to be okay with being my y on my birthday. You’ve just never been into it in the way I am, and that’s totally chill *shrugs* so why the should I keep making you. *he sits in the chair near your desk* but /you/ came here…then ing /dared/ to bring all my up *he dryly laughs before he shook his head in a mix of confusion and hurt* I don’t know /what the / you want from me anymore… *he sniffs gritting his teeth as one tear drops off his nose which he quickly wiped away in slight hurt and confusion* but it’s definitely not me. Maybe a different jungkook that’s more romance and ty stars or whatever- than all the damn time. Newsflash it’s not just cause I’m an incubus. Even when I was just a ty human, that’s all I’d do with them es, too *he laughs dryly* so just stop… *he laughs dryly* stop ing with me. ain’t working…

*he exhales rubbing his palm to his eyes* the way to leave is to “release” by the way. *points to the bathroom* that’s your bathroom if you wanna in there *snorts* not like you’d ever let me do it… *dryly referring to Halloween as well- which he didn’t forget. It was all a combination of things. Because even if he acts all blind, he’s pretty observant to the people he’s more interested in at least.*

*Jungkook wasn't used to having any power over dreams like you do. It surprised him how quickly the things started to change to meet his needs or how his own body shifted to resemble his own, all which he didn't notice until later. Because that wasn't his main concern. You were, and when you have finally woken up, and started talking, he needed to fight back tears. He reached out, pulling you even closer, kissing you harder. Even if it was a small accomplishment, it was a start. The hope was still there. *

*He slowly sits up, looking at you as his body shifts to fit his image, all without him even knowing.* I care for you. I came here for you. *His voice was calm, his eyes lights with all the mixed feelings. Jungkook reached out, yet you already turned around, and his hands fell back to his sides as he listens. *

It does make sense, falling for yourself in a way, you know… Only you can truly understand and trust yourself. You have been disappointed so many times by the people around you. Who you trusted, maybe even loved in a way. The most logical thing is to seek comfort in yourself. Usually, it's not really possible, but here it is. Who could accept you and understand you better than your other version, Guggie? *He stood up, moving closer, just for you to pull him against your body. It was familiar, so welcomed as he leans into you, his hand resting on top of yours, moving with it. The other blindly reaching to rest on the back of your neck, pulling you closer, turning his head, your name softly.* you, you like my hair. *He cursed you, biting his lips, when the first wave of pleasure took over. He pressed his lips against you, sipping the favorite poison from it. * And my ty . * He turned, pressing his hard crotch against yours, wrapping his arms around your neck, meeting your eyes. His own burning with need, with lust, desire but also love.* And I like you. That's why I am here. To collect my baby boy, my favorite beast and impulsive little . *You didn't need any aphrodisiac because he wanted you just as badly. His body so responsive, so open and inviting. His hands moved, finding the hem of your shirt and pulled it over your head. Palms so hot against your skin, touching every inch, his lips against your ear and neck, leaving the wet kissing path as he moved down to your collarbone, where he left a pretty dark hickey. Fingers dug into the skin of your waist, pulling you closer as he looked up, the other hand holding your jaw in place.* What are you waiting for, baby, didn't you want to me? Make the 'one last ' memorable, huh? *He chuckled.* I can see it in your face, in the way you move. *The smile Jungkook gave was just as crocked and twisted, even if some of the hurt was evident in his eyes, but it quickly disappeared.* You want an angry ? Fine, we will do it your way, but after we are going to talk about 'why did you abandon me in a first place, right after the confession'. *He huffs.* I wanted to beg, to plead, to fall to my knees, but you are right. Anger is as strong as my love.